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I still don't own Naruto…I know. It sucks.
Natural
Chapter1
I screamed. And screeched. And shouted. I couldn't stop myself. I couldn't believe myself. These people, their bodies that lay around me. I knew these people. I knew these peoples children. I knew these peoples names. I knew these people. So why does it look like I… like I killed them. I screamed more and more. People had come (probably from the noise I was making) still I screamed. Somebody grabbed me and held me close and still I screamed. I didn't understand. How. What. Why. I just didn't understand. By now I wasn't the only one screaming. Other people who knew these people. They screamed and wept. I couldn't tell if I was crying, or if the person holding me was crying. I couldn't tell or understand.
So I did what I did best when I couldn't handle it. When I couldn't control it. I "blacked out". I blacked out and didn't wake up.
Voices. Voices came to me. They came to me in the dark recesses of my mind. They whispered to me, chanted to me, spoke to me. They told me things of the past and things yet to come. They told me so much I thought I would burst. But could I burst if it wasn't me that held this knowledge. Could I understand even if it wasn't understandable? The voices louder inside, told me yes. They told me I could and would understand them. I would understand me, because they were apart of me. Then I could feel it. That force, that feeling that I could never forget. Suddenly made since. That feeling was ME.
The voices they started to pull together. They started to sound familiar. They started to form a pattern. They started to breathe life. They started to fill me with their passion, my passion. They started to become me. And I let them. Because I liked knowing, I liked being in control for once. I liked having someone to tell me "you are special Haruno Sakura!" I liked being here. Where ever here is.
It felt like years, decades, that I spent in this place. This open space. Filled to the brim with whiteness and light. This place that I loved. This place where anything could happen. Me and my voices. My inner me, have been together forever. that's what she tells me. Inner also tells me that she will always be with me no matter what.
I loved my inner. She has taught me so much in our time together.
I felt like I could stay here forever. Just live in this place and never go back. Never return to that place I had always wondered about. The world I couldn't control. I Never wanted to go back…but I had to. I have family and friends there, though my family or my friends have never treated me the way 'inner' has. The day she told me it was time to leave, I was so overwhelmed with sadness that I almost didn't leave.
But I thought about my mom and my friend Ino at home. And I had my resolve. I couldn't stay here. There were people I cared about. 'Inner' just laughed at me and said
"It doesn't matter what you do anyway, I'll never be to far!" .
Loud
And just like that. I opened my eyes…only to close them straight after.
