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I woke up at 5 am and started preparing for school. I put on black jeans and grey shirt and also put on black converse shoes. It was just usual "after him left" morning and I was exhausted just from sleeping if we can call all night waking up and crying because I have had my heart destroyed. Every morning I feel like a burden on my father because he has to take care of me.
I went downstairs and made myself a cup of warm milk. While my milk was heating up I went in the hall and looked myself in the mirror. I lost weight every day I was skinnier and skinnier. Because of my weight loss Charlie literally pushed me from our house to the nearest hospital so I could get checked. They told him I was fine but since I looked so pale and exhausted I should get a psychiatric. When they told me that I pretty much lost it I wasn't sick nothing was wrong with me except the fact that I lost the person that meant the world to me. Charlie hasn't pursued anything after I had a meltdown that I don't want anybody to have to talk to me. I had nobody but I was living. It wasn't fine and nice living but it was living. " Bells what are you doing up?" Charlie came down the stairs in his PJ's. " I am making myself milk do you want some?" he came through the door " Bella is 5 am what are you doing dressed?" I looked at myself and then at him " I'm going to school but I have some work to do before school today." Charlie wasn't curious about the things I had to do but was trying to make me go back to sleep or just eat anything else than just a cup of something: " Dad I'm not hungry. I ate fish yesterday." "Bells you ate like ΒΌ of a fish that you had on your plate. You will get sick honey. He is not worth it. You deserve better than what you are getting" I lifted my head up and looked at him. I understood he didn't knew what I was feeling in regards to him. "Don't do this dad please." He wanted to say something but decided it wasn't the right time. I went in my room and started to cry. I pulled my legs to my chest and cried my eyes out until it was time for school. I packed my bag and got into my truck. I went to school but just when I parked I turned around to see if I got everything I saw a CD I turned it around and I gasped. It was the CD he brought me and it contained my lullaby. A tear slipped down my cheek and I kissed the CD in my hands. I opened the door of my truck and went out. Something weird was happening around the school I could feel it, my hands were shaking because it was so cold and suddenly I felt the same electrifying feeling I got when I was around him. I thought I was crazy because I was getting worse at living my everyday life without him. I shook of the feeling like it was nothing and went up the stairs, when I came at the top of the stairs my clumsiness got the best of me and I fell. All of my books fell out of my hands. But just when I started to gather together all of my books I saw a pair of hands helping me. I thought maybe Tyler came to help" thank you T.." until I looked up "Edward? What are you doing here?" but as soon as I said that I collapsed.
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