"Perfect" Part Two of Five

Kevin woke up the following morning with a huge smile on his face. He planned to make things different between Edd and himself. He felt that Edd needed like, a body guard and Kevin wanted to be that for him.

Kevin quickly got dressed and he even ate breakfast, which he usually skips out on. As Kevin came outside, he saw that Edd's books were still outside, untouched. He looked at his watch and he had to be at school soon, but he wanted to make sure that Edd was at least okay. He walked over, suddenly feeling very anxious. Kevin knocked on the door, but he didn't hear anything. He thought about walking away, but he decided against it. He turned the door knob, surprised that it was unlocked. He poked his head in, feeling very nervous.

"Uh, hey Double Dork?" Kevin called for him, but heard no response. "Uh, I just came to check on you and like..apologize for yesterday!" He called louder, but still no answer. He sighed, and got ready to leave when he heard the shower. "Oh well no shit he can't hear me." Kevin walked up the stairs of the dorks house to still make sure he was alright. He knocked on the door, expecting Edd to freak out, but there was no response. "Uh, Edd?" He knocked louder, and began to feel very weird for just walking into his house. But Kevin began to get a bitter taste in his mouth, and something didn't sit right with him. He made his way into Edd's room, remembering where it was from their childhood together. He looked around the room and smirked on how neat it was. His eyes glanced over at Edd's bed and he saw some papers on his bed. As Kevin got closer, he saw a piece of paper and four envelopes. "The hell..?" He looked behind him, expecting Edd to yell at him, but the shower was still running. Kevin began to think of a million excuses as to why he was in Edd's room, but he just couldn't make up one. He sighed as he picked up the piece of paper and began to read.

To whomever is reading this, I thank you for taking the time out of your busy life to care about me, even for a few minutes.

"What the hell?" Kevin muttered as he sat down on Edd's bed.

I plan to keep this short and to the point. I have been emotionally bullied my entire life. I've become an emotionless robot, it seems. i can't feel anything anymore, no pain, no love, no hurt. Nothing.

Kevin's face began to flush and his stomach twisted in knots. He was going to yell at the dork whenever he got out of the shower.

All my life, I have tried to be the epitome of a perfect human being. I've tried to be a perfect friend, a perfect son, a perfect..lover. But nothing of the sorts was ever fully recognized as such. Needless to say, I am far from perfect it seems. At school, I was always the odd one out because of my knowledge. It made me an outcast, a loser, a target, a dork, and a dweeb.

Kevin felt shivers down his back and he shook his head. 'Shit, i really made his life hell..'

I am growing tired of being treated like garbage, like dirt, like I'm nothing, like shit. I'm sick and tired of it, so I have now decided to do something about it.

Kevin could feel the color drain from his face. "No…"

I have placed next to my letter four envelopes addressed to Ed, that lovable oaf. To Eddy, my best friend. To my parents. And to Kevin Barr. Please Deliver the letters to the appropriate people. And to end this letter I must say, yes. This is my suicide note.

Kevin felt tears sting at the corners of his eyes, then everything hit him. Kevin quickly ran out of Edd's room and began pounding on the bathroom door.

"EDD! OPEN THE GOD DAMN DOOR! EDD!" He screamed, and began shoving into the door. He felt a jolt of adrenaline surge through him and in one swift motion, kicked the bathroom door open. He ran over to the shower and quickly turned it off.

Kevin fell to his knees at the sight before him. It was Edd, pale as ghost barely holding on to a bottle of vodka. His eyes were closed and his skin was nearly a blueish color. He felt tears fall down his face because he knew the boy in front of him was long gone. He fell back against the wall and stared at Edd crying.

"Why god dammit, why!?" He screamed as he held his knees to his chest. When he finally calmed down a little, he left the bathroom and called 911. Within minutes, an ambulance arrived along with Edd's parents. They both cried at the sight of their son being inside a black body bag. They had to identify the body, and Kevin couldn't bare to look at him. After a few minutes, the ambulance left and the cops began to question Kevin and Edd's parents. He started with Kevin, asking him why he was in the Vincent's household to begin with.

"I came to check on Double dor- Dee. Double Dee." He rubbed the back of his neck.

"Why did you come check on him?" Kevin realized what he just said.

"Well yesterday he uh..kinda got in trouble because some guys hit him. He didn't fight back, not once." He said as he glared at Edd's parents.

"Our soon would never be involved in a physical dispute, officer. I don't know where this boy got that from." Edd's dad said tightening the grip around Edd's mother.

"Are you fucking kidding me?" They all looked shocked at Kevin's language in front of adults. He was 17, he didn't care. "This kid was trying to make you guys see the living hell he was put through on a daily basis, and you never gave him the fucking time because you could care fucking less!" He was screaming and fuming by this point. He even thought about punching Edd's dad, but he knew Edd wouldn't approve. Kevin sighed and shook his head. "He was crying out for help, and no one helped him."

Kevin walked to school, not ready to give the news about Edd's demise.

Kevin arrived in his second period class halfway through it and his teacher looked worried. Kevin's eyes were red and swollen from crying. He walked with his head down and shoulders slumped. He moved toward the teachers desk and leaned close to her.

"Mrs. Smith, I need to make an announcement to the class." Mrs. Smith nodded and stood up, getting the attention of the class.

"Please give your undivided attention, class. He has..an announcement." All eyes were on Kevin, and he looked around to see a few of his friends, including Nazz, Rolf, Johnny and Nat. They all looked worried sick. Kevin felt tears roll down his face and immediately Nat stood up. He leaned into Kevin and whispered.

"What the hell is going on, man?" Kevin whispered back to Nat.

"Double Dee is..dead.." Nat froze in place, trying to process what he just heard.

"Do..you want me to tell them?" Nat spoke a little louder and Kevin nodded. Nat sighed and looked across the room at anxious faces. "Kevin has just informed me that one of our um..classmates has..passed away." A few gasps and tears filled a couple eyes. "It was Double Dee, or um, Edd Vincent." At this point, a few people lost it. Nazz was balling her eyes out, and even some of the guys had teary eyes, especially Kevin and Nat. "I'm sorry, man."

Kevin looked back over at Mrs. Smith and asked to be excused and she said yes without a second guess. Kevin headed home, not wanting to face school now after what has happened. There was no way in hell he was sleeping tonight.