This fic contains yaoi, shounen ai, lemons, limes, angst, strong language and total sap. If you're a homophobe, or any of the above offends you, then it's not my fault if you decide to continue reading this. If you write me a review that says that this sucks because you don't like the above, then the only thing that I'll do is to start laughing my ass off at you.

Also, this fic can be read and understood without reading the lemons. They're only added for those of us who like citrus and the soury taste that it brings. ^-^ The rating will be T because of the limes, but I will mark out the chapters that are rated M or R, so that those that are too young or uncomfortable can skip. Not reading the lemons will not affected your understanding of the plot.

Author's Notes: My second attempt at a CCS fanfic. The first was a TouyaxYue/Yukito lemon [oneshot], and now I'm trying for something different. I'll probably turn this into a series, because I want to try it. ^-^

DISCLAIMER: CCS belongs to CLAMP. So does Touya. And Yukito. And Yue. And... Urgh, you know that they don't belong to me, don't you? ^-^;;

Warnings: Angst, apologies, screaming, drama. ^-^

"Blahh" - Speech

'Blahh' – Thoughts

'Blahh' – Yue and Yukito's communication

Blahh – Sounds

Darkest Sunrise – Chapter 2: Useless Apologies

Yue flew.

He didn't know where he was going, and neither did he want to know. He wanted to fly aimlessly, let all thoughts of Touya's betrayal fly from his mind. His To-ya had been kissing that Kaho Mizuki. Why did he do that?

'Is he... Not satisfied with us?'

Yue shuddered at Yukito's words. He didn't want to hear it, didn't want to know the answer. What if Touya really wasn't happy with them? What if Touya didn't think that they were good enough for him? He had been betrayed once by Clow, he couldn't deal with it again.

Somehow, he found himself at Clow's old house. Eriol had left for England, bringing with him Spinel Sun and Ruby Moon. It was empty now, and Yue folded his wings as he landed on the veranda that Yukito had once fell off of.

'I don't want to think about it. I don't want to think about To-ya.'

Neither did he.

And so he walked silently through the house that he had spent centuries in, with his elder brother as well as his first love. He could still remember the way – when you've walked a hallway for near a thousand years, it would be ingrained in your mind whether or not you've been sealed for three centuries.

He reached his old bedroom. It was still the same, immaculate as always. Magic had prevented any dust from infiltrating the windows and doors. Yue shook, then staggered over to his bed, buried his face in the covers and began to cry.

"Yu...e?" Kero raised his head, feeling the anguish that was coming from his little brother. The cake that he held in his hand – or paw, whatever it is – fell to the counter top.

"Yue-san?" Sakura whispered, a jolt of negative energy surging through her. Someone was upset. One of her Guardians was miserable, and since Kero-chan was never upset at anything that could cause her this much anguish as well...

"Kero-chan!" Sakura ran to the kitchen. "Kero-chan, where's Yue-san? Where's Yukito-san?"

Kero shook his head, then hopped into Sakura's pocket. "He's far from here. I might be able to pinpoint his direction, but shouldn't you ask your brother first? He has a right to know what's going on with Yue."

"Onii-chan!" Sakura screamed, being the kaijuu that her brother so often called her, but who could blame her now? "Onii-chan, have you seen Yukito-san? Or Yue-san?"

Her brother was kneeling on the grass, Mizuki-sensei behing him, her hand on his shoulder, but he shook it off. "Yuki..."

"Onii-chan, what's going on? Where's Yue-san?" Worried, Sakura prodded her brother for answers.

His mind seemed to detach from his body, as did his mouth. "He left. He saw me kissing Kaho, and he left..."

Sakura froze. 'What?' She thought, 'Onii-chan kissed Mizuki-sensei? And Yue-san saw?' Kero flew out of Sakura's pocket and screamed at Touya, looking more furious than he'd ever been.

"WHERE IS MY LITTLE BROTHER? IF ANYTHING'S HAPPENED TO HIM, I SWEAR I'LL NEVER FORGIVE YOU!"

Touya crumbled visibly. "I... Don't know." He managed, his voice little more than a whisper.

Sakura walked up to her brother, and for the first time in her life, lifted her palm and brought it down on her brother's cheek. 15 years old now, Sakura wondered exactly which part of her elder brother was more mature than she was. "Onii-chan no baka!" She yelled at him.

Holding the key necklace in her hand, she spoke, "Hoshi no chikara o himeshi kagi yo, shin no sugata o ware no mae ni shimese. Keiyaku no moto Sakura ga meijiru. Release!"

Whipping out a card from the deck that she always carried, she threw it into the air and lifted her wand. "Fly!"

Wings sprouted from her back, and as she prepared to take off, she heard her brother's plea. "Sakura, onegai! Let me go with you!"

Sakura's eyes hardened. "No, onii-chan. If I were Yue-san, I wouldn't want to see you now. You going would only do more harm than good."

She took off, and as soon as she was high enough not to be spotted, Kero transformed into his true form.

"He's probably at Eriol's old house, Sakura. That's where his aura is coming from."

Yue sobbed like he had never done before. Ever since he and Yukito were more aware of each other, the mask that he had put on started to crack. When Touya had entered their lives, it shattered completely. With nothing else to stop him, he wept.

The sound of wings and a soft landing alerted him to someone's presence in the vincity, and he straightened up, determined not to be found in such a state. The aura was kind, understanding, and was approaching him slowly, as though not to startle him.

It was Sakura's aura.

"Yue-san?"

"Yue?"

Sakura and Keroberos voice sounded from the doorway, and he turned his head to see the both of them, tears still streaming down his cheeks.

"G-Gomen, aru-Sakura," He tried to laugh, but only managed to cause more tears to flow. "I, I don't know what's gotten over me. I'll get over it in a while." A lie, but how could he tell his Mistress that he, Shinpansha Yue, had had his heart broken by her brother?

'You know Sakura isn't like that.' Yukito said, and Yue could picture the Snow Rabbit curled up in a corner of his mind, his knees up to his chest and arms wrapped around his legs. He had taken off his spectacles to allow the tears to flow more freely.

'I know.'

"Yue-san. Daijoubu?" Sakura asked, sitting on Yue's bed. She thanked 'Fly', then wrapped her arms around the Moon Guardian at the same time her wings vanished. "You don't always have to be Yue the Judge, you know. If you need to cry, you can."

Keroberos walked up to his little brother, nuzzling his neck, not saying anything. What could he say when he'd seen his younger brother's heard shattered once before, and now had to go through it all again? Nothing that Keroberos said would ease Yue's heart – if it was still intact.

Yue gave one last shudder, before collasping onto both Sakura and Keroberos. He it all out, his tears, his fears and his grief. How could Touya have done this to him? Didn't he mean anything in the brunette's eyes?

'This is like Clow all over again,' he thought. He had left himself get too attached, and had his heart broken as a result. He had opened his heart to trust, but had it shattered by the one that he thought loved him – them – the most. He had thought Touya would be different.

He could feel Sakura's hands in his hair, gently stroking the silky strands. It calmed him down, and he was grateful for his Mistress. "Sakura... Do you mind if- If you and Keroberos stayed with me here tonight?" His voice was small, pleading.

Sakura smiled. "Of course not, Yue. But you should rest, tomorrow we go back to Tomoeda... And to see my onii-chan, alright?"

Yue froze for the second time that night, then shook his head wildly. "Then I do not want to sleep, Sakura. I don't want to go back to see him."

Sakura retrieved 'Sleep' from the deck, raised her wand, an apology in her eyes. "You will have to, Yue-san." She threw the card in the air. "Sleep!"

The little fairy came down to Yue's side, and with a sprinkle, sent Yue falling backwards onto the bed, sleeping like an innocent child.

"Onegaishimasu, ne." Sakura said, curling up next to Kero, yawning. Sleep smiled, then buried herself in Yue's hair, sprinkling him with her magic every now and then.

As Sakura and the two Guardians slept, Sleep, a card under Yue's jurisdication, wondered when she had ever felt her master go through so much pain in one night, and could not come up with an answer.

Yue blinked open his eyes to find that it was already morning. It took a few moments for his brain to register where he was, but when he replayed the events from last night – when Sakura had come to him – he glared at his Mistress, who was already awake and staring sheepishly at him.

"I told you that I didn't want to sleep, Sakura." Yue accused his Mistress.

"Today you will go back to Tomoeda with Kero-chan and I, and you will talk to Touya," She said, fingering her skirt.

"I don't want to." Yue replied plainly.

Sakura's eyes narrowed, and for the first time since she became a Cardcaptor, she commanded her Moon Guardian. "You will go back to Tomoeda, and you will listen to what Touya has to say. Understand, Yue?"

The Moon Guardian flinched back from the force that were Sakura's words, then bowed his head, accepting her order. "Hai, Sakura-sama."

She pulled a face at his words, but shook her head and summoned the 'Fly' card again. "Let's go, Yue-san."

Yue nodded, then spread his own wings, revelling in the breeze that was blowing slightly, ruffling his hair as well as the feathers in his wings. Keroberos had transformed back into his false form, and was sitting comfortably in Sakura's pocket once more.

Sakura took a few steps back, then ran forward a few steps before leaping into the air. Yue just smiled, and took off after her. Even though she was a teenager, Sakura still acted like a kid sometimes.

'But there are times when she's too mature for her own good.' Yukito commented, and Yue had to agree with him.

They landed on veranda of Sakura's house much too soon for Yue. It being early in the morning, no one noticed their arrival. No one except Touya, who had been staring out his window for the whole night, that is.

The moment that he saw his sister, Kero-chan and Yue flying towards their house, he straightened up, took a deep breath to calm himself, and went to the hallway to greet them.

"Okaeri, Sakura, Kero-chan." He bit his lip. "Okaeri, Yue."

Sakura and Kero blinked once at him before they disappearing into Sakura's room, "Tadaima, onii-chan."

Yue looked as though he wanted to follow her into her room, but another part of him looked like he wanted to stay in the hallway. Yet another part of him wanted to escape this house, never to return.

"Yue."

He looked up, eyes cold.

"Can you come into my room?"

Silence reigned.

"Please?"

As much as he wanted to, he could not deny his lover whenever Touya was pleading with him. He sighed, then approached Touya's room.

'Yue, can you allow me to handle this?' Yukito asked. Yue nodded, and, once in the confines of Touya's room, wrapped his wings around himself, only to reveal Yukito when they opened again.

"Yuki, I-"

"No matter what you might say, Touya, the damage has been done." The Snow Rabbit's voice was cold, hard, and unfeeling. His usually warm amber eyes had hardened into ice, showing no emotion whatsoever.

Touya flinched, both at the steel in his lover's voice, and the fact that Yukito had called him 'Touya' instead of the usual 'To-ya'. He hated himself at the moment, but he searched his mind desperately for words to repair the damage that he had done.

"Yuki, I know that you're angry for what I did yesterday night, but if you could give me a chance to explain what really happened last night..." He trailed off.

Yukito continued to stare at him before he finally spoke. "Very well. Explain."

Touya took a deep breath. "Last night, when I saw Kaho, it was... I can't tell you what it felt like, but it was as though I had been thrown back in time. Suddenly, all the happy times that I had spent with her before she left came back to me full force. When I relived all those memories, I couldn't help but want to embrace her again. It felt as though she never left me." Touya admitted. He hoped that Yukito would understand, that he would forgive him.

Yukito's voice was as sharp as a dagger edge when he next spoke.

"You felt as though you had been thrown back in time? You remembered all the happy times that you spent together with her? The happy memories? The urge to embrace her again?" Yukito laughed humourlessly. "You didn't remember me? You didn't remember us? So what was all the laughter, all the smiles that we shared when we spent time together? All the promises, the kisses, the hugs, the whispered confessions of love?"

Yukito's jaw was hard, his hands clenched into fists. "So Yue and I mean nothing to you? If you remembered all the times that the both of you spent together, why didn't you remember the times that we spent together?"

The last sentence came out as a scream. "WHY DID IT NEVER OCCUR TO YOU THAT YOUR ACTIONS WOULD HAVE HURT US?"

He ran out of the room, down the stairs and out of the house. He didn't want to turn back; didn't want to face Touya. Crouching near a low wall, he sank to his knees and buried his face in his hands. He felt useless and unwanted. Like he was never of any importance to Touya in the first place.

After some time, he lifted his head, to see Touya across the street from where he was, running towards him. Shocked, Yukito shot to his feet, turned and started to run again.

"Yuki, stop, ple-"

BANG.

He turned around, both alarmed at the loud sound and the fact that Touya's sentence had been cut off so abruptly, to see what had happened.

Touya was lying lifelessly on the ground, blood flowing out from underneath him, and from his head. The car that had hit him reversed and sped off before Yukito could react.

'Yukito! Yukito, go to him!' Yue's voice jolted him out of his daze, and he ran again, but this time to his lover.

"Touya! To-ya!" He shook Touya's body, tears running down his cheeks again. "To-ya, wake up! To-ya!" Lifting up his lover's limp body, he pulled Touya close to his chest, wrapping his arms around him as tightly as he could. Vaguely, he could hear the sounds of sirens approaching.

"To-ya, don't you dare leave me! Don't you dare leave Yue and I! To-ya, wake up! To-ya! TO-YA!"

Should I stop here? =p Yeah I'm stopping here. XD I just love cliff hangers so much, don't you? ^-^ I'll probably be updating rather quickly on this fic, mainly because I'm just so excited about it. =D

Poor Yukito! Poor Yue! I'm sorry for putting the both of you through so much pain! Forgive me~! T^T And Touya, getting hit by a car. =A= *Hugs them all in a death grip*

Touya: If you didn't want to hurt us, why in the world did you write this fic to begin with?

Rei: I don't know, I just did. ^-^;;

Yue: You need serious help.

Yukito: Yeah, you do.

Rei: Omai zenbu wa hidoi. T^T

Japanese Phrases Used

Onii-chan – Big brother

Sensei – Teacher

Onii-chan no baka – Big brother, you idiot!

Hoshi no chikara o himeshi kagi yo, shin no sugata o ware no mae ni shimese. Keiyaku no moto Sakura ga meijiru. Release! - Key that hides the powers of the stars, show your true form before me.
I, Sakura, command you under our contract. Release!

Shinpansha Yue – Yue the Judge

Onegai[shimasu] – Please

Gomen – Sorry

Daijoubu – Are you alright? Or I'm fine.

Hai - Yes

Okaeri – Welcome home

Tadaima – I'm home

Omai zenbu wa hidoi – All of you are so mean