Authors note so sorry I haven't updated in ages hate me all you want to .will try get the next chapter up soon as possible depending on school workon

Disclaimer: characters don't belong to me except for danah who is based my best friend.

Nessies pov

Trust Jake to leave me to deal with dad alone. I can hear him shouting at me know not that I'm paying much attention to what the hell he is saying I'm just going to keep walking up to my room an .well this sucks dad has been listening to my thoughts all along and is know blocking the way to my room damn his stupid mind reading power it really sucks some times."Nessie why were you with Jake." He asks .seriously is there something wrong with his mind .I mean seriously does he not think. "Dad jakes my best friend and if you don't mind I'm tried so can I go to bed."

"How can you be tried it isn't even late"

"Well I am okay, I like sleeping and I didn't get my 40 winks last night so "why couldn't dad just let me get in to my room I wasn't about to go and sneak off for goodness sake

"Oh really how do I know you won't"

"Well you can hear what I'm thinking and stop me .oh and that reminds me get out of my head!" I shoved past my dad in to my room and slammed the door behind me. I didn't want to talk I had no control over what I was feeling or thinking let alone saying .god I'm confused .am I falling in love with Jacob black my best friend. he can't know .he can't know I love him .he'd hate me or worse .id lose my best friend if he finds out I can't .I can't lose him not know not ever .and dad I know your probably listing right know so piss of out of my head. at some point that night I must have fell asleep because in the morning I was woken by my dad shouting ,yet again what was this like the tenth time in a row ,but for a change it wasn't at me

"You can't tell her!"I was suddenly surprised when I heard jakes voice come from down stairs

"Why not she deserves to know"

"She's to young "my dad growled back

"Edward come on she should know I love her"

"You may love her, but she's my daughter and I say she's not finding out"

Their voices were getting louder and louder each time and I'm surprised they haven't woken up the whole of forks .so I decided I should probably head down and intervene

I walked in just before Jake could reply to my dad's comment "hey dad you really should shout more quietly jez you could have woke u the whole of Washington just then maybe should try being Jake"

Just then there expressions were both perfect matches of each other I could have laughed my head off at any moment then it might not have been massively appropriate so I held back the laughs threatening to escape from my mouth.

"You heard?" Jake muttered

"Yes you big idiot and do you want to know a secret … I love you too."

"RENESME UPSTAIRS KNOW!"Dad said omg talk about over reacting "KNOW!"

"Okay okay I'm going" I trudged back up the stairs as slowly as possible followed by dad as he dismissed Jake aggressively and very rudely to might I add

"Jake go know if you step inside this house again I will kill you"

"DAD!"

"Upstairs renesme"

This is so unfair I'm banned from seeing Jake .we didn't even do anything to be banned from seeing each other .I seriously need to get out of this prison cell of a room dad locked me in and yes I am in my normal room but he bared my windows, either to stop me from getting out or Jake getting in it might be both though, he'd also locked the door, but it wasn't going to stop me from seeing Jake all together still had to stay at grandpas five days a week for school as well as having actual school to attend and it would look weird if I didn't turn up to school and wasn't at Charlie's house think dad must have heard that as he came up telling me to get ready for school looking at my clock I saw he was right it was 7:30 the precise time I had to be up to be at school on time .when I was dressed in my usual begins sneakers and t-shirt something aunt Alice would kill me for wearing I headed off for school arriving just on time . throughout lessons I drifted in and out of day dreams .at lunch I grabbed an ice bun from the canteen quickly avoiding the massive queue that was about to form any minute know I headed outside it was as always cloudy with a slight bit of rain but it was forks and hay I'm half vampire so the cold really doesn't bother me much. I sat under a tree finding probably the only dry patch for miles around hoping no one would bother me, don't get me wrong I could have friends if I wanted to and yeah I do have some but its easier to be an outsider you can keep to yourself and that's what I needed to do I was soon joined by the only decent human I knew ,danah a medium sized girl with shoulder length brown hair greenish eyes and pale skin came and sat next to me "nessie its freezing out here why don't we eat inside today there's still room at some tables inside "

"I would danah but I don't feel like having people starring at me to see if I'm going to eat even the teacher's watch."

"Okay I get it just checking want me to stay outside with you"

"No aim fine thanks "she shook her head at me

"You're going to freeze to death out here day dreaming about a certain j.b and I don't mean Justin beiber."

"Yeah yeah whatever and I don't feel the cold "

"Na you wouldn't you're like a mini heater "we laughed at this and she turned around to head inside "oh just checking you walking back either me today"

"Nah I think I'll get Jake to give me a lift"

"Ok see you last lesson"

"Yep see ya "