Alright everyone! Again thanks to those that reviewed and if you haven't, well you know the drill. Anyway, this will be my second chapter so here goes! Also if you want the disclaimer read chapter 1.
Bella woke up unsure of where she was. She faintly smelled something sweet, and achingly familiar. Bella quickly looked around realizing that she was still in her apartment but on the couch. Sitting up, she quickly remembered why she had blacked out, and frantically searched the dark apartment, looking for the beautiful sculpted vampire she loved. She found him across the room, staring at her curiously with his honey eyes of gold. Staring into his eyes, she lost herself for eternity it seemed until she heard a keening sound, like a wounded animal. She realized that she was making this painful noise. She was sobbing so hard her throat hurt and her chest felt like it would explode. After many moments of trying to even her breathing she spoke in small whispers, so faintly only he could hear,
"How could you? How could you leave me here to die without you? I didn't even know if I was even breathing, and now you are here. I would reach into my memories, and try to hear your voice in my head and try to think of a reason to live; but you never came back. You always faded, and eventually you stopped coming. I do not think I can lose you again, so please tell me I am not dreaming, that you are really here. I need it to be true."
Edward, so stoic before, looked at her remorsefully, wishing he could take her pain away, knowing he was the cause. He moved away from the wall he had stood against, careful to not move too swiftly, moving directly in front of her but not too close, not knowing if she would shrink away, or fear him. He knelt on his knee, and looked up at her with regret and sorrow. With hesitation, Edward whispered,
"Bella…I love you with all of my heart and my whole self. But I had to leave. I thought if I didn't that your life would be in danger and I wanted you to live, to have the life I could never give you. I suffered so much without you by my side, I was trying to save you. Every day I wanted to die because I could not live a life without you. But I realized after seeing you sink into torture and sadness, that I was doing more harm than good. There was no way I could continue to watch you suffer because of something I did. I had to see you smile once more, even if being here would make you hate me more. I couldn't see you or touch you or smell you and it was killing me. I missed you too much to stay away. I love you too much to put you in danger, but I selfishly cannot stop myself anymore. I am yours, always."
Bella stared at him in awe, not sure if this was a dream or a hallucination. She dreamt of this moment so many times and now that he is here in her living room, she is having a hard time believing it is true. She didn't care. She wanted him and she would take this even if it is nothing but a dream. She slowly moved off of the couch to Edward, never losing his gaze and bent down on her knees facing him. Slowly, Edward raised his hand to her face, caressing her cheek, relishing her smooth skin, softly brushing her hair from her face. Bella smiled serenely, closing her eyes and leaning into his palm. Edward was so overjoyed with love and peace. He finally had her in his grasp, finally touching her and holding her. To him, this was the purest form of heaven he could ever know. Wanting more from her cold angel, Bella lifted her arms and wrapped herself around his chest, burying herself in his scent and clinging to him fervently, afraid to let go. Edward wrapped his arms around her waist and bent his head down to smell her hair. Holding her close and tightly for a while, Edward lifted her and carried her to the rocking chair in the corner of the room, rocking her back and forth content with holding her against him.
Softly, Edward whispered "Bella, love, do you want me to stay with you? I know I don't deserve you, but after holding you and touching you, I don't know If I can leave you again, it would be too hard…" Bella lifted her face to his, kissing his mouth, nibbling and sucking his lips softly, shushing his doubts. When she started to lose her breath and close to passing out, he pulled away as she quickly gasped for breath. Edward furrowed his eyebrows with concern, reprimanded her softly, "Bella, you must learn to breath."
Bella sighed still breathing heavily, "Edward, when you kiss me, I forget to breathe. I feel nothing but my life merging with yours. I cannot breathe without your scent and breath to give me life. You cannot leave me again. Its too late to save me. I am hopelessly lost. I love you, if you leave me again I will die I know it. You have no other choice… she trailed off as if unsure. Edward stared down at her, his gold eyes tinged with a hint of black, his hunger returning. He took a long moment, staring at his beloved, before he simply said, "I am yours, and always will be." Bella smiled her worry forgotten. Edward glanced at her lips, her teeth biting her bottom lip, and he groaned, "Bella, please take your bottom lip out from under your teeth." She gasped, now conscious of his gaze on her mouth. Edward raised his thumb to her bottom lip and rubbed her lips where her teeth were. Glancing at her, she saw his desire. She was on uncharted territory, unsure how to handle his heated desire, but she knew she wanted him. She couldn't help her lingering gaze on his lips. Edward could feel the vampire in him raging, dying to get free to bite her lip and make it bleed sucking the blood from her lips. He restrained the vampire, though his eyes darkened even more. Gripping her tightly, holding her close, he touched his lips to hers lightly dancing his tongue on her lips and then swiping his tongue on the inside of her lips. She moaned, causing Edward to flinch, moving back instantly. He sat rigid against the Rocking chair back. Bella, winced, as his grip tightened on her. Noticing, he released his hold, she saw him visibly relax an inch, but not much. He turned his head back to her, never releasing his hold on her. He gently touched her face with his hand and met her eyes, and whispered "My Love, My Drug"
He leaned in again, this time more carefully, slowing moving his mouth to hers, watching her holding her breath. he gently squeezed her arm, lightly whispering, "breathe Bella." She gasped again sucking in air, and held it, watching him. He smirked, knowingly, and moved his mouth firmly against hers. He softly kissed her, memorizing her soft velvet lips with his. As his hands held her face he deepened the kiss, nibbling her lips seeking entrance to the wet soft, velvet mouth. All the emotion and passion he had for all of those months with out her seeped into the kiss, as he sucked her lips and licked the top of her mouth, wanting so much more. After a while, their passionate kisses became too much, and Edward yanked his lips from hers, moving back against the chair again. Bella struggled to gasp for breath staring at him and his lips, wanting more. Edward, smiled a small smile, and shook his head "Bella, your tempting me, I cannot control myself for much longer. It will be very dangerous, if we don't stop now. Bella wished he would never stop. Her look of desire and love never wavered. Sighing imperceptibly, Edward picked Bella up and stood. Bella's legs wrapped around him instinctively. Edward walked to the bedroom and her down gently on the bed. She unwrapped her legs around him, and watched as he moved to the other side of the bed. He removed the cover, sliding it to the end of the bed. He lay back with his head against the headboard, and simply held his hand out to her. She needed no other invitation. She moved quickly to his side, laying her head on his firm cold chest. Holding her tightly against him, he kissed the crown of her hair, and he held her all night. She wound her body tightly around him, clinging to him. Edward stroked her hair and hummed softly. Finally Bella fell asleep listening to Edward hum her to sleep with a lullaby.
The morning came all too quickly, the sun shining brightly through the bedroom window, falling across Bella's face. She woke drowsy and hesitant, afraid to wake fully for fear that it was all a dream and he would not be here. Slowly she shifted around finding herself face to face with Edward, his eyes never leaving hers. She sighed contently, satisfied that she had not been dreaming. Edward smiled, and softly caressed her face. Leaning in, he gently kissed her and nipped her bottom lip quickly pulling away. He smiled at her faint whimper, and said, "Bella, love, Alice is coming over. She was too excited to wait any longer, and I was afraid she would not have waited last night, but I know she will want to share in the good news. Then Esme who is also thrilled to have you and I together again, wishes to spend time with you. She also wants to cook for you again as she has new recipes to try." Anxiously Bella said,
"Edward, what if something happens again, and the same thing happens again? I cant loose you much less them. They are my family too, and I cannot go through this again. You have to promise me you will not leave me again." Edward, regret and sadness filling his eyes, replied " Bella my sweet, Jasper and Alice have taken extra precautions as have the rest, and I have as well. You will never be in danger again. I will never leave you. You are my life and my soul. Without you there is nothing for me to live for. I will be with you till you tell me to go.
Content in his answer and happy to just be with him, she snuggled into his side, her face buried in his hard cold shoulder, smelling his intoxicating scent of vanilla. Edward satisfied with her being close to him, held her and watched her as she lay next to him, memorizing her face, and loving every inch of her. There they stayed for hours, just holding each other. The sun rose higher into the sky falling across them. Edward sparkled, his pristine sculpted skin like diamonds, and Bella caressing him softly. Edward reveled in her touch, her warmth radiating through her fingertips, dancing across his skin. oh what sweet torture it was to be touched by her. How he ached for her.
Hours passed, the world continued as they lay there, they were the picture of bliss and happiness, until the door opened, surprising them both..And Samantha called out, " Bella, are you awake? We have to meet the others for study group..." She paused with shock, as she walked into the bedroom and saw Bella with the most beautiful man she has ever seen.