About two week have pass since the last time. I continue to walk talk towards what I believe to be the south. I am still alive.
Yesterday, I found an old coat, warmer than mine. This boy was already dead. Really dead. His clothes would be more useful to me than to him. A long time ago, I would have been disgusted, but I do not have the choice.
My father often joked. "Kim, you must learn to shoot in case of zombie invasion. You must learn to sew and to cook. You must… You must… " I like to believe that he has helped me to survive in recent months. He is perhaps alive.
I miss my family.
I stop now. I will continue later.
This morning, it snowed for the first time, even if the snow has melted. Is it the winter? Am I mistaken?
It snowed again, this night. I decided that it will be soon December. I am happy to my new, used coat. I wonder if before, I would have accepted to wear man's clothes.
My father's survival books said that the red berries are often toxic, contrary to blue berries. There are still some fruits in the bushes, so I can eat, but the weather makes this difficult. All is difficult. I might try to hunt, but I don't have guns, only knives. Firearms are too much loud.
Once I said that to my father. "We won't need guns. It'll be loud and one day, we'll lack munitions. We'll need knives, baseball bats and other blunt objects." At this time, I joked.
I always regret to left my family. Of course, when I did I couldn't imagine what will happen. But I have so much imagination and I cannot prevent myself to think about they lived. If they only survived to first days. Here, the government didn't help, and since, there are no way to get some information about another countries.
I miss music.
It is weird, I know. I didn't talk with anybody since long days, maybe weeks. I just walk without destination, and my only distractions are when I eat or sleep. I could wish many things: warm water, a decent meal, a bed, or a computer, a phone, a book. But among all little thing of courant life, while I am in the middle of nowhere, while the only sounds I can hear are animals' noises and dead ones' moans, what I miss the most is probably music.