Emily sighed, her dirty blonde hair falling over her porcelain face covering her blue eyes as she mentally relived her past.

"You okay?" Joseph asked looking up from his beyblade. He was sitting with his legs dangling over the edge of his crate where he currently sat inside the Saint and Shield Club house.

You nodded your head, tucking your hair back behind your ears, curling your knees up to your chest and hugging them.

"Thinking about your past?" He asked again his green eyes meeting your blue ones.

"Ya, I just sometimes wonder what it would be like if I hadn't run away five years ago." You said breaking the gaze.

"You know you could always go back Emily." He said studying your face to find your emotions.

"I know, but it just wouldn't be the same, I mean I'd probably just be scolded for running away, besides," You met his gaze again and smiled," then I'd have to leave you guys."

Joseph smiled, "You know I wouldn't let you."

"I know, I could never leave you, after all you're my best friend." You smiled un-curling your legs and standing up. You jumped off your crate and walked down the hall towards the door. You were desperately in need of a walk. As you walked you passed Ozuma, your eyes met as he gave you a nod of recognition, and headed on. You sighed again opening the door. If only he knew how much he meant to you. If only they all knew.

Dunga was like an older brother to you. He protected you and cared for you like a little sister. Mariam was your only female friend, and it helped to talk to her a lot, she cared for you like a mother almost. Ozuma was two years older than you, and you simply adored him, but you knew you were merely a teammate to you, and that killed you. You had liked him ever since the first day you met him, his emerald eyes, his determination, and his personality made him something irresistible to you. And finally, there was Joseph. Joseph was something-something; you really weren't sure what he was. He was something special for sure. He had started out as your best friend, but lately you had been seeing part of him you haven't seen before. He was stronger, less child-like, but still the same lovable, caring Joseph at heart.

You walked through the alley ways surrounding the hide-out, you walked to the spot where you first met the saint and Shields. You were about to have a flash back when…

"Hey, Em, wait up!" You turned to see Joseph running towards you. You smiled.

"Thought you could use some company" He said smiling. You smiled back and hugged him.

"Aw, thanks Jose, I appreciate it" You said speaking the truth, he intrupted something that could only lead to tears.

"Hah, no problem" He said shrugging. You both walked on. "Emily, is everything okay, you've been acting kinda funny lately?"

"Oh, ya, I don't know, I've just been thinking about stuff, I'm just kind of confused," You said looking down at the pavement.

"Anything I could help with?" He asked. You smiled, Joseph was such a good friend always there to help.

"No, it's ok, but that's for offering." You said cheerfully your usually cheeriness completely restored.

"No problem," He smirked.

Just then a huge gust of wind rushed by lifting your black mini skirt. You squealed, then frowned you had to pick the coldest day of the year to wear a mini-skirt. Well, then again that's what you wore basically everyday. Yep. You were the one who stood out of the Saint and Shields, with your baby pink tank top black mini skirt, pink leggings, and black fake fur boots.

Joseph laughed, "You okay?" He asked smiling at you.

"Heh, ya I think so it's just really windy" You laughed.

"Ya, Em, you need to gain some weight or your going to fly away" He said laughing, but you knew from the look in his eye, he was actually concerned. You laughed, but deep inside you cringed. No one new about your problem, and Joseph was the only one that probably suspected it.

You hit his playfully on the back of his head.

"Hey!" He smirked rubbing the back of his head. You stuck your tongue out at him.

"Ok, that's it" And just like that he began chasing you. You laughed and began sprinting, moments later; you felt to arms wrap around your waist and lift you up. You squealed again. Joseph laughed spinning you around. You growled playfully,

"Let me down" You wined laughing.

"Fine" He smiled putting you down.

"EMILY!" A voice called from behind. You turned to see, Fiona running towards you, her long black hair flying behind her in two neat braids, and her yellow mini dress with black leggings being blown back in the wind outlining her "perfect" body. It drove you insane how perfect she was, but it didn't matter since she was your closest friend other than Joseph.

"Hey," You smiled hugging your friend, "What's up?" You asked smiling.

"Not a lot, I'm going for a walk, I was wondering if you'd come," She paused and smiled at Joseph," That is if it's ok with you"

"Ya, it's fine, see ya later Em" Joseph said before smiling and turning. Emily grabbed you by the shoulders.

" Oh-My-God, what was going on with you two, are you guys like together or something" She said searching your face like it held all the answers.

"Emily!," You squealed, nervously, "Joseph's my friend, just my friend" You finished laughing nervously.

"Uh huh, sure didn't look that way to me, right, your telling the truth, you like that Ozuma guy right?"

"Mhm," You said smiling. Fiona didn't look satisfied. Suddenly, her eye's went wide.

"Oh,my,god, You like, Joseph, and Ozuma"

"No I don't!" You yelled, you could feel your face getting warm, damn I'm blushing

"Your blushing! I knew it! He used to be your friend, but now he's turning into something more" She gasped, she looked so proud just like she cured the common cold or something.

You groaned, denying it, but deep inside you knew it was true, the way you looked at him now, it-it was so different. You sighed finally giving in. There was something you had to ask, you really didn't want to, but you knew you had to.

"Fio-ona, do you think he-he-he likes me?" You said blushing a thousand shades of red.

"Uh duh!, did you see the way he looks at you, god I wouldn't be surprised if her loved you" She said throwing her arms in the air do add a "dramatic" effect.

You blushed again.

"Well, I better get going" You sighed hugging Fiona goodbye.

"Okay, well see you later"

"Okay! Bye!" With that you head back to the hideout, a million thoughts racing through your head. As soon as you got there, you walked straight to the bathroom and locked the door, turned on the faucets, shoved your toothbrush down your throat and threw-up. And then you turned the faucets off and sunk to the floor, only one thought going through your head. Fuck