Clarke's POV:

Waking up every morning I do the same thing before I go back to sleep at night. Day in and day out I go to the mountain and I walk through those doors to the hell hole that was once lock behind it. It's been three weeks since I arrived here. Three weeks where I have questioned my actions and the actions of Lexa. In those three weeks I have come to hate everything about the person I become since landing on the earth. Deep down I know that what happened that night wasn't Lexa's fault but I won't believe it. She left me at the mountain defenseless. She turned her back on me and my people. I will forgive her someday just not soon.

Three weeks of going down to level 5 and walking amongst the bodies. Burning their faces into my mind before I walk amongst the halls to see what it was about the mountain that everybody feared. I came to a conclusion. It wasn't the mountain that was feared or the people. It was the skills of these people that have set everybody on the edge. It was the skill of turning grounders into reapers. It was the skill of making acid fog. It was never about the people or the mountain. It's always been about their skill.

The grounders feared the Skaikru before the alliance. They were afraid of our technology. I know that Lexa will show up in the next few days. Not because she want to see me but because one of her grounders has seen me come in the mountain. Lexa is afraid of what I would do. She is afraid of my people and me becoming the new mountain men. She will never come for me.

I haven't just walked these halls every day for nothing. I looked around in searching of things I can take with me to continue my journey. Luckily I have gathered enough things to move forward. Now it just to wait till night falls before I break away from this place with all its demons. In preparation I decide to see if I maybe can blow up the place or if I can at least burn the bodies on level 5 so that they may rest in peace. By this time tomorrow I will be gone and Lexa won't find me this time so fast. I hope at least.

Lexa's POV:

Indra looks likes she is ready to murder me. She's been fuming since I told her we leaving for the mountain immediately. This morning when I woke up I knew that Clarke is going to run. I don't know for sure but I have this feeling in my gut and as Heda I always follow my gut feeling. Indra wanted to wait till tomorrow before heading out. She said that the sky girl won't leave.

Nearing the mountain the events of the night I left the sky people alone starts filtering my mind. I run through the events to see if I could have done something different to keep the alliance in tack and not taking that deal. The plan was perfect up to where Bellamy failed. He didn't get the prisoners to the back so that they can get rescued. Emmerson got the prisoners to move to the front. So that he could make the deal and he knew that I had no choice but to accept it. I just hope that Clarke can see it that way. I did hurt her by leaving her side. It sounds childish but I left Clark. It killed me to leave her, turning my back on what could have happened in the future if I didn't break her heart in that moment.

"Heda?" Indra asked getting my attention.

"Sha Indra."

"It's about an hours' time before we are at the mountain."

I keep riding rolling my eyes where she can't see me. I know this woods, I grew up in them. With every tree we pass the reality of seeing Clarke again is setting in. I know that she is going to be surprised and angry but I will make her see differently. My goal is that by the end of today Clarke will return to her people.

AN: hope it is okay. I will put another chapter up tomorrow to make up for leaving you guys so long. Had an injury during softball practice and messed up my hand. Healed enough for now to type at least. Enjoy it. Thanks to everyone who fav, followed and reviewed.