23rd November

I really don't like Mum's new boyfriend, Dave. He's a right grease ball and he keeps leaving packets of drugs around the flat. Yesterday I caught Darren using some bags of cocaine as cargo for his toy trucks. Believe me trying to bribe a 6 year old into giving you something when you have no sweets is very hard. I'm worried about Darren, this isn't the first time that i've caught him with Dave's drugs. I keep telling him not to but that is like a red rag to a bull, you tell a young child not to do something and it makes them want it more. I tried to talk to Dave when I came back from school but he was (to quote my mum) 'out on a business meeting', which basically means he is either selling or buying some sort of drugs. I reckon thats the only reason that he's lasted that long, mum doesn't have to got out selling herself to get drugs she can just sleep with her boyfriend. Told you she was a lovely woman.

Something weird happened at school today. Theres been rumours going round that Michelle and Dean have slept together for ages now but when some six formers I didn't know asked Michelle about it she went all strange and mumbled something about being late for class, then took off without another word. I tried to catch her up but I couldn't find her and ended up being late myself. (Luckily the teacher wasn't there and the cover teacher had got lost. Again.) I didn't see her for the rest of the day and when I met up with Paul and Liam they said that Michelle had gone home sick. That means that I won't be able to talk to her for at least two days because their mother is so overprotective that if any of them are sick there but on bed rest until they get better. I'm so glad my mum isn't like that but she could be a bit more kinder when I am ill. Normally I get told to pull myself together and get to school, or she's too off her face to care so I just stay in my room. The only problem is if I do this then Darren climbs into bed with me and wont get up because he knows that mum won't make him.

I really hope that Darren doesn't go through my stuff again because if he finds this notebook i'm dead meat. Last time he went through my stuff, he found a angry letter written in a vain attempt to get a boy to leave me alone (thats another story) but I slipped it inside one of my maths books when he came in and forgot about it. Two weeks later, he finds it and calls whoever mum's boyfriend at the time a bastard after he broke one of his toys. Mum asked where he got that word from and drops me in it.

To be honest I hope no one ever read this unless it's an older me because there gonna be bored out of there mind. Nothing ever happens that worth reading about. I guess I only write in this to keep myself sain because it's almost like talking to someone. God, doesn't that make me sound sad?

Not really sure about this chapter, please review and tell me what you think as I don't know wether to carry on or not.

Thanks to Meant2BeLiamCarla, heleni0 and lastrequest for your reviews :D