1. After all they had been through, he thought she would finally lay off the taunts and insults, but he must have been kidding himself.
2. Although he does notice that she stopped physically abusing him, which is a plus.
3. He didn't realize the effect of his words at Psycho Nora's house. He was just so frustrated by her. Did the… feelings they exchanged mean nothing?
4. He can't bring himself to walk past the library anymore.
5. Looking back, he isn't all that upset about missing NERD camp.
6. That night - after Gibby (finally) finished singing - in the comfort of their blanket fort, she whispered to him that she only did it so that he wouldn't leave.
7. Sometimes, he wishes he had stopped her from walking away that night.
8. But then he realizes he had already delayed the inevitable for an hour and a half, and why should he be expected to do all the work?
9. He isn't sure what worries him the most; that he knows that no matter what, if she needed him for anything, he would come running in a heartbeat…
10. …Or the fact that she's never needed him for anything anyway.
11. He knows he's going crazy. He found himself getting jealous of Gibby, for crying out loud.
12. He just can't bring himself to do anything about it.
13. Sometimes, he wishes he had said so much more. Like how much he adored playing with her hair. Or how her laughter sometimes runs through his dreams. Or how much he loved the smell ofher mandarin and crème conditioner.
14. But then he remembers who it is he's thinking of, and it makes sense why he decided to keep these to himself.
15. He never fully appreciated the times when it was just her and him lying on his bed or watching a movie, no fighting or arguments. Just love.
16. Now, he would give anything for just one more night.
17. He doesn't really know why he keeps bringing Carly up.
18. Except he does, it's just so stupid he doesn't want to admit it.
19. Why doesn't she care? Why is she acting like those two months they spent together were nothing, like it was just to pass the time?
20. (They meant everything to him.)
21. Sometimes, he forgets.
22. She walks into the room, and he gets up to give her a kiss, stopping halfway when he realizes, so he has to pretend to be going to the kitchen instead.
23. He's slipped up and nearly called her 'baby' at least six times.
24. She was right when she said he was a wimp. He realizes that now. He's afraid of the pain, he's afraid of the loneliness, he's afraid that he might never get over that girl.
25. But mostly, he's afraid he doesn't want to.