Not What It Appears

Lily's Prov

This is so not good I want to be close but this is not what I meant, serving James personally is fine but he being aloud to do as he wishes with me is not such a good thing for me. I still have a scare from the split lip I hate it you can see it so perfectly. This dress is killing me I hate showing off my legs. I think I will put my hair up into a bun or leave it down… down will do… but all in all it is as if James has forgotten how to feel about any one, I feel his kiss all the time it never goes away from me.

I woke the other night and just lay there starring at the decorations on the ceiling and I swear some one was standing at my door watching me but when I sat up they were gone was it a dream or reality.

End Prov

Being personal property was not all that bad for Lily she did not have to do as much, she just had to do every thing James said not matter what she thought about it after all she is only property to a male in this male ruled world.

Lily sighed and took a deep breath and knocked on the door. "James I have a drink for you."

"Please come in" James said as he got up and opened the door for the person behind it. James eyes widened as he looked at what Lily was wearing she was doing as James had told her to do. She was wearing a knee high black dress with lace up around the top.

"Lily." James gulped down air trying to contain him self. "I mean Miss Evens, you look lovely ever so stunning. Would you mind if I painted a portrait of you, if you don't mind?"

"Yes, you can paint a portrait of me." Lily answered.

"Miss Evens if you go to my cupboard and inside you will find a dress. I would like you to wear it please." James asked Lily. Lily did as she was asked and went to the cupboard and got the dress out and she turned around tears welled up in her eyes. The dress was the green one she wore that night.

"Master Potter" but James stopped her.

"Please call me James at this present time." James told her.

"Mast... I mean James where do I get changed?" Lily asked as she looked around.

"Right there in front of me" James said with a greedy look in his eyes. Lily glared at him but she did as she was asked but she turned around so that James could only see her back and not her breasts but that did not stop James. He walked up to her and picked her up and placed her on his bed and draped a silk sheet over lower half of her body. Then went behind her he took of his shirt and started to give her a shoulder massage.

Lily leant back a bit, she let out a slight moan at the feeling of his hands making there way down her back. He leaned down and gave her neck a kiss her whole body started to tingle with the sensation of his kiss. James smiled against her neck. Lily moved and it disturbed him, she pulled the blanket up over her self and stood up.

James looked at her back as he stood up he moved her hair out of the way and gave her neck a little kiss as he wrapped his arms around her shoulders.

Lily bowed her head. "I can't do this James" Getting out of his arms she walked to where she had put her dress and picked it up, she slipped it over her head and dropped the sheet then slipped her shoes back on. She walked towards the door James griped her arm and pulled her back towards himself. Lily kept her head down so James gently lifted her head to look at him.

"I am really sorry Lily." He leaned her back a bit as he smiled at her. A single tear rolled down her cheek and landed on his sleeve.

"I am sorry for every thing I have said to you, that night a month ago I can not tell you how much I was shocked by you but to make it worse you hit me" Lily looked at James and she leaned up towards him and did what he did not expect at all she licked his lips and ran her fingers through his hair.

James lifted his arms and pulled her dress up and over her head. Lily stood on the heel of her shoe and pulled it off she did it with the other one as well. James threw the dress some where behind him not paying much attention to where it landed.

"Lily." James gasped out as Lily kissed him. James lifted Lily up to his height and he kissed her as she kissed his neck. Lily wrapped her legs around his waist and she felt him harden under her.

"James are you sure no one will come in?" Lily asked as she looked at the door.

"Yes, I have locked the door." James told Lily.

Lily took her arms from around his neck and ran them down his body. James shivered as she did so, Lily just smiled because this amused her. James turned around so that he could sit on his bed with Lily sitting on him. Lily put her knees either side of James. She now had the silk sheet wrapped around her again and then she put her arms around his neck and the sheet wrapped around him as well.

"James we really should not do this but I want to. What if you get caught with me I'm nothing more than a servant." Lily said.

James looked up and kissed her check. "Lily I do no care if I get caught I'm with the one I love. I only want you no one else." Lily smiled at him as he lied down and Lily was now on top of him. He kissed her and played with her body. He sat up after a while with her still sitting on him. James stood up holding on to Lily he pulled the blankets back and laid her down he then stood up and started pulling off his pants. Lily lay there with a smile on her face he climbed into the bed and pulled the covers over himself.

"Lily tell me are you comfortable with this or do you want me to stop?" James asked.

Lily closed her eyes and nodded. "Yes im sure." She opened her eyes they were not emerald green there were now dark very dark.

He closed his eyes and slid into her and aloud Lily to adjust then he broke through. Before he could block her cries and she dug her nails into his back

"Sorry that I can not make it stop hurting you Lily but I will go slowly till you get used to It." he leaned forward and kissed her as he got into a slow rhythm. There were names being called and panting. James rolled over and brought Lily with him so she was now on top once again. Lily stopped and just rested her whole body on him.

Lily was laying on her bed a week later thinking about James and her self. There was a knock at the door. Lily smiled as she opened the door but she soon lost it as a young girl stood there and not whom she had expected.

"Can I help you Miss?" Lily asked.

"Um yes you can. May I come in?" the girl asked.

Lily opened the door for the girl to come in. "so what can I do for you?" Lily looked at the girl.

"Well im to marry Master Potter" the girl said "so I kneed to know about both of the family."

"Very well Miss." Lily said. The young girl left Lily's room two hours later. After the girl left Lily realized that she had said she is to marry Master Potter. James. Lily fell to her knees and cried. She got up a while later and packed her bags with all her clothes and she walked to James room and put the green dress on his bed with a letter.

At dinner James sat there as his father entered and sat at his place at the head of the table. "James where is Lily will she be joining us for dinner?"

"I do not know father." James said as he winced as a chair was pulled out opposite him and a young girl sat down.

A servant came in and whispered into Lord Potter ear that Lily was gone along with all her stuff. Lord Potter got up and whispered into James ear. "Did you not tell Lily about your arranged marriage?"

"No I did not" James mumbled. Lord Potter hit his son over the back of the head. "But father I do not know whom im to marry." James said as he grasped the back of his head.

"Lily. You are supposed to marry Lily." Lord Potter started to walk away.

"Then father who is she?" James pointed at the young girl.

"This is my wife to be and your new mother." Lord Potter beckoned to the girl and they left the room.

James thought about places that Lily told him about and then he remembered her dream. This place had to be real James thought as he got up and walked to his room to find the dress and the letter.

Dear Master James

I am writing you this letter in hopes you find it after I have left your house. I will not lie to you I might not come back. I do hope you are happy with you new wife. Where will I go you wonder, I will go to my child hood home.

If you do want to find me all you have to do is look. I will not hid and if you do come for me I will be so happy and if not im sorry to say but I can not lie to my self any more I did love you but now im not so sure.

Signed

Lily Evens.

James read the last line over and over again as tears ran down his checks. He ran to Lilly's room and looked out the window. There he saw a shadow walking down the path James grabbed a coat for him self and ran out side and down the path but he did not say any thing the just followed the girl whom happened to be Lily he walked silently behind her.

Lily ducked through into a cave James followed her at a distance so that she would not see him. She slipped through a crack just big enough for James to get through .Lily walked over to a Bed and climbed on to it and she cried and cried. James hid in the shadows until she stopped so that she could let it out.

Lily sat up and yelled at the top of her lungs. "JAMES I LOVE YOU".

James stood up. "I love you to Lily Evens." James whispered from where he was.

Lily screamed.

"James is that really you or my imagination?" Lily looked at the person, well shadow at the end of the bed.

"No Lily it is me im here to be with you." James said as he walked around to Lily's side and put his coat over her. And picked her up and held her in his arms she cried and cried.

"James you lied to me" Lily said as he put her back down

"No I did not I didn't tell you of the marriage till I new whom I was supposed to marry.

"Well who are you supposed to marry then James Potter?" Lily asked as she looked him in the eyes.

"Well Miss Evens" James leaned forward and kissed her. "Im to marry you."

Lily looked up at him and smiled before she jumped into his arms and kissed him.

James and Lily stayed at the old house for several days and they were telling each other what it was like before Lily moved in with him.

Flash back.

James and Lily are out in the barn like they always are. There just sitting there talking but James wants to do some thing else. They are now fourteen.

"James if I was to tell you some thing serious would you laugh or take is seriously?" Lily asked him.

"It depends on weather it seems serious to me or not." James smiled as Lily folded her arms over her chest. "Ok ask me or tell me and I will do either."

"Well would you ever hurt me James? If not would you protect me from those who would try to hurt me?" Lily asked she seemed to worry about the answer.

"Lily if I ever hurt you I would never forgive my self. I will always protect you." James said as he got to his knees and crawled over to Lily and kissed her. Lilly put her arms around his neck and kissed him back.

End flash back.

Lord Potter walked over to his son and Lily and hugged them and gave Lily a kiss on her check.

"Welcome back Lily." Lord Potter said.

"Thank you Lord Potter." Lily smiled as James slid his arm around her waist as a comfort for her.

James whispered into her ear. "Im here for you Lily no matter what I will never leave you I love you."

"Thank you." She whispered back to him.

That night Lily walked slowly to her room and climbed into her bed and fell asleep. After a while she felt some one climb in and curl up behind her. She rolled over to look at the person. It was James Lily smiled and moved closer to him she could smell his scent and she fell asleep in his arms and he fell asleep smelling her hair. The next morning James and Lily went out side and to the barn. James smiled cheekily.

"Lily, do you want to play a game?" He asked as she sat down.

"What game James?" Lily looked at him and his grin.

"How about catch and kiss?" James smiled at Lily.

"Do you ever tier of that game?" James just smiled at her. "I will take that as a no."

They played for hours until the both became tied and fell asleep in the hay Lily leaned on James. They both woke up after dark and the laughed because they had missed dinner.

"Come on we better go to bed." James told Lily as they got up.

"Ok James." Lily got up and helped him up. On the way to the house James picked Lily up and spun her around and she giggled for joy like a child.