Here is chapter one as promised, I think I did better with my grammar this time, I was half asleep when I did the AN for the Prologue so forgive me if you saw it before it was revised, thank you to the person who reviewed and told me my grammar sucked, I forget your full penname, something about bunnies and god =) love the penname by the way. Here it is, voila!
Ajhena: She doesn't Own Harry Potter, JK Rowling does, she just likes to manipulate the characters, a lot like Dumbledore actually…
V: That is a story for another time =) Enjoy!
Harry Potter was currently sitting in the headmaster's office; he was glad that Dumbledore made his chairs so comfortable, because after all that happened to him in the last 24 hours, he was ready to drop at any moment.
~A couple days before~
"Where you going mate?" Harry turned around to face Ron.
"Just going to start early on my homework, the holidays start tomorrow and I want to get most of it done, because Sirius and Remus are planning on taking a vacation at a Villa they own in Italy since it will be warmer there than here, and you know how much Moony hates the cold."
"Of course Harry. A very good idea, one you should try Ronald." Said Hermione, she pointed this to Ron who just grimaced and replied back,
"I'd rather be a hired test subject for one of Fred and George's prank candies." Harry winced at that, Ron really did hate homework, Fred and George's pranks were funny but at times when they were in their first stages…well let's say St. Mungos has had a lot of…unique cases lately.
"Hired Ron? I thought that was all volunteer work." Harry mentioned this to Ron because Lee Jordan mentioned that a lot of the people who tested the products weren't paid, but the twins covered any medical bills. Ron snorted,
"If I'm going to risk my neck testing one of their monstrosities, I better get bloody paid, that way I'll at least be rich when I die, so my children will be well off." At this statement, Hermione mentioned he didn't have any children, to the amusement of Harry. Ron looked at his girlfriend then grinned and said,
"We could fix that right now it you want." Wiggling his eyebrows at her, she turned bright red and squeaked before whopping him on the shoulder which caused him to laugh outright and assure her he was kidding. Harry laughed as he walked away, finally happy his two best friends had realized their attraction for each other and got their act together.
He headed to the Room of Requirement, Harry liked coming here more than the library, because it was more comfortable for one, and he, Hermione and Ron were the only students that knew of it, except for the members of the DA, and most likely Malfoy. It worked better than the library because all he had to do was ask for the book he wanted and it appeared, all while laying on a nice comfy four poster bed with warm amber coverings and silky silver drapes. No one really came here, after all the DA members knew that there was a room here that appeared when you thought of the DA club, I don't think they knew it was a room that appeared as anything you want, or that it was anything else but the DA class room. The only one who did know it for what it really was was him and his two friends, Malfoy (he had seen him use it before) and Dobby the house elf. So it was very quiet and not crowded. Harry loved people, but liked his peace and quiet every now and then, even from his two best friends.
Harry was finishing his Potions essay fairly easy, Sirius was rather good at potions when it came to making them, and Remus was good at writing about them, and the concept of it all, more of the written part of potions. So Harry was doing well, since he had got some tutoring from them over the summer. He had found the Half-blood prince's book, and had found that he didn't actually need it since he already knew the potions; however he was impressed that the changes in the directions had helped a lot. He had told Remus as much, and when he looked at the book, he had known whose it was, quickly and efficiently solving the mystery that Hermione had been working so hard to solve herself.
~"That's Severus's writing, and these additions…." He pondered over the scribbling of notes and crossed off words, "Yes, definitely his."
"What's his?" Asked Sirius who had just walked in.
"Snape's hand writing." Remus said absently, Sirius peered over his husband's shoulder and made a face.
"Yea, that's Snivellus's handwriting alright, I'd recognize that messy scrawl anywhere." Remus laughed lightly,
"And what's your handwriting then, chicken scratch?" Sirius smiled at him in good humor before giving him a lewd grin.
"Well," he said running his hand down his neck, "I don't think it was a chicken that put this mark on your neck last night," Sirius purred at him, Remus froze as he rubbed at the bruise, before realizing that Harry was still in the room. He caught his hand, and chuckled.
"No, but we were talking about your handwriting, not your teeth Padfoot."~
Harry laughed at the memory, Remus never did like showing his affection in front of him, Harry had already assured Remus he had no affliction against him for his gender preference, actually Harry had already kind of thought of him as his second father, Sirius being his first, even before Remus and Sirius had come out and said they were getting married and had been dating for a while. Harry had suspected that they were involved because he might have had something to do with their relationship, but Remus seemed to think that the more he and Sirius were affectionate around him, that Harry was seemingly going to "wake up" and hate him for being gay, and with his godfather. To his credit, he had gotten better, Sirius however had no problems showing his affection with Harry present, actually he never showed "affection" no it was his sex drive really, making lewd remarks and dirty jokes all the time, because that's just who Sirius was, his personality was exactly as his anigmus, a playful puppy. Harry was still working on getting them to tell who was the dominate partner of the relationship, but Remus refused to say, and Sirius said he couldn't tell or would have to sleep on the couch for 3 weeks.
Harry finished his essay quickly and with nearly no help from Snape's potion book, he really did have to do something nice for his fathers. Without them, he would have been sunk a long time ago. Not just in Potions, but without them, he wouldn't have had a family.
~ "But Harry, have you been using it during your classes?" Remus asked him as he handed the book back, Sirius had taken a seat next to him on the loveseat.
"Yea, it has helped loads, though Hermione isn't very happy with me." Sirius barked a laugh at that,
"That's because she doesn't like being upstaged in academics." Harry smiled; he had already known that from his first class when he had used it.
"Not only that Harry, but because you're getting credit for something that someone else has done, Hermione does everything from her own head, it isn't really fair, and I can understand why she's so upset."
"I know Rem, but if I didn't have this I'd be failing right now." Harry said waving the book in the air, Remus and Sirius both frowned at that.
"Failing? Are you having trouble?" Remus asked. Harry raised his eyebrows comically then looked sheepish.
"Rem, I have been doing horrible in potions since first year, I'm not quite sure why I haven't been failed to be honest, I think Snape passed me just so he could torture me again the next year, it seems to be the most amusement he gets all day, well, that and bullying Neville."
"Longbottom? Poor kid, no wonder why he's so shy, that and coupled with his grandmother." Sirius commented,
"Harry, why didn't you tell us?" Remus asked gently, "Me and Sirius are very good at potions, though Defense against the Dark Arts is more of my strong point, and Sirius can't write an essay for his life, but he is very good at making potions." Harry frowned,
"I…never thought to ask, I didn't know really…" Harry trailed off, why didn't he ask? It never really crossed his mind, growing up with people who didn't care about you, and who were muggles on top of that, it's not like he could go up to Uncle Vernon and say, "hey Uncle Vernon, I'm suppose to write an essay on the uses dragon fangs and it says to have someone proof-read it and sign that they did, would you mind reading it over for me?" Well, he COULD say that, but that would have meant a week without food as punishment.
"Harry," Sirius said concerned, "we're your godparents you can ask us anything." Harry looked at him as if we said the strangest thing in Muggle London, Sirius cursed at his expression.
"Damn those muggles…we had thought you never said anything to us because you never needed anything, not because you didn't know…" Sirius continued muttering angrily.,
Harry looked at him warily, he never did like when people got angry near him, it usually meant pain for him, not that he would tell Remus and Sirius that, he trusted them but…he grew up thinking that the way he was treated was ok, until he got older that is, and saw how other children his age were all happy and loved, and started questioning the way he was being raised. Now at the age of 16 he knew it was wrong, the way he was treated and he was ashamed of it, even though none of it was his fault. He may be happy now living with his fathers, but that didn't mean he wasn't still insecure, he always felt like he was going to do something wrong, because he didn't know what WAS right or wrong in this type of environment that was so different from the Dursley's methods.
Remus must have read into the look on Harry's face, he didn't like it, the look of caution, like at any minute Sirius was going to turn around and hex him.
"Sirius, calm down." Remus muttered, Sirius looked at him about to say something but saw where he was directing his looks to, and saw Harry. His anger melted, and was replaced with a look of regret and a hint of sadness, because his heart had just broken a little seeing that look on his godson's face. He never wanted to see it again, and even more he wanted to kill the people who had made it possible for that emotion to be there.
"Blimey Harry," Sirius sat down next to him and put his arm around him, "Were your parents, well, godparents but, were here to help you, I know those muggles didn't raise you right and you know it too, a parent is there to love and help their kids."
"A parent should be someone that you could tell anything too and not be afraid that they will hurt you or reject you, I hope me and Sirius are someone you can talk to, because we want to help you Harry." Harry was taking this all in strides, but his head was whirling, he knew this all of course, but knowing and doing were two different things.
By this time Remus had moved to the other side of Harry and had his arm around him as well, so he was sitting between his two guardians. As Harry thought about what they said, he began to understand a little more, Sirry and Rem were the only two he knew that he could say anything too, because he knew Remus wouldn't judge him because of his own "furry little problem" which made him the target of other people judging him his entire life, and Sirius was much in the same boat. The Black family had a bad name, and a lot of people put him in the same category as his family, even though he hated them. They both didn't fit well with others because of this and therefore didn't jump to conclusions and were a lot more understanding, for this he was glad, the three of them really did fit perfectly with each other.
Harry smiled at them and Remus and Sirius were glad to see this, they seem to relax after seeing that their words had sunk in. The three of them sat in comfortable silence for a couple of minutes, just enjoying the family aura that surrounded them, until something Harry had been thinking about came up.
"Sirius, Remus? I have been thinking of something and thought I might ask you about it." Harry said quietly, he was happy when his voice didn't shake. They both seemed happy when he said this and nodded. Harry took a deep breath and plowed on,
"Well, I...your my only family now really, and you're my legal guardians and that's fine and all and were already so much like a family even with you just as my god parents, but I was thinking that maybe, since you two are married and all and you can't really have kids, if you could…I mean if you wanted to…" Harry was babbling by now and graciously Remus seemed to get where he was going with his little tirade.
"Harry, are you trying to ask for us to adopt you?" Harry couldn't speak he was too nervous, he just nodded, and silently in his head prayed he hadn't messed up the relationship with his only family. Sirius and Remus were speechless and Harry couldn't decipher the look on their faces, he felt like crying, 'I knew I shouldn't have asked, I deluded myself into thinking they'd want me as real family, now they hate me, my only family' he despaired over this, he might as well try to get out of this room and keep his pride before he cried in front of them. He cleared the lump out of his throat,
"Well, it's fine if you don't want to I was just, you know, uhh wow this is awkward, I'm gonna go and finish my homework" He tried getting up but was held down by the two, he panicked for a few seconds before both of them caught him in a crushing hug. Harry's breath whooshed out of him in relief, they can't be all that mad at him if they were hugging him, but they could still hate him right?
"Harry," Remus whispered, "we're not angry, pup." Harry relaxed fully at those words, he could have cried in relief.
"Actually, we have been wanting to make you our son for a long time, but we didn't know if you were comfortable with the idea, didn't know if it would appear like we were trying to replace Lily and James, because we aren't Harry." Sirius told him gently.
"I know, because actually, I don't even remember them, so it isn't really possible for them to be replaced, since they were never really there to begin with." Harry told them both, Remus nodded.
"Are you sure Harry?"
"Yes, I'm sure; all I have ever wanted was a family. So when can we do it?" he asked excitedly, they both chuckled,
"Whenever you want, there are different types of course, potions and spells alike-"
"Actually I already found one," Harry said sheepishly, Sirius chuckled at him,
"Just how long have you been planning this Prongslet?" Harry ducked his head in further embarrassment,
"Uhh, since I caught you two snogging in the hall way before the end of 5th year." They both stared at him.~
Harry packed up his stuff and smiled thinking about that day, that was a month or so after Sirius had reappeared from the veil, which they still don't know how that happened, and neither does Sirius, or so he says.
For the adoption they had used a potion that you had to get from the Ministry of Magic, and sign papers to change the name over and all, so now he was Harry Adrian Black-Lupin, though not many people knew this, it was a lot easier to keep him as Harry James Potter in public, because he could go to lunch with his parents without the waiter staring at him, or worrying about a pedestrian calling the newspapers to say Harry Potter was eating lunch at Lucy's Eatery, thus making 20 or more paparazzi show up, disrupting his day out.
He was very happy with his family and hoped nothing changed, he couldn't bare it if something happened to them, he had already lost Sirius once, in the middle of his 5th year, it was two months when he reappeared but it was the longest two months he ever had to live through, it had seemed like years, then when he came back, it was so…uplifting, like he was on cloud nine, that was when he put his plan to get Remus and Sirius as friends together, it had only been a month after he had come back from the veil and they had spent a lot of time together, it was then that Harry decided he didn't need Lily and James anymore not when Sirius was there, and then when he got Remus and Sirius to be friends again after so long and saw that spark of attraction, he just couldn't resist getting them together; after all it would make Sirius happy and if harry got two parent figures out of this, him happy too. He had always looked at Remus as an authoritative figure, however they didn't find out it was harry who got them together until the beginning of his 6th year, and it was right after he asked them about adopting him.
"You knew about us then?"
"Before you two announced it actually, because well, d-don't get mad ok?" he gulped maybe he shouldn't tell them this yet,
"Of course not Harry, now what are you talking about?
"Well, you see…" He took a deep breath, "After 3rd year, you two didn't seem very close because of the time gap of...all the stuff that happened, and I could tell you wanted to get close but you both were just..too cautious, so that night you two were in the library drinking butter beer, when that shelf knocked over, ok well I knocked it over but, while you two were fixing it, I might have…slipped some fire whiskey in your drinks."
"Wait, you…spiked our drinks?" Remus asked,
"Uhh, yea but that's not it, see, with the alcohol I thought you two might open up better, and I was right, so you two were getting close to friends again and I was happy, but then I saw…something else, there was this look you two kept given each other when the other wasn't looking, and I recognized it because Ron and Hermione have been doing that for the last 6 years at Hogwarts which is another story entirely because they still didn't find out it was me who locked the closet on them and took their wands but…"
"You got Hermione and Ron together?" Sirius interrupted, Harry nodded before continuing,
"So, I decided to do something, and I didn't think alcohol would help, so well I took the same approach as Ron and Hermione but it didn't work-"
"That was you!" Sirius exclaimed "We were in the room that bill Weasley was going to use while he was visiting and I got Mooney to help clean it with me and then the door wouldn't open, not even with Alohamora!"
"How did you do that by the way?" Remus spoke up,
"Well the Black Library has a lot of spells, most aren't legal, but it wasn't hurting anyone…"
"So you used a dark spell to lock us in?" Sirius asked close to laughter,
"Well yea, and it didn't work, then I figured out that all the stuff I was doing WAS helping, cause you see it was creating tension and so much tension can only go on for so long until it breaks." Remus shook his head in amazement,
"You should have been in Slytherin Harry." Harry smirked at that,
"Well I almost did but that's for another time," seeing Sirius opening his mouth, "Well, the next thing I did was some more tension, since that room was big and not close quarters it didn't do much good, so I levitated Sirius into your bed Rem, and I knew you would wake up if I tried this fairly because of your advanced hearing, so at dinner I slipped a sedative in your juice."
"I knew that juice smelled weird." Remus muttered,
"Well, I have to say I couldn't resist to see if my plan worked, so early in the morning I got up and peeked in, and caught the moment you woke up," Harry laughed, "it was funny, but I was glad to see it was working, by the way Mooney was eyeing you Sirius I thought it had finally worked, but then that house elf came in and interrupted," Harry sighed,
"There is no way…" Sirius trailed off, he cleared his throat, "so what ELSE did you do, oh sneaky god son of mine?"
"Well, then it was the week before Mooney's transformation and Voldemort really seemed to be picking up the pace and more and more people were getting hurt, and Remus was getting really worried, especially with Sirius, so I saw this and used it, I'm sure you had a very bad week Sirius, I believe everyone thought a bad luck pixie was with you, all the times you had an accident." Harry couldn't help it, the laugh that escaped from his god-parents expression.
"My first attempt at getting Remus worried for your health was when you were coming down the steps and Remus was the only awake and was at the bottom of them and it was perfect and I had my invisibility cloak with me, cause its always in my pocket under a shrinking charm, and I used it and put a binding charm on your feet, well needless to say you tripped and Remus caught you, I had thought it was done there but then Molly Weasley came out of the kitchen, because APPARENTLY she cleans it in the late hours of the night, it was very frustrating because something always disrupted you two before anything happened. After a whole week of tries, it finally worked, however I don't think I really want to tell you the rest…" Harry seemed really nervous now, he really wanted to leave because he knew Remus had a right to be mad at him for this, Remus's eyes widened,
"That night I got out of the basement when I was in Werewolf form…the locks were silver and unbreakable, we had known someone undid them but we didn't know who…" Sirius and Remus both looked at him now, Harry really wanted to transform right now and run far away,
"Harry, was it you?" Harry was scared, then his resolve strengthened, no one was hurt and it made his parents happy,
"Yes it was, and I'd do it again." They didn't look happy about that,
"Listen before you kill me alright? No one was home, but You, Sirius and I, me and Sirius were both safe because we have an anigmus form and it worked to make you both happy. I left the house after I took the locks off and locked any doors magically and physically and put reinforcement charms on them from the Black Family Library; it was made especially for Werewolves ok? Then I came back in the morning after everything was over and found you two sleeping peacefully in Sirius's rooms with evidence that there was a reason you two were naked, not to mention that time a week later I caught you two in the hallway, when you thought everyone was asleep," harry told them, "I didn't do it to hurt any of you I swear, I just….wanted you two to be happy." Harry said quietly at the end. They both stared at him, Remus sighed and Sirius was still taking it all in.
"I can't say I'm not angry Harry, I'm always worried I'm going to hurt someone, but…it was wrong and I think you know that." Remus was frowning lightly,
"I'm sorry." Harry said he wouldn't look at them, he was thinking how it would have been better to say his plan had failed then been happy to find out someone else's stupid prank had gotten them together, though it would have been lying, at least they wouldn't be looking at him like they are now, a look of disappointment, it made Harry more guilty and upset then if they were angry and yelling at him. He wondered what they were going to do, would they still adopt him? He felt a hand on his shoulder and he just kept himself from flinching. That was the last thing he needed them to see, him being even weaker.
"Harry, look at me." He shook his head, he couldn't, not right now. He felt a hand on his chin making him look up, he looked into amber eyes who regarded him warmly.
"It's alright Harry, and I'm glad you want me to be Happy, I'm touched that you care so much about us, and I want to thank you because I know without you doing all that stuff we wouldn't be together right now. Families forgive Harry, and since you're going to be our son soon, I just want you to know I love you Harry and so does Sirius, very much." Harry shook at the words.
How long had he wanted to hear that? Too long, the Dursley's had never said it, so he looked toward parents who were dead, and he yearned for them. No, not for them, for their love, he never let them go because he wanted their love; proof of their love other than his mother's sacrifice. He wanted to hear those words "I love you" and now he had parents who loved him and he didn't need Lily and James Potter because he had Sirius and Remus Black-Lupin who loved him, he was loved and he had heard it with his own ears.
He couldn't help it, the tears fell, he tried he really did but it was no use, and Sirius and Remus held him until he stopped they were there to assure him that he wasn't alone and that they were a family.
"So, does this mean you'll help me with my lack of potion skills?" Harry's muffled voice came from under 2 pairs of arms, they both laughed,
"Yes, and maybe on your other skills too, I heard you're very good at dueling…"~
It was now the end of his 6th year it had been almost a half a year since that talk and he was happy, he had parents, he never doubted anything anymore, not to mention that after Remus found out Harry was the one who got them together he didn't seem to have a problem showing his affection towards Sirius, because Harry had told him he had seen worse, to which Remus blushed and Harry laughed. Harry's insecurities seemingly vanished after that, it was like he was a new Harry. As he laid down on the bed he felt his eyelids getting heavier and the last thought that went through his mind was that he WAS a new Harry, because now he was Harry Adrian Black-Lupin and he was loved.
