She is the sun and the moon and the stars. Everything doesn't matter. Her lips graze mine I cuddle her. I want to say ' We should stop Em. Quit while we're ahead. ' but I don't instead I whisper in her ear.

" I love you Emily' I say in her perfect, soft and beautiful ear.

" I love you too Vexen" she says in mine.

If I only knew, if I only knew two hooded figures were watching in the Commons Area, a window was watching. Hell's Pumpkin ( or Xehanort, but Emily prefers his nickname) and Mansex ( Xemnas, but again, Emily.) they were talking. They where plotting, but right now I was in the blissful unaware in her arms, and she was in mine, and that is all that mattered.

~ Four months latter~

In my dreams there is two children. The first one is my little girl, my little girl if I was able to raise her, -if I was able to allow her to have the gentle, natural appearance, She is sweet. She is always coming home from her first day of school, she is in a pink polka dot dress. Her cheeks are rosy and she is always smiling. Her eyes are sharp green, and her hair my blond, of cores- is always in a delicate, beautiful braid. She is always my ice princess. She always run's to me shrugging off her back pack jumping on me grinning " DADDY!" I always pick her up and hold her close to me, then we go in and have a nice slice of strawberry tart. My little ice princess always has different names, but my son, ( Emily is having my Twins, one boy and one little perfect girl.) My son's name is always Isa. Isa is a Hebrew word meaning

"auspicious one", In my dreams he is tall, and strong, and rather then my little girl, he is a adult, he is powerful, he has Emily's soft blond hair and her smile and her blue eyes that seem to bleed sorrow. Isa never talks, he just gives a half chuckle and walks away.

Xemnas walks in and looks at the machine I am working at to save Emily. He looks at it carefully, then to me, my head pounds, fear rushing through me. Sometimes, I think he knows, because you can't get anything past him. Nothing it is virtually impossible. He smiles at me. Honest to goodness smiles, his eyes lights up and his mouth curls pleasantly, and teeth are surprisingly straight and white.

"Vexen

" he smiles " you have been all alone for the past year. Come up stairs were about to put in a movie"

" I can't " I mutter still working " I really have to get this done"

" Why don't I help? I can bring Xigbar and Xaldin too" he says

" No I'd really prefer to do this on my own" My voice shakes but I cough into my hand.

" Ok" he smiles again " what does it do?"

I bite my lip, I honestly have no idea what to say or do sweat covers my palms making them feel like I had just gotten out of the shower I wipe my hands on my lab coat.

I cough again

" I umm It's a invention to, err umm alter a Childs appearance before it is born" I say my voice brakes

Xemnas smile's he appears to be genuinely interested " interesting" he says his fingers brush the side of the cool metal " Just the appearance?"

I nod " yes Superior if I were to alter the gene pattern too much, it'll result in severe birth defects umm blindness, inability to walk, loss in limbs, umm muteness, deafness" I cough because even though I am only altering the appearance, this is always a possibility that would destroy me, and Emily " miscarriage, " or even worse , too get so far and then " they could be born a still born" My voice is only a faint whisper as my lips utter the words ' still born' as if that would be the worse thing that could ever happen to me, but it would. Now that I am - whether I raise them or not- a soon to be parent, they are all that matter.

Vexen" he smiled " that is very interesting"

" thanks" I smile weakly watching him leave my head slowly stops as does my sweat increase. I exhale deeply pushing my back agents the wall and exhale deeply pushing my hair back closing my eyes swallowing hard .Emily walks up and rushes to me.

"VEXEN, what's wrong?! " she asked in alarm holding my arm

" Xemans" I whisper " he stopped by Em"

"are you ok? Hurt?" she asked looking me over in concern

"I'm fine" I say then look at her four-mouth-belly, I remember feeling the first kick " hey ice princess" I say in her belly, and I get one single kick.

Emily smiles sitting by me looking at the machine, " cool " she smiles " does it have a name?"

I think for a hard time. " I have no idea" I laugh after a while

"hardly a good sells pitch " she jokes at me.

" I know" I smile " but there is a tiny setback " I admit

" what?" she says her smile fading quickly

" I…..I cannot alter the …the umm well I can only alter the appearance, the personality, allergies, powers. That kind of stuff without a definite birth defect. "I manage to spit out, because I want her to be happy no matter what.

" oh " she whispered

" sorry" I say softly " I have taken tests, it, it, it just isn't possible "

Emily bit her lip " is it ready now Vexen?" I bit my lip, I could I haven't ran a final test but I think It'll be ok.

" yes" I say and I stand up and help her up and walk her to the machine and hem her lay on the cold metal table and flip the machine on a faint hum starts.

"wait " I say again flipping the switch off

"what's wrong? " Emily as she sits up

" I can leave the organization" I lick my lips " we can be together. "

She blinked " but, how?" she wisperd

" I don't know!" I say " just give me time, we can be together Em" Emily, Isa Myself and my little ice princess.

" No, Vexen, no put that thought right out of your head"

"you're a nobody" she whispered

Ouch. I must have winced or something because she but her lip and apologized

"whatever" I whisper " just. When it is all said and done, promise me , I can be in there lives "

" I have to think about it" she says rubbing her swollen belly.

" Em!" I cry out "there my children, they are ours. Please Emily don't do this to me!"

"I have to think about it" she said again walking up and leaving.

There they go, My son, the only women who was ever kind to me, and my little ice princess.