Cole
I walk into my empty as always apartment. Empty room and dinner table filled with dirty dishes and half eaten Chinese food makes me feel even worse than I already do. Blood rushes to my head and I can feel my heartbeat in every part of my body. I'm slowly giving in and my demon side will consume me soon. I don't want that to happen. I've been fighting it for over a month now, but it's getting stronger day by day. Damn, I feel like a failure.
Just look at me. I live in the suburb of San Francisco all by myself, I killed around 10 witches in last month. I can't control this thing inside of me, for fuck's sake, I can't even clean up. I sigh and go to the table with the intention of somewhat cleaning up. But I can't even do that. I feel too weak for it. I close my eyes and look around the room again. Loneliness hits me like a truck. Today is even worse than usual, all because of that Leo guy. He just came around and reminded me how alone I am.
I get into the shower, hoping that the hot water will make me feel a bit better. And it does, cause for a moment my thoughts clear up. And I start thinking about Leo again. He was really nice and I could use a friend. Although, I have no idea how he'd react on me being a half demon. He probably just thinks I was crazy if I told him. I shake that thought away. It would never work out, I'd probably lose control and kill him. I can't have friends, I just wasn't meant for that. But letting that friendship can't harm anyone so I let myself imagine for a little bit longer. Fuck, why am I so pathetic? This one guy was nice to me once, probably only because he spilled my coffee, and here I am, daydreaming about seeing him again.
After I walk out of the shower I get dressed and lay down in my unmade bed. I close my eyes and feel the blood running through my veins and I know that I can't fight it off any longer. Grey mist consumes my mind and even though I can see what I am doing I don't have any kind of control. Beltazar walks out of the apartment. He has taken over and all I can do is watch.