You Complete Me
I do NOT own Degrassi.
I've been looking at this envelope with my name written across it in your handwriting for almost an hour. You're not even here; you're at home doing something with your parents who still hate me. You told me to open it when you were gone, which is just as stupid as writing them was. You wouldn't even explain why, other than to say that. "It'll make sense when you read it." bit it doesn't because I would rather see your face when you read my word vomit, then not...
But we don't always get what we want so, I'm going to read your letter. And then I'm going to wait for you to call me after you read yours. Which will be after you finish doing things with your parents. So here it goes. Opening the envelope I pull out your letter, smiling a bit because it's not on plain white paper, no not plain white paper for Alli it's green and has stars in the corner...and if I remember correctly was bought for a project. Rolling my eyes I start reading, the beginning makes me smile...You complete me too babe.
Reading your words across the paper draws me in, I remember it all clearly too each event you talk about, our first date. I was nervous too, I had spent most of the day telling me that the friendship we had shakily built wasn't going to fall apart if this date fell flat...I dressed normally, and had to drive around the block three times before I actually stopping at your place because I was so early. Only Sav was at your house when I got there, and he answered the door nodding to me with a simple "Hey man." Before calling you. You looked great, I remember that much...I also remember telling you it wouldn't have mattered if you had worn a paper bag you still would have looked stunning. The night was a blast, we talked and laughed and at the end of the night, I wanted nothing more than to kiss you senseless, I settled for a kick peck and a good night. You too are my best friend.
You never talked about your home life, I know why. So the day you called me, with that fake note of happiness I knew something was wrong, and I was at your place before we even hung up the phone. I took you to my house and put a movie in, it wasn't even five minutes in before it was forgotten and you were telling me what happened. I held you and let you cry, then I made you laugh and put that smile on your pretty face, made it my goal to keep it there the rest of the night. You slept over that night and I was happy to just hold you...which isn't me. I like sex, and you knew that. I've never pressured you though I have more respect for you than that.
I'm sorry every time I make you cry, I hate it. It eats away at me too love. I didn't mean to lie to you, I didn't even really think about it. The girls were nothing, as sad as that seems it was just a way for me to really figure out how much you meant to me. I know I shouldn't have slept with them, and I should have told you before they did...but I didn't think about it and for that I'm truly sorry. You told me you loved me that night too, I was so shocked, in a good way because I felt the same had for a while...I just didn't know how to tell you. You were going to walk out on me right after...I couldn't allow you to do that, so I stopped you.
The night I said it back, I was scared shitless but I also couldn't hold it back anymore, we were watching movies and your laughter filled my room and I just had to say it, I love you, and everything about you. My mind always races when I think about you, there isn't one thing that makes me feel this way about you, it's many different things all at once. There's that crazy feeling again, only this is the good kind. As for number six on your letter, you complete me too. And unless you end it with me you're stuck with me babe. I'm not going anywhere. Tears should not fall from those pretty eyes, no matter the cause. Unless of course they are happy tears, and even then it's hard to deal with them. I don't plan on going anywhere...
There you go again, making me think about everything, the past and the future. Something only you have ever made me do... Now I just want to go to your house and get you but I'll wait till you call me.
Alli's P.O.V
Three hours of family bounding and I can't take it anymore. Your letter is burning a hole in my pocket and my fingers itch to take it out and read it. When my parents finally let me leave and go to my room, the letter was out of my pocket and into my hands before I even had my bedroom door closed. Leaning against the door I unfolded the letter, no envelope for you. Smiling I glance at the messy scrawl that is clearly yours. I let the words on the paper steal me away, my mind filling in the blanks.
Coffee at the dot with Johnny really had been nothing to me. We talked about the past and what went wrong. He apologized again and I then spent the rest of the time telling him how wonderful my boyfriend was. "You should meet him Johnny, he treats me like a princess and l love him." He had said he was happy for me, that I had found someone that made me happy. And no doubt about it, you do. I hadn't even gotten the chance to tell you that I had seen him, someone else had first. You yelled at me and we fought...then later you apologized, so did. I hadn't realized you'd be so mad.
A week later and several text's from him later, I told you, you were right and although it had been nothing to me, it had meant something to him and now he wouldn't leave me alone, you talked to him and he must have gotten the message because the text's stopped and I haven't talked to him since. You never told me what you say, but I never asked either.
My parents, something we hardly talk about. That fight breaks my heart just thinking about it, but they have gotten better and they don't hate you. You're too good to me for them to hate. I can't think of the fight without thinking about how sad you looked, like they kicked you where it hurt the most...and in the end it was you who comforted me. But maybe we comforted each other that night. I love that about you. Even when you're hurting you want to make sure I'm okay, I know you'd say I do the same for you. You're always there to pick me up when I fall down.
Laughing I stop for a moment I can't help it, only you would dedicate something to me about how much you actually didn't like this idea, yet agreed to it to make me happy. "Oh babe." I murmured before continuing to read on. Finishing the letter I don't waste any time pulling phone from my sweater pocket and pressing the speed dial so it's calling you. "On my way." No hello or anything, right to the point, so you. "I'll be outside."
Seeing you pull into my driveway always does the same thing to me, my heart speeds up and I get butterflies in my belly. You were in park and out of the car before I got the chance to get to the passenger side of the car, I don't stop myself from melting into you as your arms wrap around my waist. Letting go you press a kiss to my forehead and nod to the car. "My place?" Nodding my head I lift my overnight bag and head for the car.
I know tonight will be good, just us spending the night together, showing each other how much we love each other.
A/N
Well I'm not sure what I feel, that's normal though. I hope you all like it.
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