I've been so many places, done so many things and each time you were there with me. And each time I see your smile I know there is no one who could possibly take your place. There are no memories without you.
And although you may know a lot of things Tony, you don't know this.
I know you, Tony Stonem.
I can see the real you, under cold facade of indifference and arrogance.
I know that you are not a horrible person who enjoys hurting people
I know that you are not self-centred, you love Effy more than life itself.
I know that you aren't anything like anyone else I have ever met. You are simply Tony, unique.
And although you don't know it I pay attention,I know all the little things that make you you.
I know the way you fiddle with your hands when you are anxious
I know you suck the end of your pen when you can't concentrate during class.
I know that you feel so alone.
I know that you feel like you are playing chess while the rest of the world is playing chequers.
I know you think I don't trust you, but I do, I trust you with my life.
I know that you dance. Not just for appearances sake but for yourself. You dance to free yourself from the hectic life you live. You may not have training but God do you look beautiful when you dance.
I know you like to write. Not harsh words of hate and betrayal but instead words of friendship and love; things you believe you will never truly attain.
I know that you don't want anyone to know about your gentle side and so I don't tell.
I know that you are the most confusing, beautiful creature on this Earth even though you believe you are tainted because of your parents.
And I know one last thing about you, Tony Stonem.
I know you love me.
I know you love me because I love you too.
And I know we'll last forever.
