Authors note.~ I was going mad the amount of times i wrote this chapter, i got fed up in the end and decided to post what i had. I hope that they're not many spelling mistakes. enjoy.

I quickly laid her on her back, rapidly beginning compressions, I could taste her blood on my lips when giving her mouth to mouth. It was at that moment Jeff came in.

"Shit, how long has she been down?" Jeff ran towards me, throwing the kit beside him and begun to pull out some equipment.

"About 30 seconds" I replied breathlessly, I adjusted my hands so Jeff could cut open her top, quickly looking down I could see the young girls stomach covered in cuts. Some old. Some new. As I continued compressions I felt myself becoming angry, how could these parents allow their daughter to feel this way. Beating the hell out of each other because their daughter is mentally ill. It isn't the poor girls fault.

Jeff quickly wrapped her wrist in a tight bandage, before placing the oxygen mask over her face.

"Dix stop a second" I stopped so Jeff could feel her neck for a pulse, I watched him nod and smile.

"You've done it Dix, she's breathing but only just, we'll need to intubate and warn the ED we're coming" I took these moments to take a long look at the girl, I couldn't believe what I was seeing.

Hundreds of cuts littered her stomach, some were deeper than others. Her chest was moving up and down weakly, but, at least she was now breathing. Her skin felt clammy, blood was beginning to seep through the bandages Jeff applied. So we quickly replaced them with a pressure dressing.

I quickly gathered up the pill packets, one of the packets stood out. It was Prozac. A well known antidepressant. I really wondered what had happened to make this poor girl want to end her life, but judging from the parents I could make an educated guess.

"Dix we need to call the ED. Pre warn them about her"

"Her name is Emily" I said weakly, she had the right to be called by her name.

"Of course, Emily" Jeff repeated, he begun to insert a new IV line. My hand had somehow made it's way into Emily's. I could feel myself shaking, I felt myself becoming lost in deep thought.

"What the hell have you done to my daughter?" We looked in the doorway entrance seeing the father glaring at his daughter. His words were slurred, he was obviously drunk.

"We just saved her life" Jeff spat back, normally I'd also reply, but I didn't have the emotional energy to this time.

"Just leave her, more hassle than she's worth that one. Always causing trouble. Making out she's ill, took her to the doctors and she referred her to therapy. A waste of money that was. Look at her, all that money wasted when she was planning to top herself anyway. Wish she'd have done it sooner, would have saved us the cash" his words made my blood boil, I continued to stare at Emily, she was just a child. Her hair a similar colour to my own, she was very beautiful, how could someone treat their daughter that way?

"She's your daughter. How could you say that? It's people like you that give parents a bad name, did you know she wanted to attempt suicide?" Jeffs voice was hinting anger and frustration, I knew he wanted nothing more than to smack that bloke in the mouth. He was doing a very good job containing his anger. So far anyway.

"If she's still living she obviously didn't try hard enough" It was the officer who eventually pulled the father away, I looked up and Jeff can't could clearly see the anger in his facial expression. Slowly we moved Emily onto the trolley, then carried her from the bedroom to the back of the ambulance, where her blood pressure dramatically dropped.

"Jeff she's crashing"

"Alright we're almost there" He shouted back, I tried to push through as much fluid as I could. Trying to rise her blood pressure. Nothing seemed to be working.

"Come on sweetheart, you can do this" I muttered under my breath, she had to make it through this. She couldn't die on me, not now. Pulling up outside the ED, the back of the ambulance doors were opened by Connie and Lilly.

"What have we got?" Lillys voice slightly intimidated me, I was kind of hoping Zoe would be on the case, I knew she would have the compassion and sensitivity that Emily needed.

"This is Emily, around 17 years of age. Attempted suicide, she arrested at scene but was brought back after 8 minutes of CPR and oxygen, she's lost approximately 3 litres of blood from a cut on her right wrist"

"Ok, what's her pulse and GCS?"

"Pulse has risen to 136 and her GCS has dropped from 6 to 3 on route. Also suspected over dose" I stated as we wheeled her through the ED and into resus.

"Thank you Dixie" Connie replied, after moving Emily to the bed I handed Lilly the bag containing the tablet packets we think Emily overdosed on.

"Do you know exactly how much of these she has taken? What about her second name? Medical History?" She snapped, the way Lilly was acting annoyed me, she wasn't treating Emily like a person. More like a box ticking job, treating a teenager who attempted suicide. Tick. All I could do was stand there, more tears building up in my eyes. my mouth was partly open, trying to respond but no words would come out.

"Sorry Lilly but we were too busy saving her life" It was Jeff who came to my rescue, standing beside me and sticking up for me, I was too emotional to respond. We had spent the last half hour saving this girls life, I didnt go through all of this to be intimidated by someone who lacked compassion.

"Dr Chao, I need you to go get Zoe, I need someone with more experience on this case" Connie's words made me breathe a sigh of relief, she was right. This was a complex case and Lilly had no experience with teenage mental health issues.

"What about Cal and Ethan?" Lilly replied, I felt Jeff's hand slip into my own.

"I could do without the sibling rivalry right now, if you intend to stay in my good books you will go and get Zoe now. Then call the blood bank after cross matching these bloods" Connie begun to listen to Emily's chest, while Tess took some blood. Lilly left resus in a huff, then Connie looked up and winked in mine and Jeffs direction.

"Connie please look after her... And get Noel to call me when she comes to"

"Of course, do you know her?" She raised her eyebrows at me, I bit my lip trying to think of how to reply. I couldn't think of anything so I told her the truth.

"No. I just feel..."

"It's ok Dixie, I understand. As soon as she starts showing any sign of waking up I'll get Noel to contact you" Connie gave me a warm smile, we hadn't been too friendly recently, but I knew she was a good doctor. Emily being cared for by Zoe and Connie was like the dream team, her chances of survival were improving by the minutes.

Jeff lead me away from resus, we made it to the ambulance rec room before I burst into tears in his arms.

"It's ok princess" he ushered softly, I could feel him rubbing circles on my back while hugging me tightly. I felt so comforted in his arms.

"Jeff... I couldn't save her... I couldn't do anything" tears were rolling down my face, I was emotionally collapsing into Jeffs arms.

"Hey, Dixie Collier you are the reason she's alive. You were the one who found her, brought her back to life" he cupped my cheeks and looked me in the eyes.

"But I blanked..."

"Shh.. You did brilliantly Dixie, I couldn't have asked any better of you. We will continue our shift, while Connie and Zoe will have her all patched up. She'll be fine. I promise"

"Can I see her before we go home after our shift?" I rubbed my eyes and looked back at Jeff, he didn't look too happy about the idea.

"Dixie I'm really not sure if that's a good idea, she's very vulnerable, it might not be a good idea to let her get too attached to you" Jeffs words slightly hurt me.

"Please..." Part of me knew Jeff was right, but I did save her life. Now I was in predicament, I wanted to see her, get to know her. Jeff obviously didn't want me to, what was I supposed to do?

"We'll talk about it later, eh?" I knew that was code for no way I'm taking you home, maybe he was doing the right thing.