Memories and Fear.

Summery- A little one off sequal to 'Pain can lead to Feelings'. Vince hits his head badly feeding the animals and forgets everything about his life, and his love from Howard. He even becomes more afraid of the animals in the zoo. Can Howard help him remember before long?

Disclaimer- The Boosh dosen't belong to me, it belongs to two wonderful people with more talent then me. I also do not own Don't You won't Me, Human League does.

Author's notes- thanks for all of you that reviewed

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Vince had fallen back to sleep after being reassured that Howard wasn't gonna hurt him. As soon as he woke up, the electro poof's lone brain cell connected the pain he was feeling to the man sitting next to him and made him afraid of Howard, made him think that he was going to hurt Vince again.

Dr Taylor took Howard aside, his face grave "I'm sorry but it seems the bang to the head has cause Vince to forget who he is, forget his life"

"Will it be permanent?" The jazz mavarick asked, worried.

"I'm not really sure, some cases can be permanent, some can be short term and come back after a few days" The doctor admitted.

"Is there anything to do to help him?" Howard asked, hopeful.

"The best thing to do is take him home to a familiar environment, surround him with things he might remember and hope for the best. Also make sure he has plenty of rest for his shoulder and ankle, all I need is for you to sign this form and he'll be free to go" They shook hands and Howard moved back into Vince's room, sitting next to the bed. He wanted to hold his boyfriend's hand but he didn't want him to freak out again.

Vince woke up a few minutes later, watching as the strange man from before- did he see his name was Howard?- sitting next to him with his hand covering his eyes, not showing emotion. He tentitively reached his hand out and brushed Howard's fingers, making the older man jump in shock, which made Vince jump as well.

"God Vince, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to scare you" Howard said, a bit happy that Vince was trusting him.

"What happened? Where am I?" Vince asked quietly, his eyes looking everywhere around the room before setting on Howard's.

"You were attacked at the zoo by a horse, you're in the hospital" Howard explained.

"Zoo? I'm a zookeeper? I can't remember" Vince said, the confusion in his voice breaking Howard's heart.

"You have memory loss, you can't remember most of your life. But don't worry, Howard Moon, man of action will help you remember" He smiled down at his friend, Vince giving a small smile back before it disappeared once more.

"I'm sorry, but I can't remember who you are. But I know I can trust you somehow, like there's a strong bond between us" Before he knew it, Vince was crying, small tears rolling down his pointed cheeks before Howard gathered him in his arms, carefully of Vince's injuries.

"No, it's not your fault. Please don't cry, you'll remember soon enough when I take you back to the zoo, then I'll tell you everything I know about your life, I promise" Vince tensed againest him, but soon relaxed in the hug "I know, thank you Howard"

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The taxi ride from the hospital was painfully silent, Vince kept his eyes firmly at the window, looking out at the rainy surroundings as though trying to memorise everything in case howard asked him something. The jazz mavarick himself was worried that maybe Vince's memeories would never come back, that his friend would never remember anything important in his life.

When the taxi stopped outside, Vince didn't even rush out of the rain to save his hair, he just stood there as Howard paid for the taxi and lead him to their shared hut. Inside, Howard sat him down as he made tea for them both and watched as Vince took in everything around him. The electro fairy got up and started looking better at the stuff in the rooms.

Moving into the bedrooms, he opened one of the two wardrobes and saw it full of brown, biege and other dull coloured clothing. His mind was trying to connect the clothing to something he knew, something close to him "Hey Howard? This all your stuff?" He called out, the jazz mavarick running to him.

"Yes, that's right Vince, you remember. This is all your clothing here" Howard opened the other wardrobe and saw the shocked but delighted look upon his partner's face at the colourful items inside "These are all genius, I can't believe I wear this stuff"

Vince then saw the make-up on a vainty table near a bed and his smile dropped a bit "Wait, is this stuff mine as well? I'm not some sort of tranny or weirdo, am I?"

"No, Vince. You've always liked to dress colourfully to impress" Howard answered.

"So I'm vain? My life consists of looking good so get people I don't even know to like me?" Vince said quietly, a frown crossing his face.

"No...well you are sort of vain, but those people aren't your true friends. True friends would be friends with you for you, not for your fashion, not for your looks, but for your personality. You are a wonderful kind person who'd never hurt anyone intentionally, you're kind, you're you're always helpful to other people. Even to animals you're kind. Those are the things that make me love you" Howard cut off as he watched for Vince's reaction.

"You love me? Have I ever hurt you?" He asked. Howard thought back to all the times before when Vince would take the mickey out of him, his clothing, his music "A couple of times, but I forgave you for them"

"But I hurt you, you shouldn't even be talking to me then, let alone love me" Tears formed in those blue eyes he loved so much, so Howard gathered Vince into his arms closely.

"Listen to me Vince, I forgave you. I love you with all my heart and I will never stop loving you. I know you can't remember our relationship, but I know deep down you love me back" Vince turned his head and sobbed in Howard's shoulder at the older man's words. Howard sat them down on the bed and let Vince ride out his tears, rubbing his hand up and down his back.

"I...can feel that feeling, Howard. I can sort of remember us admitting our love...something happened to me...like what happened to me yesterday" Howard knew he would have to tell him about the bad things in his past.

"You were attacked by a lion on that day. You told me you were gonna die but you didn't want to before saying you loved me, and we've been together since" He could feel the smaller man tremble beneath him "Do the animals hate me? Is that why they attack me?"

"No, you're good friends with all the animals. That lion was new and jealous that you were friends with his mate and attacked you, and the horse only attacked you because some kid provoked it"

"Howard? Has anything else in my life been bad? Do I have any family left?" The question nearly broke Howard's heart "I'm sorry, but I don't know, you never told me. I only knew that before I met you, you grew up in some forest with Bryan Ferry and a load of animals"

"Bryan Ferry? Who's he?" Vince asked, confused once more and his mind tried putting pictures to the words.

"He was this singer who you lived with in a hut made of bus tickets, but he went on tour a lot so he left you with all these animals. That's probably how you can speak to animals" Howard answered "I can speak to anaimals?" Vince asked, shocked at this infomation.

"Yeah, I'll show you tomorrow but now it's late and the doctor says for you to rest" He gently laid Vince down on his bed and took of the electro poof's boots and jacket, making sure he took his medication before slipping a blanket over him. He went to walk out the room when a quiet voice stopped him "Please, don't go. Don't leave me"

He turned back to see Vince staring at him in fear "I'm afriad, please...stay with me" The anguish in his voice tore at Howard's heart, so he kicked off his own boots and jacket and got under the blanket with Vince's, scooping the younger man close to him. He smiled as he felt Vince relax into him and soon dropped off himself.

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There, a sort of fluffy/angst chapter for you all next up- meeting Naboo, Bollo, Fossil and Bainbridge hehe poor Vince. from chugirl2526