My life is brilliant.

My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

- You're beautiful, James Blunt

"Eli you haven't talked to Natasha yet haven't you?" James asked me, i was sitting in the school court yard with my head down between my legs.

"Do we really have to talk about this right now? I haven't had any caffeine yet this morning and i rather not talk about it at all really." Natasha Redfern was the girl of my dreams with her long Burnett flowing hair. The color of her gold eyes twinkled every time she looked at you. My heart just wanted to melt every time. But of course i never acted like i knew she was there.

"Why wont you event talk about her dude? Your always so damn mopey!"

I just sat there scared to even say anything thing. Kids begin to walk into the court yard to wait for school to start. An emo, with dark black ink looking hair and a few popular chicks, my kind of crowd that acted like they own the school. "Aren't you even going to say anything?" James yelled, people where now staring at us.

"Yeah, i'm madly in love with a chick i hardly know, to make things more messed up i'm too chicken to talk to the damn girl!" I whisper so no one near by hears my pathetic complaining.

"And your going to just stand there by all fucking mopey because of it? Geez Eli grow some balls and just ask Natasha out man." James didn't know me like he think he does and his sitting here and telling me to grow some balls ha! Did he have parents die in a car crash because of a drunk teen driver ?

"Man don't even go there okay?"

"Then where do i go Eli cause your just getting worse by the day. Your own parents can not even get you to come out of your room! In fact no one has even gone in your room for three fuck-en years! Eli may i ask WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU MAN?" he yells clearly more than a little angry.

"No you may not ask that!" I answer then continue . " There is not anything wrong with me okay? Just cause no one has been in my room for three years and i don't come out of my room doesn't mean there is something wrong with me okay?" The real truth was that i was seriously fucked up and believe it or not my room is yellow of all colors to paint your room.

James starts the shake his head "Man listen to you, can't even make your own self believe that shit." Ha at least someone was telling the truth here...

"And there is your girl..." Natasha strolled by with her friends, my mind was processing her movement in slow motion one steps a min. She was wearing a blue and white striped tank top and my favorite shorts on her, they were white with small pink hearts around the cuffs and of course they were short just like almost every pair of girl shorts these days.

"Why don't you go talk to her right now man? I see the look on your face. We both know you wanna." He was right i wanted to but the real question was do i have the guts to. Natasha was getting near the glass door to enter the school. But at the last second she deiced to turn, at first i thought she was going to talk to another member of her entourage but then she turned. Oh my god was she really going to talk to me?

The look on my face must have started to freak James out because he started to say something. "Hey man... um are you okay?"

"Yeah, i feel fine i swear..."

"Really? cause your face is getting as white as paper and she is almost over here. You want me to go see what she wants?"

The first time she is going to talk to me and my best friend wants to go see what she wants?

"Hell no! man this is the first time she has ever made an attempt to talk to me okay!" i snapped.

"Okay man, then you might want to get it together before she makes it over here." Natasha was now only a few feet away from us. Her feet sounding like a drum as each step got closer.

"yeah I'm wor-" I was cut of by Natasha's presentce i didn't realize she was in front of me.

Until spoke "Um Hey, Eli right?"

Both James and I looked at glanced at each other. " Yeah..." I responded.

"Well a few friends and I are having a party down on first beach this weekend..."

"yeah..." that's a that i could get out of my mouth, she most likely thought i was a retard or something.

"I was wondering" she continued "if you would like to come?"

"sure..." I managed to get out. And with our little talk clearly over Natasha walked away, her friends joined her as she walked into the building giggling all the way inside. I had a feeling that wouldn't be the last of Natasha...