The Reason: Edward's pov

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I could barely stand the pain any more but I knew that I had to bear it for her sake. Without it my efforts would be pointless and I had If I didn't then it would be the worst crime I had ever committed and ever would. She was definitely better off without me, with someone who I could never compare with. They could give her a proper life filled with all the things someone like her deserved while I would just bring her pain and misfortune. She had probably forgotten me now; I was probably just a disturbing memory now, which she blocked whenever it crossed her mind. She would understand and be grateful for my leaving in time if she hadn't already. I wondered what she was doing at this present second, so far away from me. I wondered if she even spared a thought for me anymore. These thoughts were taking on a dangerous avenue and were causing me much grief just thinking about her. The more I thought about her, the more my resistance would crumble and the more pain it would cause me. I bowed my head against the wall and contemplated living the next seventy years without her, I would follow her soon after she died and hopefully by some miracle we will be reunited in death but I knew better than to hope. Hope was for fools who believed in happy endings, I would never have one of those but hopefully Bella would. Perhaps I could just catch a glimpse of her just to see the direction her life was taking but I chided myself for even thinking of going ten miles near her. The temptation would be too much and she would push me away in any case. But what I would give just to see her again would be worth the pain of having to run away before she saw me but I knew such a feat would be beyond my means. I suddenly heard the door creak open slowly but kept my head down. Nothing could break me from the numb state, which held me captive. Especially not the timid maid who had scurried in and took a quick survey of the room eyeing me pitifully but not knowing the full extent of my pain. She thought my problems were simple and could be solved with time. How wrong she was! If she bore the pain I held deep inside me then she would have died in the first second let alone the months that I had been slowly dying inside. If she felt just an inkling of what I felt then she would have been worse than dead. But no, no one understood and never could. The maid left without a word but I could still hear her sympathetic thoughts. I put my head in my hands and sighed when I heard the buzz of my phone ringing. I checked the caller id and decided to answer it seeing as it was Alice calling. If it was Rosalie then I would have ignored it without a thought and returned to my brooding. I snapped open the phone and prepared myself to listen to Alice's pleadings for my return.

"Edward come back now" She demanded "Go back to Bella, Why did you even leave in the first place, she's probably just as depressed as you"

"Alice you know I had to leave. You know I could go back if I could but I can't. Her life is happy and fulfilled now and there is probably someone else who is giving her all I couldn't and I can't go barging back into her life regardless. It would defeat the whole purpose" I snapped.

"Edward I know for a fact that she is suffering as much as you and if you came back then everything would be as it always was, they all want you to go back and be happy again" Alice chided.

"She will move on. You don't think that I can't know what everyone wants for me. Especially Esme"

"Do you love her or not?" Alice sighed.

"If I didn't love her then I would have stayed but because of the immeasurable amount of how much I do love her, I had to leave and it will be better for her" "Tell them I'm fine. Look Alice I need to go, bye"

I shut the phone with more force than necessary in my irritation and then stood up and started to pace. Something to pass the time until I didn't know when. Alice words were so tempting, so welcoming that it was exceedingly difficult to focus on someone else until the forbidden thoughts drifted from my mind. What I found was much more painful, her eyes looking into another's, full of love and devotion and shunning me. Suddenly I just saw her chocolate brown eyes and nothing else swimming with hope and disbelief but overall with love. Suddenly I realized that what I was seeing wasn't just in my mind, her eyes were present and peering through the keyhole. I ran with inhuman velocity to the door, pressing my hands against it and looking deeply into the familiar and beautiful eyes. I gave a wide smile and suddenly I couldn't take it any longer. I stood upright and nearly took the door off its hinges in an effort to open it as quickly as I could. The second I saw her, I felt everything inside of me heal and knew that for once in many months, I felt happy. I swept her up in my arms as soon as she ran into them and held her as tightly as was possible without crushing her. I could feel her need to hold onto me, could feel her sobs vibrating through me and felt myself do the same as I contemplated the fact that she was here in my arms after all those months of pure agony. I began to trail kisses in every place I could manage, knowing that I could never let her go now.

"You're here. You're here" I murmured, still kissing every place within my reach.

"I thought you didn't love me, I thought I would never see you again" Bella sobbed clinging tightly to me.

"I only said that so you would let me go. After the thousands of times I told you that I loved you, how could you let one word break your faith in me" I held her tightly in my embrace not, willing to ever let her go.

"I love you. I don't want you to ever let me go" She gasped.

"Never" I promised looking deeply into her eyes.

"Now that you're with me I feel whole" Bella confessed, her eyes never leaving my face just like mine were never leaving hers.

"That's exactly how I'm feeling. I love you so much" I professed meaning every word I said. The next few seconds were filled with silence that didn't matter to me, because I was looking into my love's eyes and holding her as tightly as I dared. Suddenly I knew what we both needed and desired and took no time to act on it. I brought my mouth to her fiercely, feeling her respond to it immediately and I knew she needed it as much as I did. The kiss was the most intimate we had ever shared and I knew that I could never be separated from her ever again. Even if she walked through fire then I would follow her. As the kiss began to grow deeper, I let go of my original boundaries and kissed her with all the passion that was consumed inside of me. All too soon I had to release my lips from hers but that didn't mean that I had to let go. I continued to hold her and stare into her eyes, just appreciating the moment. I knew that from this day forward, whatever the future held, it would involve Bella and we would never be separated ever again. My reason for life had returned.

"It's so great that they have been reunited. They belong together" I heard Angela's kind thoughts and smiled at the veracity of her words. I would have to find some way to repay her someday in one way or another. But I wasn't concerned about that right now; I was just reveling in the fact that I was with Bella once more.

"Let's go home" I smiled, caressing her cheek and wrapping my arm around her waist. She nodded, smiling and putting her arms around me as we walked back down to the lobby and out of this run-down hotel with us both giving Angela appreciative looks as we passed. The second we walked into the lobby I was bombarded with many shocked thoughts and a lot of heads snapping up.

"He actually looks happy"

"They both looked so depressed and to know that the solution for each others happiness was just rooms apart is extraordinary," The manager thought.

"I knew his problem was about a girl. She probably came here to beg for his forgiveness"

I knew he would be all right eventually"

"Damn, he has a girl"

"They look so happy"

When the staff took in our expressions and our positions, they all began to clap except for the selfish, jealous ones who just looked sullenly after us. When the hot air came to greet us outside, we got wrapped up in another kiss; suddenly I didn't care where we were headed, as long as she was with me. As long as she was with me, I felt complete.