Clarke wondered through the woods with no destination in mind. She just wanted as far away as possible from her people and all the reminders they carried. It seemed as if every part of her ached deep down to her soul. She felt as if she'd aged decades in the months since she had crashed to earth. The smell of death was burned in her nostrils. She quickly shook such thoughts from her head and trudged on.

Hours passed and she was unsure how many miles she had walked: mind numb barely conscious of her surroundings. It would be getting dark soon she knew she should find shelter for the night, build a fire. Did she deserve any sort of comfort though with the blood on her hands?

Just then a load clap of thunder sounded overhead and a downpour started. Great she thought. She really should have thought this out better, had Bellamy bring her some supplies a freaking tent at least but she sighed and walked ahead.

She jumped when lightning struck a tree a few feet ahead. Her survival instincts kicked in and she hurriedly looked around for anywhere to provide even a little protection from the storm. There what looked to be a cave. She ran the remaining distance to it and quickly entered. It would do for the night. She took off her jacket and balled it up into a makeshift pillow. Tomorrow she would worry about finding a more permanent camp.

Back at the newly renamed Arkadia Bellamy stood in the Chancellor's office with Kane and Octavia and a very quiet Abby. He glanced nervously at her waiting for the inevitable explosion.

Abby took a deep breath trying to calm herself. "You mean to tell me you let my daughter wander off on her own with no supplies and barely a weapon on her? What the hell were you thinking?"

"You didn't see her. We've all done things down here we're not proud of but Clarke has made the really tough decisions. It's weighing her down. She just needs some time to herself and she'll come back to us."

Abby swallowed hard. She'd done this to her little girl. She never wanted Clarke to be in her shoes.

Octavia stepped forward. "She'll be fine. If anyone can survive on their own down here it's Clarke. "

Abby nods. "We'll give her a few days but if she's not back by then we send search parties. In the meantime I want you two and Raven once she's recovered to help the rest of our people acclimate to life on the ground."

The Blake siblings shared a look before Bellamy spoke what they both were thinking. "We're just kids."

"You stopped being kids the moment we sent you down here. It's going to take a lot of work from everyone to make this place a home for our people. What's left of the hundred have months of knowledge of what it's like down here. Now go get some rest."

After the pair left Kane placed a hand on Abby's shoulder. "She'll be alright. Clarke is stronger than anyone I've ever met."

Abby nodded before bringing another concern. "What about the grounders? What do we do?"

"I don't believe the Commander will attack us. Deep down she wants peace as much as we do. So we don't provoke them, but be prepared just in case."

In Ton DC Lexa sat brooding on her throne agonizing over the decision she's made. No matter how many times she thought things over she could not change the past nor would she. She knew given the options at the time she chose the best one for her people. Heda belonged to her people. Lexa had died with Costia. She had briefly been brought back to life with Clarke but life had again reminded her that Commanders were meant to be alone.

She'd ripped out her heart along with Clarkes when she'd walked away. Now she couldn't get Clarkes face at the moment when she realized Lexa's betrayal out of her mind. Clarke had trusted and cared for her and she walked away as if Clarke meant nothing. She meant everything. Clarke was fire and everything good and beautiful in the world that Lexa had absolutely no right to. Lexa was poison to anyone who got close to her.

Her thoughts were interrupted by Anya storming into her tent. "You have been sulking for two days. Your people need you. We should be returning to Polis."

" I cannot leave yet. I must oversee the rebuilding of Ton DC."

"We both know Indra is more than capable of handling that. You're just hoping for news on the skaiprisa."

"Clarke is an excellent leader to her people. Of course I'm worried what they will do without her guidance."

"Lexa, you forget I have known you since you were eight summers old but even those who don't know you as well would find it hard to miss the looks exchanged between you two. You were wrong to take that deal. You should have taken the Mountain with Clarke at your side."

Lexa shot up from her throne and stalked towards Anya stopping inches from her face. "I am still your Commander do not question my decisions."

Anya refused to back down. She knew Lexa would never hurt her so long as she kept her questioning private. "What if Clarke hadn't defeated the Maunon what was your plan exactly?"

"I had it handled."

"They would be free to walk the ground. Surely you're not naive enough to think they'd just let us be. They would not stop until they had all that was ours."

Lexa growled and turned throwing her dagger. It imbedded itself in the support beam just beside Anya's head. Both women stood glaring at each other for a few moments before Lexa slumped back into her throne.

"At least tell me you didn't do it because you're scared of your feelings for Clarke."

"You think so little of me. I asked Clarke to come to Polis with me after it was all over. I think she would have if I didn't... I wanted to show her that there was more to here than death and difficult decisions. I had no choice. If I didn't order a retreat all our people in the mountain would have been slaughtered. We would have lost most of our army for nothing. The maunon said they had more missiles and they would aim them at all our villages in range. We would fall with them. All those lives or sacrifice less than a hundred skaikru even if that included Clarke there was only one option. The rest I would find a solution to later. Now even if Clarke survives on her own she'll never forgive me."