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Three pragraphs of OC and the rest is Lord Balem ^..^
Thank you DianneBaquiran! This Chapter Part 1 is dedicated you. 3 days ahead of schedule ;)

"I was too young you should have known better than to lean on me… I cannot cry because I know that's weakness in your eyes… Because of you I find it hard to trust Not only me but everyone around me…" Because of You by Kelly Clarkson

I am all. I am nothing. ALL Nothing at once. Wanting to merge as one, I'm the oxygen and he's hydrogen2. Yes, for now, he's at a higher level than me, I intuitively know this. He tasted oddly familiar, and yet different from anything else I ever had. Moving forward to crouch on his heels, he tangles his hand in my hair, pulling us closer as he matched his lips to mine. I giggle again, now that we are kissing like average humans. To make him feel connected, I match my breathing to his.

With my eyes still closed, I reach to touch that lovely hair of his, on the short part, letting it prickle and tickle my hands. Opening my eyes, his eyes are closed and a tear threatens to run down his cheek, I would kiss it if mine where free from his lips. I'm taken aback that he seems lonely, I should have felt that and feel a little guilty but then I remember that I'm not responsible for other people's feelings that I must heal the wounds my parents left in me, of being responsible for everything. It's getting cold and darker, the gardens ambient lights start to flicker on bringing me back to reality.

Crying, I should have kept my eyes closed. I tried to move back. In precised calculated moves, he used my own movement to push me backwards, and he let go of my head, gently falling onto the grass. Leaving no space between us, how can he be so nimble? The sad one grabbed and held my hands over my head while he easily forced opened my legs so that our navels lined up, the seat of our connection to the source, he either lied or doesn't understand what he is doing because he's knows how exchange and grow energy. Feeling the magnetic pull of our centers joining, I panicked as our magnetic fields started pulse together. Two broken machines selfishly generating enhtropic energy feels invigorating but it's terrible for the rest of the inhabitants. Energy stealers, like using electricity for mind numbing entertainment instead of something useful. I beg in my mind please, please be patient with me. And if I would have been thinking correctly I wouldn't have inhaled through my nose as much as possible and exhale with as much force as I could master. Mistake! Created a vacuum as our tears fell.

("There's no time for us, there's no place for us. Who wants to live forever? There's no chance for us, it's all decided for us… Who DARES TO LOVE FOREVER? Oh Oh… When LOVE MUST DIE! … Who is forever anyways?" Who wants to live forever by Queen)

I thought this would have erased it, or at least numb the pain, but I was wrong the memories still hurt. Opening my eyes, I let go of its lips and it looks at me with concern. My face is wet, was I crying? And I'm shaken by the realization that I'm on Earth. How much I hate this planet and how she used to tease me. I shouldn't feel special. She teased all of us, giving kisses on our lips since we where babes and still in adulthood; knowing exactly what she was doing. I was in awe of her power over everyone and everything. Mother how much I hate that you wouldn't let me touch you nor anyone else. No friends, only ReGenX-E customers.

All you ever wanted me to do was work because EVERYONE in the universe is depending on us and that I shouldn't waste my time on trivial things. Reminding me every day that I was made especially for you to run the company and to be the caregiver; you where proud of my DNA and its expressions, so much that it's etched on the wall of Ouroboros, our main refinery. Did you really love me? And how can I still love you even when reviewing all those beautiful atrocious memories? This creature before me isn't you, it doesn't even look like you, yet it brings up all these confusing feelings within me. NO this isn't my Mother… but better because SHE is… IT IS MINE! All of it is mine to do as I please. This planet is mine, everything on it its mine. The UNIVERSE IS MINE!

"I was always the chosen child. I walked around broken just barely coping. Getting it wrong, getting it wrong. How do you love someone without getting hurt? How do you love someone without crawling in the dirt? It's hard to talk to see what's deep inside. It's hard to tell the truth when you've always lied." How do you love by Ashley Tisdale

Crying I let go of its hands, I slid my hands between the ground and it to hold its head in my hands, and prop it on my lap keeping the regenerative center connected. It gave that look of worry that Mother used to give me right after she went too far. Smiles saying, "Lord Balem, are you an illusion or a real illusion? May I touch the bracelet on your hand?"

Ignoring the first silly question, I give it my hand saying, "yes"

It plays with my Holo-Band, first touching its ridges, then by twisting it around my wrist, till it sees my Title, a blue animated Orous confirming 'official original DNA' and not a clone. "Is that Horus? My lord." she says.

"Yes, it is Orous; O-r-o-u-s not Horus, the Earth Sol sky god."

"Greek for Mountain, like Mountain Olympus? My lord."

"Not quite but that's the closes terran translation"

"Lord Balem, may I touch your hand?"

"Yes"

In a sweet tone it says, "May I kiss your forehead, my lord?"

"Yes" It brushes its lips on my forehead and for a moment I feel safe.

Giggling "May I kiss your nose, my lord?"

I don't understand this weird ritual. "Yes" It gives me a peck on the nose and I can't help but laugh.

It laughs with me and asks "May I kiss your left ear, my lord?"

"Yes, both. And that's enough "My lord" for now, call me Balem but only when there isn't an audience."

It says "left" before it slowly moved to flick my left ear and then slowly facing me again it says "right" for the right ear. It is hilarious.

"Balem, May I kiss your cheek?"

"Yes, both" and it gives me a smooch on both my cheeks. And before I realize what I'm doing, I say "May I kiss you…"

Overjoyed it says "yes." Yes, overjoyed because I felt joy through its center.

I brushed my lips to hers and She… it eagerly received and accepted my lips; we experienced a pleasure better than any of the others in this long series of oral unions. Everything I did It… She copied. Breathing in conjunction with each other; its-her cardiovascular system slowed down closer to my own. I press our foreheads together and looking into each other's eyes I asked "again…" She it said "yes" and again experienced the same elation.

I asked "deeper?" and it-she pressed her lips against mine. The same physical moves as the first time I kissed her but this time it felt extremely different because we where breathing in unison and she was opening wider and accepting me. Looking into her-its eyes I was shocked to find what looked like a new individual soul forming and annoyed at myself for thinking about work, I trailed kisses down to Its-her neck and hovered just above the skin, whispering "may I mark you as mine?"

"Yes" It-she said passionately. Parting my lips slightly, I placed them on Its-her neck making a good seal not letting any air escape. "Balem" she announced tenderly as I sucked just hard enough to break the capillaries on my chosen spot but if I wanted to I could kill it and break its-her neck in one precise bite. Gently kissing my mark on her, she asked me if Balem Abrasax is my real name. I laughed telling her "silly United States terrans thinking their naming convention is above all others." And she blushed. "It's ok because we made them that way, we let the pigs in the pen think that they are the highest and best above all others" I give a mischievous laugh.

In almost monotone voice she stated, "They would have a better nutritional profile if you let them roam free in pastures, let them have a life just as if they were in the wild plowing the fields and airing the soil that even an old breeder sow will taste better than any factory young pig. Lower feeding costs, lower gasoline, lower guardian interaction, no over vaccinating, and no over medicating that it will increase profits and the pigs will be happier. It's win-win for everyone including the environment."

Amused I replied "I was trying to be funny like Titus and I marked my sheep not a pig"

She-it thought I was joking and laughing said "I rather be a lioness. A lioness that only takes what is needed to keep the environment in check. I'm an efficient carnivore; humans are efficient carnivores but can SURVIVE not thrive as omnivores. I have the scientific data to back that statement up. Also, predators don't stop to think 'oh this cat, chicken, pig is a vegetarian, I'm not going to eat it!'"

"Sheep!" I said. "A sheep that wants to be a lion" I laughed but then I remember Earth is different than the others, "It is our fault that the hybrid lions think they are only sheep… we have all of eternity to talk about work but for now, my sheep shall be name 'Ki'Ra' by combining Ki the summerian goddess that provides everything that the plants and animals need to grow and my sheep's favorite Ra representative star god. Yet everyone else will think it's the female version of lord."

Happily it accepted its new name and stated how glad she was that I chose it, "Greek Kyrios meaning lord. Thank you for my cosplaying and SCA name!"

My Holo-Band alerted me to a security call update. I hold my doll close to me, her head on my chest, she breathes in unison with me. I surprised myself, I don't want to answer, but its time sensitive and I must accepted it, knowing this time that with our joint military campaign, Kalique's and my forces will finally carry out Mother's last wishes, to eradicate the old disciples. Refusing to acknowledge Mother's last orders, they want to keep illegally experimenting and can't let go of how Mother used to be. My advisors suggest keeping the highest level ones that I may interrogate and integrate onto Ouroboros, Earth's experiments, and "that planet," Kalique and I share security responsibility, yet another concerning situation that Mother left for us to fix. Sigh. I must go, however knowing that I'll have entertainment waiting for me on Earth, makes it less agonizing to come back.

("I find myself somewhere I never thought I'd be… How do I explain it when I don't know what to say… Nothing I have ever seen has made me want to stay." Nothing I've ever seen by Bryan Adams – search title +chomper to hear on Vimeo.)

While my doll's face is still covered by my chest, I scan the back of her neck with my Holo-Band hopeful that she was born in a hospital and has an identification chip. When I see the breeding pair, I'm fuming that two of our non-breeding workers, a Biotechnology Engineer and a Transmission Electron Microscopy Technician, have gone against company policy. I turn the screen off. I don't understand, both male and female workers had their sexual tubes tied and they go for check-ins. Why wasn't this caught sooner? I know Earth's main A.I. is in dire need of an upgrade but this is just ridiculous. How can I eliminate that one point seven percent chance of this happening again? Do I need to take their entire uterus out and have them take hormone replacement shots? Arghhh… so ANGRY, I don't need another "that planet!" I want to rip its throat… She puts one hand on the center of my chest and the other matching on my back; they have tingly warmness to them and start to give off a calming heat. Feeling her eyes upon me, I look at my toy crossly. My doll soothingly states "I still like you when you are angry. It's ok to be angry. It has taken me a long time to learn how to express my angry feelings appropriately and I'm still learning." Gently takes my hands into her hands and tenderly says "Balem I'm here, how can I assist?"

Is that so, let's test that theory, with intensity I say, "I want to taste and see blood flow"

My kira blushed, moves her hair away from her neck to present it to me. "Please leave enough that I may recover. I need to purr, stimulate the vagus nerve, to relax."

There's a twinge in my chest that I can't explain. My heart begins to pulse faster. She starts making that obnoxious non-terran breathing noise. She breathes my name out "Balem". Seeing her carotid vein pulse, I instinctively bite into it drawing out her life.

- warning non-cable TV like CW below, it's important but you may skip to next bold lines -
(Both to each other "Through this [universe] I've stumbled, so many times betrayed trying to find an honest word to find the truth enslaved... and I would be the one to hold you down, kisses so hard, I'll take your breath away after I wiped your tears. Another day of knowing of the path I fear to tread. I follow without pride, nothing stands between us here and I won't be denied". Possession by Sarah McLachlan)

Mother augmented her breast milk with her blood, so I loved blood since I was born; it's the perfect food source with its life giving properties. And before we were able to refine the entire animal into ReGenX-E, the ancient Entitled used to take baths, in same day harvested warm blood. Those who own planets and are able to afford the free time, still chase their own prey down on foot for sport, like a lion pride hunting down a zebra. I hated that mother wouldn't let me participate; it wasn't fair that Titus and Kalique were allowed to do whatever they wanted. She said I was above that and that it was for my own good more addictive than ReGenX-E.

I felt her heart start beating frantically in fear, yet she held and pressed my head to keep it there. And I felt it, wanted it. I wanted that heart, her blood to keep spilling out against my waiting lips. Mmm I need her… I… It feels so wrong, so hard thinking about it, wanting it. Needing it. Needing hers. Yet the euphoria it brings, keeps me there. Is it the actual act or because it's forbidden?

Pulling my kira's hand from my hair to lift my head, I see her face flushed and relaxed. How could anyone enjoy that? Enjoy being prey. A crimson river running down her throat and onto her dress, she smiles at me. She kisses her blood off me and sucks on my bottom lip. No, I'm in charge and take over by biting down on her lip, drawing blood and I sucked on it then licking my tongue against my second mark. I let go of her, watching with intense interest as she feels it with her own tongue, sliding it so lazily. I laughed, licking her life force off my lips as I watched. "why?" I ask.

"Because somehow I trust you and 'Purity leads to fearlessness. It is not the absence of fear but it is the courage to face the fear and experience it completely. If we can truly enter into the space of fear and experience it with power of purity, it can never affect us again.' from a Reiki website. In other words, I used to be afraid of drowning in water, so I asked one of my friends to watch over me as I let air out of my lungs in a pool of water till I was comfortable with my fear. She and another friend watched over me while I let the ocean waves wash over me and then drag me. I still fear it but now I know I can face those fears." She laughs out "I like the sound of my own voice, that's what my friends say." Gazes at me to sincerely say, "What are your fears? Only if you want to... ? I want to hear your thoughts; and I can't believe I'm saying this but it can be about the weather, things, or people but not sports. I dislike it unless we are the ones playing the sport. I like the sound of your voice better."

Uh-uh I feel as though she's attacking me with her words. No, I can't... I'll make something up. I turn away from her and say, "Not having enough time to complete all the tasks ahead of me and not being able to trust another to do their part because they usually don't do it correctly or on time."

"Balem, may I listen to your heart?" she sweetly says.

"Yes, My doll" [ugh Orous explanative!] I said that out loud! Letting her listen for a few moments, I restarted my ministration to stop the questions. Pushing her on to the grass, I lie on top to taste her blood and then lapping it away from my primitive territorial mark. I stop stare at it (my mark). It's looking pretty, purple with an oval of red teeth marks on top. Oh by Abrasax! Have I've become the animal Mother warned me about? Will I turn into Titus living only for pleasure? I don't care anymore. I bite her harder. She began that breathing thing she calls purring and breathing heavily says my name. "Balem, I adore you." NOooo, why did you have to go and do that? Arghhh this is what happens for playing with food! I grab the grass to keep from hitting it and lock my eyes on it. Then it has the tenacity to give me a mischievous smile and then smirks at me. It smirk! Its blood spilling onto the ground and its smirking AT ME! It closes its eyes and becomes still.

Concerned I check, its heart beating steadily yet I don't hear it breathing. No breathing for past a minute, two, three, I start to panic… Crying SHE left me, MOTHER IS DEAD! She got what SHE WANTED without caring about anyone else but herself. What about ME! So ironic that the highest Entitled has no rights. HAD NO RIGHTS! Weeping, "Wakeup, stop playing with ME!" I press my Holo-Band and call on medical. Four of nine of My Inner Circle Security turn off their hyper-shields. I pick my precious up and push her onto my medical officer, in my homeworld tongue I screech "FIX HER!" The medical officer, a female jaguar splice, undoes the last bite mark, and keeps telling me that she is ok. I hear her breathe again. Pulling her eyelids open I yell, "Don't YOU EVER do that again!" I grab it from Tael. Its fascinated by my CMO and I ask it-her "Would you like to touch Tael?"

My kira says enthusiastically, "Yes, if Tael is ok with that?"

Agitated I say, "Tael does whatever I WANT!"

She looks at Taels feline eyes and asks, "May I touch your ears?"

I roll my eyes at such an absurd thing and give Tael the-you-better-kneel-now look. And the Jaguar kneels and moves her head towards my favorite terran to make it easy for her to touch the feline's ears. Which she touches both ears at the same time and gently scratches behind them making Tael purr.

Delightedly she exclaims "I wish I could purr like you."

"No you don't!" I state. And she laughs at me. In my dialect I command Tael for a temporary Head Holo-Band, the size of a military dog ID tag that connects to Earth's main A.I. and checks the system of any being. As soon as my CMO gives it to me I try to attach it to my kira but she's having none of it.

"Tell me what it is first!" she crys out.

"A brain scanner to make sure you're alright," I half lied.

"Ok" she yields. Calling a screen up so she can see her brain scan, I distracted her. I kiss her forehead and say, "Shhh my pet," while I slowly, electrically send her to dreamland. I wipe her memory from now till when I ask her 'why she let me treat her like prey?'

While my treasure sleeps in my arms, I discuss with My Earth Inner Circle Security what would their advice be for keeping her safe without a cage. I don't want to do what Mother did to me, keeping me away from Kalique and Titus. My Earth ICS team was born and trained on Earth right after Mother decided to leave me. They only need to concern themselves with Earth problems but they do know of Kalique and Titus. They are the closes team I can even consider trusting and I do trust their opinions because they have a 98% track record of achieving the best outcomes. Feeling vulnerable, I may have to promote the rest to travel with me. Tael volunteers to be my kira's bodyguard but I insist on three females: It, Sothis a canine splice, and Neith a greeghan (reptile bird hybrid). Dealing with "that planet" is enough; I can't be distracted by my pet.

While the three best warriors are always hidden, my other two ICS members bring me blankets and some enhanced water. Yes, terrans need more substance than us higher beings. I laugh internally at myself. I take care of entire planetary systems but fail at taking care of one being. My pet covered in blood I spilled is still beautiful to behold but for her comfort I want a change of clothes, yet Tael suggests that most terrans wouldn't be appreciative, instead be angry, and feel like it's a violation of their space. It seems absurd.

I lay my head on my preferred terran listening to her breathe, my body longs for more while this emptiness exists but per Sothis advice I control myself till she wakes up. I will make new memories to replace the old ones. Earth will change from being the object of my torment to my joy and my pleasure. As the cycle ends, Earth's new rotation has started; the atmosphere seems to glow in daybreak hues with Sol's light starting to dissipate the darkness. I impatiently wait for her to awaken.

"Laying close to you Feeling your heart beating And I'm wondering what you're dreaming, Wondering if it's me you're seeing? And I just want to stay with you In this moment forever, forever and ever!" Don't wanna miss a thing by Areosmith

Sorry about the It-She but it shows Lord Balem's confusion. An example for what's happening to him for, us to understand would be; going to a CAFO factory farm (Confined Animal Feeding Operations) and falling in love with a pig that's going to be butchered for bacon or used as a breeder. Ridiculous isn't. You wouldn't marry a factory pig?

I cut a lot of MA stuff. Also, cut out the OC's Point of view even though there are specific reasons why she lets him get away with $#*+ , other behavior modification techniques you can probably spot, but that last one was just selfish, she knows he's unstable, and it was mean because her intention was for payback not for him to learn to stop pretending he's in control.

Still seeking Alpha & Beta Readers, in exchange for the same or Graphic Design. (see profile for samples link and descriptions) but as always you can comment on my atrocious spelling and grammar anytime.

Thanks for reading my goobly-goop.