AN Chapter two for this story. I am happy you guys liked the start :D I hope I can keep it up. Seriously what do you guys think about the last ep? I mean I expected them to have Alex kiss Sean but Birkhoff kiss Nikita? Come on! Sorry for the delay of this chapter btw. I had to go home and I forgot to take the file with me so I could work on it.

They had made it out alive. It still baffled Nikita as she looked at her friends. Sean was sporting a wound to the shoulder and Alex was recovering from a bullet in her leg. Her small concussion from the explosion and Michael his dislocated shoulder were nothing in comparison. Still, they were alive. It had been a minimal chance once they were compromised. It had been Birkhoff his talents on the computer and his illegal gadgets that had gotten them out. His unmanned aircrafts had shot almost every agent who came close to the barn Alex and Sean had been in and thanks to the help from the air the two agents had been able to get to the air vent to get her and Michael out. The world was safe once again. Well, safer at least.

Thy were currently celebrating their survival with a delicious meal from Ryan who had joined them once again at the house. Alcohol wasn't really an option, but they were happy enough without it. Laughter flowed around the table as everyone enjoyed themselves. Talking about fun things instead of missions and murders. Nikita smiled as she took in the sight of Birkhoff throwing food across the table into Alex her waiting mouth, getting a lot of laughter when she missed. Birkhoff later confessed that the kiss hadn't meant much. He just had been fantasizing about if for so many years that he just didn't want to be left with the question; what if? Plus, he had added, he had loved the look on Michael his face. They were close friends, but that was all. A warm hand wrapped itself around her own and she looked to her side where she found Michael smiling. They had taken enormous risks on the last mission. While every mission was a risky thing, this one had nearly made their future together obsolete. She squeezed his hand: They had after all made it.

They moved the party to the living room, when slowly but surely everyone left for bed. The only people left downstairs were Birkhoff and Alex. Sometimes Nikita wondered if the genius liked Alex more than he let on. It didn't matter however as the girl was happily involved with the tall navy seal. One day the snarky man would find someone who loved him back.

Alex woke up the next morning with a blanket covering her. The only other person in the room was Birkhoff, who was already working away on the computers. She was rather comfortable on the couch and decided to just lie there for a while. The tapping noise of the genius his fingers on the keyboard made her focus her attention on the blond man. While he was her friend and they had been living under the same roof for a couple of weeks now she never really had looked at him. Perhaps it was because he usually hid behind the computers, but it probably had more to do that she just didn't see him like that. He wasn't what you would call handsome really. With male models like Sean and Michael walking around you would think twice before thinking of Birkhoff as handsome. Yet there was something about him that made him appealing. He wasn't very tall, which made him less intimidating than the others, but he was strong. He trained just as much as the rest of them. He was cute she supposed. The type of guy you went to for comfort. She almost snorted at that; Birkhoff comforting someone. It wasn't that he was incapable of it, but you had to see past the snarky attitude first. That was a rather unfortunate thing, because most females would probably not wait ages to get anywhere with someone like him. For a really handsome guy like Michael they might, but women were usually put off if the person they were interested in was constantly on defense mode.

"You should take a picture sweetheart, it will last longer." He shot her a grin, knowing full well she had been staring at him.

"Didn't you know I already have one of you and it's put in my journal with hearts around it." She shot back, getting herself a chuckle in response.

"Don't let Seal Six hear you."

"Don't let me hear what?" Said Navy Seal questioned as he entered the room.

"Nothing, Birkhoff and I were just joking." Alex told him as she leaned in for a kiss which she of course got. Sean shot the nerd a suspicious look, but left it at that. The look rather startled Birkhoff; what did Sean think he was up too? Suspicious bastard. Alex however didn't see it.

"How is your shoulder?" She asked checking the dressing for droplets of blood, finding it a pure white.

"It's fine, the pills help with the pain well enough. No need to drug me again." He joked as they walked out of the room. Birkhoff followed them with his eyes. He wished he was allowed to drug the guy again, at least then he was actually funny.

"Sean, can we talk?" Alex questioned as she sank down on one of the lounge chairs outside. Her leg was really killing her.

"What do you want to talk about?" he asked as he took the chair next to her. He grabbed one of her hands, rubbing soothing circles on the back of it with his thumb.

"About us…I just don't know what exactly expect from me…" her uncertainty was clearly visible in her face.

"What do you mean: what I expect of you? I just want you to be you Alex." He frowned at her, as if the whole question was just preposterous.

"I just sometimes get the idea, you don't really know me…"

"Of course I know you Alex. You are strong, independent, beautiful, smart and funny."

"That's just it. I'm not always that strong and independent and…" She was cut off by his lips on hers.

"And I will still love you." He murmured. "I need to go help Michael with something, we are fine right?" She gave a nod as a reply. When she was sure he was out of sight she let her tears fall. How could he love her if he wasn't sure who she was? He had called her beautiful; didn't he know that that beauty only was skin deep. She was scarred underneath from everything that happened after her parents had been murdered. There were things she would never forget. Sean had his own demons, but he had never been degraded the way she had been. He had lost loved ones and he had lost battles, but most of those had been fair fights. She had not been able to truly fight back before Nikita had come along. While she had certainly come a long way from those dark days, she still had her bad days. When the memories were relived and she just wanted to cry in someone their arms. Nikita had been that person for a while until Michael had come into the picture.

Alex did not feel cheated when Nikita focused her attention on Michael that much. Normally keeping a relationship was tricky enough, but with this team they needed extreme amounts of work to fix it. She just wished for the same thing. Someone who looked at her and saw the good and the bad and still loved her. She had been an adult for most of her teenage years, sometimes the young girl that was in her still needed to get out.

Maybe she just didn't give Sean enough time. She wasn't easy to get to know and he did genuinely care about her. Wiping a few stray tears from her face, she took a deep breath. Everything was going to be fine.

"You okay Alex?" Birkhoff stood in the opening of the doorway and she knew he saw her red, puffy eyes.

"Not yet, but I'm sure it will be." She gave him a watery smile, but he didn't seem convinced. He dropped it however and handed her a few pills which she realized were her pain medication.

"You forgot those." He muttered, heading back inside. If only Sean was as considerate as her favorite nerd was. Then she would be all set.

AN sorry one again for the delay. Hope you guys like it. Please review :D