Chapter two surprise visit

I woke up. Wishing everything that had happened was a bad dream. I could barely move. I was in so much pain. I wanted to die. Everything had fallen down. My sanity was nearly gone. I just wanted to scream and scream at the top of my lungs. I started getting up my hole body ached. I had been violated. I felt so dirty. I was broken.

"Jenny its time for breakfast sweetie" I heard my mom call. I froze I couldn't tell her what happened she couldn't find out not now when she's finally happy I cant. I put some random clothes on. I went downstairs and studied my mom. Honestly she was beautiful. Brown muddy eyes. Curves like an hour glass. Smile of a goddess. She set two pancakes in front of me with eggs and milk. I wasn't hungry. I didn't want to make her sad. So I ate one pancake.

"What's wrong sweetheart?"

"Nothing mommy."

"Well your usually a chatter box. By the way Amy called said you ran out of the party what happened?" Amy! Wow, now I have to lie more.

"Nothing mom someone just brought heroin. I didn't want to be there when the cops came you know?"

"Awwww sweetie I'm proud of you."

"Thanks mom. I'm gonna go watch TV or something okay?"

"All right sweetheart."

I ran to my room. Trying to find something to brake and destroy. There was nothing all I could do was brake myself.

"Sweetie I'm going to work be back later"

Yes! Time alone. Time to think. I went downstairs looking trough every cabinet, trying to find my sanity. Yes a knife finally! I put love is blind on my stereo cranked it up to four hundred. I started slashing my left arm slashing and slashing watching the blood come out.

"How could you do this to me! I never wanted this! What did I do to deserve this! All my life I've been good! And now you put me trough this? Rape! Rape! Raaaaaapeee! God! Why! Why? Never in my life will I fuckin forgive you do you hear me! This is all your fault! I should have never gone to that party I should have never gone upstairs! I should have never been fucking born! Is that it was I born for this? AWNSER ME GOD!"

I turned down the music I cried I stared at my blood wishing I would die already, Wishing that god would take me, I was torn in two I was dirty I was useless. This couldn't be happening I was loosing it my arms were bleeding everything was going blank. I heard the bell ring. I felt like my insanity gone. I went to the door opened it and saw God. And everything went blank.