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My heart sinks at Fang's words.
"W-what." I stumble over the word, not sure what to say. I loved his parents almost as much as he did. And Ari... he was only seven. "Fang..." I walk toward him and I don't know whether I should hug him or what to say or how I should react. I felt tears spring to my eyes. "That's why you needed me? This happened last spring. I never heard anything about it."
He only nods. He reaches his arm out and wraps it around my shoulders, pulling me to him and down to the couch. We sit there like that, my head in the crook of his neck, both of us just staring at the wall.
"I know that they meant a lot to you too, I was going to tell you to come to the funeral but I- I." He takes a deep breath and straightens up. "I screwed things up with you. I didn't know what to expect from you. I kept thinking of the worst things happening."
I nod. "I can't believe that I didn't find out at school though." Our school is quite small, about 125 people in each grade. Everyone knows about pretty much everything.
"I only told Iggy."
I sigh. Iggy. I miss him as well. "So how are you holding up now?" I ask. "After all the time you've had?"
"I've come to terms with it." He shrugs, "They were up North and hit some ice and slid off of the road into a small frozen lake." His eyes are dark and show no emotion. "So there isn't even someone I can blame or hate."
"I'm so sorry Fang. I would have been there for you if I'd have known. I thought you hated me."
His eyes widen. "Why would I hate you? We were best friends, we just drifted somehow. I don't even know how."
I clench my jaw. I know exactly what happened. I'm suddenly angry at him. "I'm sorry about what happened to your family Fang and I know you needed me but you cut me from your life after Freshman year. I can't just be dragged right back in like nothing happened."
"But what even happened?" He sounds exasperated.
"You made new friends. Better, more popular friends. You left me all alone on my birthday, Fang. You promised me you'd be there but you weren't. And when I forgave you and you kept lying, we just... kinda stopped talking. And I figured since you weren't trying to keep our friendship, why should I?"
Fang looks shocked, "I did not do that... Did I?"
Does he honestly not remember? I nod slowly.
"I'm sorry Max, I didn't realize. Oh I'm so sorry. How can I make it up to you?"
I shrug. "Well, for now, you could be a doll and make me dinner." I grin.
He laughs.
We joke and cook some spaghetti together. A half hour later, we had sauce smeared plates and we were laughing and getting along like old times, remembering all the stupid things we've done.
"Remember when," I say, "I found your ticklish spot for the first time and I tickled you so hard you peed your pants?" I die laughing. Fang doesn't laugh. He only smiles and turns slightly red. "Awww, is Fangy embarrassed?"
He rolls his eyes and stands up. "I'll take your plate."
"Thanks," I smile and head to the living room. I lay on the couch and burp. "I'm sooo full, thank you."
I'm laying with my face down in the couch and suddenly, hands are on my sides. "No, no, no!" I quickly twist but I'm too late. Fang's fingers hit the sensitive part of my sides and I start laughing. "FANG!" I screech and sound so childish. I hate it and he knows it. I hear him laughing too. "STOOOP!"
"No way, Jose." Fang chuckles as I squirm.
I finally flip over so I'm on my back. Fang proceeds to dig his fingers into my stomach and then my armpits. "STOP. PLEASE! HA HA HA FANG STOP!"
Before I can even register how close he is, he presses his lips to mine.
I gasp. Woah, my dreams are coming true. I sit there like a moron for about 10 seconds before I start to kiss back, our mouths moving against each others. His lips were soft but cold against mine. I felt his tongue trace my lip and I pulled away. As badly as I wanted this, it felt wrong.
"Too soon." I say, looking away from him.
"Shit. That was so not good." He stands up and walks away from me to the other side of the room. He runs a hand through his gorgeous black hair.
My heart sinks. "Was it that bad? I mean I liked it I jus-"
"No. No Max. It was freaking great. I needed that but J.J. Won't be happy." He groans.
I stare at him. "Get the fuck out, you cheating bastard."
His eyes widen and then they shrink back down and he looks defeated. He stares at the ground and nods. "I'm such an idiot. I'm sorry Max." He walks toward my door. "I am going to break up with her today. You're the only one I want."
"Well that's too bad because I no longer want you. If you cheated on your current girlfriend with me, who knows what you will do to me if we were ever together." I roll my eyes, "You disgust me."
"Max..." He pleads. "Just please give me a chance. I shouldn't have done that. But you are the most beautiful girl I've ever seen. I just- J.J. was there when I needed her and we get along great but I'm not in love with her. It's you. It's always been you. I just now realized it."
"Don't try to sweet talk me." I point to the door, "Out."
His shoulders slump and my heart aches. I don't want to let him leave. I want to drag him back to this couch and say screw his girlfriend, I want him.
"You know how I feel about cheaters."
He nods. "I'm sorry, fuck, I screwed up. I'm going to tell her tonight. I promise. I don't deserve to be loved anyway." Then he is gone.
I decide to text Fang later that night.
M: If you tell her about the kiss and you make a clean break with her and everything goes okay, I will give you a chance. But I will confront her about the kiss so tell me when you tell her and I will talk to her and apologize for the horrible thing you and I did to her.
F: Thanks Max, I'll tell her tonight I promise. I'm going to her house now.
Great now I have to tell J.J. about what happened. She won't be happy. She will probably despise me and never talk to me again. She was really nice when I did talk to her occasionally. She was a great girl and I felt so awful but if Fang was really in love with me, then maybe we could give it a shot. I sigh and settle into my bed, closing my eyes.
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