After Lily's talk with Trinity she slept sound, for the first time in a month. She didn't cry herself to sleep, or have the hunting dreams she had been. Opening her eyes, adjusting to the light coming in. Colby still crawled up on the floor, he been there every night. No matter how many times she told him it was fine, he stayed. Lily sometimes wondered if he was keeping someone out or trying to keep her in.

The cold floor made her pull her feet up, trying to rub the sleep out of her eyes. Than it hit her, she planted her feet on the ground. Her hand went to her stomach. Hunger ripped through her, but it was more than that. It was like she hadn't eaten in days. Stepping over Colby, making her way to the kitchen as fast as she could.

Ripping cabinet door open, anything her fingers touched went to her mouth. She reached the refrigerator, ripping food out, it was like a blind rage. Unable to stop, she never felt this out of control. "What the hell," Colby stood at the kitchen entrance. Lily looked up, seeing him, wiping her mouth with her hand.

"Wow," Jonathan's voice made them turn. He had one in from his night run. "You hungry Lily," Lily looked around at the empty packages, broken eggs, refrigerators door still open, she looked down at her hand realizing she clung to a slab of bacon. She swallowed realizing the other half was in her mouth. Lily leaned on the counter. Colby and Jonathan moved to her side, in fear she might fall. "You need to sit," Colby started moving her to a chair, Jonathan holding on to Lily other side.

"Why did I do that," embarrassed Lily hung her head. Colby only looked at Jonathan.

"Don't look at me," Jonathan shrugged.

"It's the baby," Trinity announced standing in the middle of the kitchen.

"I am only maybe two months," Lily sat up, surprised her stomach wasn't turning.

"We don't have a nine month pregnancy," Trinity took a towel from the sink and started to clean. "Most it is three month, but were you are human, witch. That must affect it but I don't think it will be nine months."

"We need to go to the McMahon's," Colby said, he didn't know what else to do.

"No," Lily voiced raised, "Vince isn't going to know anything, and I don't trust that daughter of his."

"I can see who I can reach out to," Trinity watched Lily.

"Thank you," Lily smiled at her, "let me help you clean, I made the mess," Lily stood, Colby watched to make sure she was steady enough.

"No, go get a shower," Trinity gave her a nod.

"Who do you know," Colby asked Trinity without looking at her. Whatever the two had talked about the night seemed to work. Lily and Trinity had never spoken three civil words, and Trinity was now offering help.

"My mom had a mid wife," Trinity gathered more trash. "Look, I know Joe's mom had four kids. But I am worried that baby is strong. If it has an appetite like this already."

"It is part Lily too," Colby didn't want Trinity to finish her sentence. Lily was strong, very strong she would be fine. He had to keep telling himself that.

Lily stood in the shower, her hands moved down her hair. She reached for the bottle of shampoo. As she poured it into her hand, she noticed her stomach. She looked down again, her hand moved lower. There was no way she could have a baby bump already. She washed her hands free of the shampoo. Turning the water off quickly, Lily grabbed a towel wiping the water from her face. Stepping out into a fog filled bathroom. Wiping the mirror clear with her hand. Turning to the side, seeing the reflection of what she had felt in the shower, a small mound growing from her lower stomach. Her breath caught in her throat. She couldn't be starting to show already, part fear and joy ran through her. Lily wanted to be the mother of Joe's children, they talked about it, dreamed about it. She just never thought it would be like this, alone. She always pictured him with her, his mother to help. Sakia becoming a proud grandfather again. Not like this, alone scared not sure what was happening to her. Drying her body off and grabbed some clothing hoping to hide the new bump for right now. She needed to get out of the house, take a walk, just clear her head.

Lily bounced down the porch steps, hair still wet. "Where you going," Colby was by her side.

"Just a walk," Lily's eyes focused on the woods.

"I'll," Colby could tell something was wrong. He was sure this morning scared her.

"No," Lily stopped short, "I just need to think, by myself. Ok, I will be fine." Lily didn't wait for an answer. She just put her head down and started back across the yard.

The air was chilled but the sun made Lily feel warm. She just breathed in the fresh air, looked up at the trees. Fall was coming, the leaves had started to change, " I guess you will be a winter baby," Lily patted her stomach. It was peaceful, which is what Lily needed. Finding a rock to sit on, Lily closed her eyes and breathed deep. Letting herself relax almost starting to drift off. Her finger twitched, she moved it over her stomach again. It was subtle, Lily thought it was the wind, or water off a tree leaf. Her eyes opened to a pair of black eyes looking back at her, Roman's eyes. A warm nose sniffed around her stomach. Lily sat as still as her body would let her. Slowly raising her hand wanting to reached out to him. "Joe," her voice just above a whisper. Looking up at her again, he shook his head. "Roman please, it's been long," Lily let her hand come to his neck. He pulled back, tensing up, "just wait," Lily came to her feet. Roman continued to back away, a low growl coming from him. Lily heart ached, never had Roman backed away from her. He seemed so far away, he didn't understand her. Didn't know her, "Joe it is me," Lily voices filled the air and bounced off the trees. Roman stayed low, teeth showing.

"Lily just back away," Colby called. Lily stood still watching Roman. She was sure Colby followed her, right now she wanted him gone. His being there was causing Roman to be on the defense. "Lily," Colby called again.

"He is fine," she turned her head to Colby. She snapped her head back when she heard Roman leap away. "Damn it," Lily yelled, "I told you I didn't need you!"

"Lily that is not Joe and it is not the Roman you know," Colby stated.

"He wouldn't hurt me, you have said he knows about the baby." Her anger gave way to tears. "I haven't seen him," she pushed past Colby.

"Lily," Colby followed her.

"I can take care of myself," Lily stopped, "I am not yours."

"I never said," would this ever end? Maybe Jonathan was right, they couldn't go back. Maybe they needed to stop trying so hard to get it back. "You don't understand, Joe is deep in there. I just don't want to see you get hurt. He, you don't need that."

"He wasn't going to hurt me," Lily yelled, branches snapped, "I can handle myself," her hands raised and with it the wind picked up. "For all of Bray's faults, he taught me that," she pushed forward, and without touching Colby sent him off his feet. "Now leave me alone!" Lily left Colby on the ground.

"You are not the only one, who lost him," Colby span to his feet, "you are not the only one who blames yourself. I should have never." Anger, fear, and sadness started pouring out of him.

"What,you should have never what Colby," maybe this needed to be done. Get it all out, "fucked me, cause that is all it was. Just because Joe not here, that doesn't change. You are not taking his spot with me."

"What ever," Colby tried not to cry, "it shouldn't have happened. But things were so bad and Joe was desperate. I have never seen him that way. He has always been a leader." His head dropped, "he has always been mine friend, and now he doesn't even know me. I am just trying to be his friend now. If it was me, I would want to know someone is looking after you, taking care of you. It is the only thing I can do." Turning away hoping Lily didn't see him cry. "Or he remembers, maybe he hoped I would say no. I tried,but he just kept saying it was once. Don't let emotions get in the way. There was no other way."

"I'm sorry," Lily gave Colby his space. She had been so caught up in her own grief, she hadn't seen everyone else's pain. Joe wasn't just a friend he was there pack leader. They all made a promise to each other. And had seemed they had all broken it. "I created this, and I have been selfish."

"You have to stop that," Colby rubbed his hands over his face. "We all have to stop blaming yourselves, each other. What's done is done. We have a lot more to focus on." Lily nodded in agreement. "We need to get Joe back, and we have a baby coming," Colby smiled, it faded as he looked down at Lily's stomach,"you can't be," he didn't know much about pregnancy, but he was sure Lily was showing way more than she should.

"I hope Trinity can find someone soon," Lily patted her stomach. "Cause I don't think this is right."