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Allen Walker woke up in cold sweat; he jolted awake in the middle in the middle of the night. He sighed and wiped the drool off the side of his lips. His sleep was dreamless and quiet and he needed that after a long time of only being greeted by nightmares every time he closed his eyes. The moonlight illuminated the dark room despite the eerie atmosphere of the room, it looked rather beautiful. Road was sitting on the chair, her head leaning down on his bed.

He smiles and moved the blanket over her back.

Allen didn't feel sleepy anymore; in fact, all he did these past few weeks was sleep. After a long time he actually got a peaceful sweet he can't even remember when was the last time he felt calm and serene. The missions he had before were very stressful and he never got the chance to sleep. He shakily stood up his legs felt weak and wobbly; he flinched when his barefoot touched the cold marble floor.

He slowly walked to the window, his hands clutching over the bed's frame so that he wouldn't trip and wake the Noah who is sleeping soundly beside him. He hasn't seen the moon and stars for a long time and it felt alien to him. He actually gotten used to the cold, gray ceiling of the dungeon.

He raised his hand to touch another stigma that has marked itself unto his forehead, not that he is surprised but the sharp pain that flared through his head doesn't even bother him anymore. He'll be a Noah soon and there is no turning back. No reverting back. No changing sides.

His friends will still save him…right?

A part of him knew that this is just a sugar coated lie that he kept telling himself. Yet it was his only hope… the last bit of hope that is left in him. He didn't want it to disappear because he knew that the moment he stopped believing in his only hope… He wouldn't be Allen Walker anymore. He'll be the 14th he oh-so hated.

He just wanted to be happy with his friends. Is there something wrong with that? Is he being too selfish? But he tried so hard to make everyone happy… he didn't ask for so much. He only asked for that little bit of happiness that he wanted to cherish even for just a small moment.

He ignored his thoughts knowing that if he dwells on it too much he'll get another headache. He walked slowly to the door making sure that Road wouldn't wake up from her peaceful sleep.

The hallways looked beautiful even though it was dimly lit by only a few lights. Paintings framed with golden patterns hung around the dark walls, vases filled with crimson roses placed neatly on the tiled floors, the windows were engraved with intricate golden patterns… even though he only saw this the first time it oddly felt familiar.

His footsteps echoes around the hallway ruining the silence that was once there. At the end of the hallway was a glass door, covered with a sheer white curtain. He walked towards it, realizing that it is the balcony and he spotted a familiar figure sitting at one of the chairs outside.

He paused and turned his back before the man could see him but sadly.

"Ah! It's nice to see you, Allen."

He mentally cursed and shakily turned around "A-Ah! I didn't see you there." He smiled, lips twitching as he spoke. The Earl let out a laugh "Don't lie to me, silly boy! Come let's drink tea." The man pats the chair besides him. He knew that he has no way out of this so he walked over the Earl and sat beside him, he shifted uncomfortably at the presence of the older Noah.

"How are you feeling?" The Earl took a sip of his tea, his glasses glazed under the moonlight. Allen frowned a little bit when he saw the amount of sweets placed on the table. He didn't want to answer the man's question but the Earl's tone sounded genuine. Allen took the porcelain tea pot and slowly pours tea to his cup. Shakily slightly he answered "…I-I don't feel well." He took a sip of his warm tea. It was sweet. Too sweet that it tasted more like sugar drenched in water. He made a face and immediately regretted it when the Earl stared at him "Oh- I'm sorry!" he apologized at the rude action he just made to the older man.

"Oh. It's my bad; I'm still not used of not having Skinn around. He's the one who always drinks tea with me so I got used to him putting too much sugars in things." He listened to the Earl babble about the Noah of Wrath… it's kind of a nostalgic feeling. The pudgy man let out a soft cough "Ahem… I got a little emotional there. A bad habit, really." He then proceeded to change back conversation.

"How is the transformation?"

Allen frowned and sighed "It hurts. A lot." It was a simple reply and he can't describe the pain he's feeling during his transformation.

The Earl chuckled "You're awfully honest." He poured tea on his tea cup after he finished the one before, his eyes though not leaving the younger boy. Allen took another sip of his tea, feeling the warm liquid smoothly going down his throat. He looks away and stares down at his cup; he didn't mind the sugary taste that filled his tongue.

"Anyways, the other family members were curious. What did the exorcist do to you?" the Earl asked once more.

Allen hated that question so much. It was a question he wanted to avoid… he can't believe that his home can do such cruel things. Is it because he's turning into a Noah? Is it because for something as small like that they'll throw him away?

He didn't betray them. He tried so hard to stop the transformation, to the delay the 14th's memory from his mind even though it hurts like crazy. Even if it feels like his whole body is on fire and his mind is going insane… not even once he thought of betraying his comrades. Not even when he got thrown into the dungeon.

They were the one who betrayed him. Yet he was the one who got branded as a traitor.

Stupid.

Pathetic.

Scum.

Filthy, not loyal, mortal, disgusting, exorcists who trashed him out the moment they wouldn't need him anymore. He hates them. He absolutely hates those pathetic exorcists. He hates them so much-

…What?

How could he let these inhumane feelings out? For a second he felt pure, burning hatred. But why? How could he hate the strong Kanda? The brave Lavi? The sweet and caring Lenalee who is always on his side no matter what?

How could he hate his friends? How could he let his Noah control him?

The loud sound of glass breaking filled his ears.

Allen dropped the cup on the floor, shattering it to pieces. He shook his head violently "I am not a Noah!" he yelled, he didn't know why he was so angry his blood boiled and his shook violently that he needed to destroy something to calm his nerves

He's an exorcist and the Noah should hate him… yet they didn't.

He's a Noah and the exorcist did hate him… why?

The Earl looked at him with that same smile that never changes no matter what emotions he radiates "I see…" he chuckles under his breath "You don't want to talk about that yet." The boy seems to have calmed a bit. He almost looked shocked when he realized that he threw the fragile cup to the floor.

"Are you scared of disappearing, Allen?" He asked calmly, the boy didn't reply… he looked like he was in deep thought despite that constant frown that appears in Allen's face "I have to reassure you… your beliefs about us Noah is wrong. We do not disappear, my dear child. You will not be overpowered by the old 14th." He continued in a soft tone.

Allen's face changed into confusion "I'm an exorcist… I'm an enemy… yet you-" he pause, he was crying. His voice felt so weak and dry that he doesn't know what to say anymore.

"My, seems like those pesky exorcists really did horrible things to you. They messed with your head, didn't they?" This time the calm tone in the man's voice disappeared only to be changed with full malice that made Allen shiver "Is it because they told you that you were their family only to be thrown away the moment they found out that you were a Noah?"

Please don't say it.

I don't want to hear it.

I don't need your saving.

Don't say it.

I don't want to hear the truth.

"You hate them, don't you?"

Allen screamed. He didn't care how loud or how long he was screaming. He just screamed, letting out all of these mixing emotions inside of him. He didn't stop until his lungs felt like they were burning as if they were clogged by something.

He fell to his knees and cried, every single drop of his tears that trails down his cheek felt like hot lava burning its way down his skin. Each drop of saliva that slid down his throat felt like bubbling acid destroying him. His skin itched and stung like hell… his muscles and bones felt like they were being broken inch by inch.

His heart broke. Because it was true yet he can't believe himself.

The Earl immediately walked to Allen's position and cradled the crying the crying teen into his arm, hugging the poor child tightly. Allen wrapped his arm around the Earl; sobbing and mumbling inaudible words.

"…Please… I want to go home… Please…"

Home… It was such an alien word. As if it never existed because it just felt so wrong to say it.

Allen almost sounded like the child The Earl met years ago. It broke the Earl's heart seeing a family member so sad and broken.

"Mana… I can't take this anymore… I want to go home…"

Allen cried once more and tightened his hug on the old man. The Earl looked at Allen with fond eyes as he placed his gloved hand to brush the teen's white hair "You are home, Allen." He whispers "Because we are family."


Tyki Mikk doesn't like it when his beloved niece is angry.

This early morning he saw her rummaging through the kitchen drawers, at first he didn't mind it thinking that the child would just sneakily take some food. Then the next thing he saw Road was already on the mansion's balcony holding kitchen knives and aiming them at some poor level two akuma.

He sighed as he walked over to the girl whose were completely focused on the akuma in front of her. The poor akuma seems to be trying to dodge all the knives that were thrown at its direction "Road…" he called; the Noah of Dreams whipped her head to face Tyki.

Tyki was not surprised to see a sour expression on her face, her cheeks puffed in anger as she held a knife tightly in her hand. She would've looked cute though if she is not trying to destroy an akuma with kitchen knives "What is it, Tyki?" she asked, Tyki took this moment and ordered the akuma to go away.

"You shouldn't destroy akuma, you know."

Road snorted in reply as she quickly gathers the knives from the marble floor and putting them messily on top of a table "I'm pretty sure no one would mind." She muttered.

"Tell me, did anything happen last night?" he asked the girl as he slowly led her back inside the mansion, closing the glass door behind them. Road's expression twisted into anger and she nodded "Allen…" she stopped and pulled Tyki's hands as they walked into the hallways. The sun's rays already shining through the curtained windows, Road sniffled as she started talking once again "He just suddenly started crying and screaming when we were talking. I didn't know what to do! He was hurting himself and I can't stop him."

Tyki realized that this was probably the reason why Road is upset. But he knew that Road isn't the one to blame for Allen's actions; it was the exorcist… he didn't know that the exorcists could've done so much damage to their comrade. Since the moment Tyki first saw Allen he already knew that he was strong, his eyes filled with burning determination, when he fought Allen the boy didn't give up despite all the pain he experienced. How could someone who was once so strong weaken so fast?

It saddened him. He could never imagine a world without his family. He could never imagine a single moment that his family would betray him. He really can't. It hurts him to say this but he knew that Allen considered those exorcists as his family but then in the end he was thrown away.

He couldn't think of the pain and sadness Allen experienced when he got betrayed by his comrades. He couldn't think of the Noah family like that, there is no way that they will betray each other. Just thinking about it made his hearth heavy and he doesn't want to know how it hurts when it turned into reality.

"…Tyki? Are you okay?" Road frowned worriedly at him. He replied in a soft chuckle "I'm afraid; I am not after hearing what you just said." He slung his arm around Road's shoulders and with a smile he said "Come on. We have to fetch Allen for breakfast."


Allen woke up in the same familiar room once again, his eyes adjusted from the sudden brightness of the sun. He let out a groan when the sudden smell of smoke filled his nose; he clicked his tongue in annoyance when he saw Tyki standing beside his bed with a cigarette between his fingers.

"Oh! You're awake." He huffed out smoke making Allen cough a little bit "Ugh. Stop doing that." He tried sit up from the bed; his muscles ached at the sudden movement.

He frowned; his body was sore all over. How long have he been sleeping?

Tyki seemed to notice his discomfort and helped him sit up the bed "Does your body hurt?" he asked gently. Allen made a small noise when pain suddenly overwhelmed his body; it took him a few seconds before nodding to Tyki's question "What time is it?" he asked quietly as he touch his stigma. For some reason it didn't hurt that much anymore but he felt another stigma at the right side of his forehead.

Tyki glanced at the watch on his wrist before replying to the boy "About four in the afternoon, we came earlier this morning to fetch you for breakfast but you were sleeping soundly so we decided not to wake you." It was a good decision not to wake up Allen another stigma has marked its way unto Allen's forehead. He was the one who treated the wound on Allen's forehead when they went early in the morning and it sure did take a lot of effort to not wake the sleeping boy.

Allen immediately got up and ran to the mirror at the side of the room; he stumbled in shock when he saw his reflection. The stigma on his forehead looked quite healed except for the new one… and his eyes isn't the same shade of purple anymore instead it was molten gold. Like the color of the burning sun. It was way too bright, contrasting with his white hair and pale skin.

Fear rushed into him… it's all happening so fast. He's turning into a Noah and he can't turn back now. His dreams last night were the 14th's memory; years of memories flooded his mind like a vivid dream. He is the 14th.

He already has the Noah memories… all that is left is his body to be fully adjusted into a Noah.

He saw Tyki chuckle a little bit as he smoke his cigarette, he growled at the older Noah "Adam. Where is Adam?" he didn't know why he called the Earl 'Adam' but those words comfortably slipped out of his mouth. It was like instinct, he knew everything around him and it all felt familiar to him.

Tyki shrugged "I'll call him for you." He walked out of the room and had the guts to drop his lit cigarette on the floor. Allen scrunched up his nose as he took the cigarette from the floor and placed it on the window sill.

"Good afternoon, Allen."

Allen whipped his head to find the Earl standing at the room's doorway with Tyki smirking behind him. The Earl's arms were spread wide with that damned smile still plastered at his face "A-Adam." Allen's heart nearly exploded, his guts twisted with emotions.

"Huh?" the pudgy man tilted his head to the side but Allen could see something behind his glasses.

"N-Neah called you that…right?"

Tyki scoffed behind the Earl "Your topics are becoming more… personal. I'm pretty sure you guys don't want me to hear your conversation." His eyes were searching for his cigarette though, he let out a sigh when he can't find his cigarette and turned to his heels with a disappointed face "…I can't smoke with Road around." He mumbled quietly but still loud enough for both persons to hear.

"Oh! Tell the maids to bring some food. Allen hasn't eaten in a while." The Earl called out to Tyki who already started to walk away "Hm… sure…" he mumbled something inaudible before phasing through a wall and disappearing.

Allen stared blankly for a few seconds and made sure that the other Noah is completely away from there. He then approached the Earl and wrapped his arms around him, much to the older man's surprise. There is something seeping inside of him, something bitter boiling inside his heart. His hands rose to touch the Earl's face gently… then smiled "…Mana…"

The Earl gasped and hugged the white haired teen tightly with his chubby arms. He never felt so happy. This is it. He is finally winning, he'll have the 14th by his side once more and at long last their family would be reunited once more. It has been long ago since he has forgiven the 14th and this time he'll make sure that their family's bond would go stronger.

He don't want to waste time, he found the perfect opportunity to tell this poor boy the truth and save him from the lies that all the exorcists put him through. He'll set him free and at last their one true goal would be fulfilled.

Happiness creeps through him as he gently pull back from the hug and pats Allen head "Fix yourself first, we'll talk at dinner."

Allen let out an annoyed grunt before muttering a small "Fine."


"Hello~ Allen!"

Road wrapped her arms tightly around Allen. He didn't mind the Noah who is clinging to him as he ate his dinner… The Earl sat at the other side of the table with the umbrella golem in hand. Then there is Tyki who sat besides Allen with that mocking smirk that annoyed the hell out of him.

"You seem a lot calmer now."

Allen nearly choked on his food "W-What?" he asked. Road giggled and loosened her hug around Allen "You were a mess when you first came here. You couldn't even think straight." She then proceeded to sit on The Earl's lap and took the golem off the man's hands before throwing it a few meters away. This made the golem complain but just flew back to their side. Road continued her sentence completely ignoring the loud golem "Right, Millenie?"

Allen frowned "A mess? You kidnapped me!" he exclaimed before he took the cup filled with orange juice and drank half of it. Not minding the cold liquid sliding down his throat "We kidnapped you for your own good, boy." Tyki added in a bored tone.

"If you stayed there do you really think you'll survive? Survive your own thoughts? The pain of your Noah transformation? The memories of the 14th that haunts you at night can be enough to drive a normal man insane. I don't think you'll survive the suffering you felt when your beloved exorcist friends left you to rot. It's going to destroy you, Allen."

Allen flinched at the sudden harsh words that were thrown at him but he didn't want to argue with what the Earl said.

"My friends didn't betray me." His shoulders slumped as he said those words. Road would have find it more entertaining if Allen yelled and became angry because it seems like something an exorcist would do. Always screaming to no extent. But instead Allen said those words with a bland tone that sounded as if he rehearsed those lines a few times.

"I know they wouldn't" he swallowed as he tried to find the right words to say but it seems to be missing "They did their duty as an exorcist." He can't think of anything to say. All he's just saying are just meaningless words that don't even belong to him.

"Stop lying, Allen. If you hate them it's alright, it is part of Noah genes to hate humanity and innocence." The Earl's tone was stern but it reflected a hint of worry. Allen protested "I'm not" he shut his eyes closed trying to stop the tears that were warning to flow out "…I'm not a Noah… yet…They will save me." His voice cracked at each word.

Road's lips curled into a frown when he saw Allen cry once more "…Allen." She whispered and looked at the Earl with a worried look.

Much to her surprise, the Earl let out a loud laughter "Humans? Saving you?" he slammed his hand unto the table "You think those filthy exorcist will save you? Humans are just creatures lower than us; their lives don't mean anything except for hindrance at our goal. But you already know that, Allen. Am I right?"

He knew that he is winning against to exorcist. He'll have Allen by the time this conversation ends. He'll have the 14th by his side,

"You already have the 14th's memory, don't you?" Tyki grinned but his tone sounded so kind it didn't match his smile.

Allen's expression changed and his lips twitched "Don't….I…I…" he was cut off when the Earl spoke "Stay with us, Allen. We are your true family."

Allen's head spun in confusion and their words filled his head like stuff cotton. They are lying…right?
He didn't know who to believe; he can't distinguish what is right and what is wrong as he frantically try to separate his thoughts from the 14th's emotion that is filling him each second.

Then something snapped inside of him, he sputtered out a choked laugh, earning looks from the Noah "Aha…ha…" he wheezed as he wiped fake tears from his eye "Do you really think you can renew this broken world?"He nearly stood up the chair and looked at the Earl directly at the eyes. His whole body flared with so much emotions… anger, sadness, yearning; you name it he felt it.

"Yes." The Earl answered so simply that it made Allen almost wants to slap himself, his eyes narrowed in confusion, eagerly waiting for the man to continue "Of course we do… after we wipe this world of innocence, the three nights of darkness will decide for us." Road nodded in agreement.

"Noah and exorcist" Allen's lip curled to a frown "You both have the same goal. Two sides of the same coin. So why bother?" he asked once again. These were unanswered questions he wanted to know since the time he became an exorcist. It is so hard to comprehend why these two sides fought each other for the exact same goal. Allen became an exorcist without knowing what path he's taking, all he had to do is just keep walking and never look back, never regret the decisions he made.

Tyki snorted as he looked at the Earl, waiting for an answer.

"Well, do you think that the exorcist can change the world? They are the same as those who pollute this dying world. They are selfish and weak, only thinking about themselves all the time. I don't think most exorcists even know what their purposes are." The Earl replied to Allen. The teen seemed to blank out for a few seconds before blinking.

The Earl couldn't help but feel giddy; he couldn't surpass the happiness welling up inside of him. Allen Walker is already on their side and nothing can change that. It has been decided. The new Noah has already realized it. He found out his true purpose.

"Oh."Allen's face contorted into confusion, his fingers fidgeting as mumbled something to himself then he took a deep breath before repeating the same "Oh." That's the time The Earl already want to jump out of his chair and dance in pure joy.

Allen's head stopped hurting and everything felt so clear and all of the 14th's memories came flashing back to him. Neah was the traitor but Allen is not. He is not a fool who is selfish enough to destroy everything around him. He is not Neah Walker. He is not a fool.

What's so wrong about believing?

Is there anything wrong with letting go of his hope?

He is going to walk the path that is clearly in front of him. He won't turn back anymore. He won't try to destroy the path that God forced him to walk…

He raised his fingers to touch his stigma, body trembling slightly as he brushed his hair a little bit.

Road's smile became wider as she glanced at Tyki who flashed a grin at her. Excitement bubbling inside her "What do you say, Allen?" She asked in the sweetest tone.

Allen already knew his answer. He knows. Road knows.

And he knew and she knew.

And with a soft smile on his lips, the catalyst of the war and the undeniable victory for the Noah family has already been decided.

"I… I… Allen Walker, swear my loyalty to the Noah Family."

END

Next Chapter:

- Sometimes it is better to "unforgive" people

-Allen's final stage of transformation

Author's Note:

This chapter is not edited so please bear with my mistakes. I find it fun writing about Allen and the Millennium Earl because I really like a father and son bonding with the two of them. Hope you enjoy this chapter! Please review, I really enjoy reading reviews and it gives me more motivation update.

Bye everyone, see you in the chapter!