I told you this story is keeping me captive inside the keyboard. But it did let me see just a little of 6x01.

I feel better now.

M.J. takes out the oldest journal and opens it to the first page. She sits back in the chair and begins reading. The words are faded and in some places almost impossible to read. Some pages were evidently written in pencil, some in fountain pen and others in ball point.

The journal is written in a very different style than the books. This is, after all, a diary. A log documenting events as they happened. It is the musings of the creator and author. No editing for content or spelling has taken place. He can put his words in any order he so desires. In this case it is the sometimes day to day activities as they occurred. Other entries are weeks apart depending on whether something of importance occurred during that time. As the world around him rotates he commits to paper all of his thoughts and feelings

The story begins of a young man growing up in difficult times. His single mother sometimes struggling just to keep a roof over their heads. She takes odd acting jobs on Broadway but most often off Broadway where the pay is meager but usually steady.

There were many times where their life style was meager. But he tells in his journal that she did everything she could to make sure they he was never hungry and he always has a bed to sleep in and a roof over his head.

Christmas gifts were usually something not bought but a gift from her heart none the less. And she would always manage to perform "The Nutcracker" for him to enjoy. .

There were other times she was well compensated for her work and dedication to her craft and he was able to go to private schools. Unfortunately he would, on occasion, do things that brought the wrath of the school administration on his head and he would be sent away to find a new center of learning elsewhere.

The words from this book tell the reader that these two people were special none the less. They had a special bond between Mother and son.

The young woman notices as she reads that within this book there is no mention of any kind about his father figure. This simply reinforces the stories she was told about the lack of that person while the writer was growing up.

The stories written run from fun and sad. The writing inside indicates the signs of the beginnings of what will be the tremendous talent that comes later in his life

Once she finished the pages of the first journal, she realizes that several hours have passed. But she really has no special place to be and wants to learn everything there is to know about this man that put these words on paper.

She selects the next in the long line of books that are all ordered by the date on the front

The prior diary began from early high school until his college years. The writer begins by telling the stories of partnering up with other young men of his persuasion and partying until all hours of the night and not dedicating the proper amount of time to the task of education.

But he still indicates that he truly wants to write stories. Tell tales of fictional characters dreamed up from inside his imagination. He finally completes his novel and tries to sell it to a publisher.

Each new entry in the diary for a month tells of the rejection letter received that day from yet another publisher. He writes that he keeps the letters .Re reads each one to force himself to do better in the next manuscript

Then one day he meets HER. She is crossing the quad and he simply is taken by her. She is lovely. She is full of life like he truly wants for himself. He stops and introduces himself and she does not step back. She greets him with joy in her face.

He writes in the journal for that day "I met the one I have been looking for all my life. Her name is Kyra Blaine

They connect immediately. She seems to complete him and take away the emptiness in his writing. She gives him more purpose in life. He tries to dedicate at least some period of time each and day to composing stories of fiction and she makes it easier for him.

The story in this diary is filled with details. Many details of how the two of them were in love. Deeply in love. They had become in separate able. No one would come between them. No one COULD come in between. They would not let themselves be apart He is always with her and her with him. They are in tune. They are connected.

But all is not well in their peaceful bubble. Her mother considers him a bum. A low life. He did not come from money. He is not rich His mother had to work to pay for his schooling. He had to take a few odd jobs on occasion if he wanted to have extra spending money to take her on a date. But he found himself falling deeper and deeper in love with her.

Sheila Blaine said that he would end up a teacher of literature at some junior college one day. But he really didn't care what his future mother in law thought of him. He loved Kyra

The journal goes on and on telling of the struggles that were part of their daily activities. But she turned out to be his good luck charm. While they were together, he sold his first book. He didn't get a lot of money from the sale, but it was a published work of his and now he had a better chance of getting the next one on the shelves at the major book stores.

One day he decides that he is ready to take the plunge. Make a move in their relationship with her. He suggests that they get married

But this is where the story of the two star crossed lovers' goes bad. One side of this pair is the story of a hopeful writer. The other a free spirited woman determined to be her own person without help.

A woman not tied down to one man. Especially this man evidently. A woman who does not need the bonds of marriage. A single spirit in every way. She calls marriage a Jurassic institution

They knew that each was right for the other but then the forces surrounding their lives kept pulling her away from making it a lifelong commitment.

That free spirit of hers was determined to make other choices and to not become permanently attached to him

The left for Paris. The woman who firmly believed that he would never amount to anything worthwhile was pleased he daughter left him

He asked her to marry him.

She left.

She expected him to follow.

But he did not

The reader was not expecting the depth of pain in this story. She knew about the woman from earlier in his life and that he was with her for a few years. Just not to the extent that the pages of this journal describe. She struggles with her own emotions in trying to continue reading. She feels hurt for this man and how could anyone do this to him

But she gathers more strength and continues.

As she continues to turn pages she reads the details of how this love fell apart.

In the final line in the story about this woman he places in capital letters

SHE'S THE ONE WHO GOT AWAY