I couldn't give in, I just couldn't!

No matter how much I wanted this and him, I could not give in. I needed to show him what it was like before the whole meadow ordeal. I wanted him to know exactly how I felt when he pulled away all those times.

I can do this, I can do this.

I chanted this in my head while Edward returned to my neck, kissing it slowly. I, once again, unwillingly let out a moan of pleasure. I felt him smile against my neck, taking it to be a sign to keep going. He brought his hands to my shoulders, sliding them down a little so that his hands were now just above my breasts.

I can't do this, I really can't do this.

He pushed me slightly so that I had no choice but to step backwards. Then before I knew it, he had me backed up against the wall, with my legs wide open.

SHIT! NO! MUST STOP!

"Edward..." I tried to protest, but it came out as a moan. His hands had travelled to my butt and he squeezed it gently.

"What is it my love? Want to be bad for me yet?" Right, that was it. I would show him a thing or two.

"Edward, I'm saying sorry now." Luckily, he hadn't notice my hand edging closer to his pants, for he was way too preoccupied.

He paused and looked at me, confusion written on his face.

"What are you sorry about?"

"This." As soon as I said it, I grabbed his crotch, which was pretty hard right now, and gripped it as hard as I could. Edward let out a little yelp and backed away from me. By the time I blinked, he was sitting on the bed, cradling himself. Told you I would show him.

"Bella! What was that for?" Ha. At last, I have found a vampire's sensitive part. I laughed evilly in my head. I should use it more often from now on.

"Let's just say, I took a leaf out of your book, but changed it so it would work for you."

Considering I was still flushed from what we had been doing, I managed to get the sentence out pretty well.

Edward looked thoughtful for a moment, and then sadness swept across his face. He bent his head down so that he was staring at his feet. Crap, what had I done now.



"I'm sorry Bella. I didn't mean to be so pushy. I know that you're not ready and I didn't mean to push you."

What the hell?

Of course I was ready, did he not notice me squeeze his dick or something? Sheesh, I guess I better explain it to him.

"Edward," I sat down next to him a placed my hand on his thigh. "You are so silly sometimes, of course I'm ready. It's just that, I wanted you to know what it was like to be me before the whole Victoria thing. When we had 'boundaries'. I didn't mean to be mean and I wasn't rejecting you. God, I mean, who would reject you? But, I thought it was only fair you knew what it was like. And I'm probably going to regret this later but I promise that as soon as I think you've had your fair share of 'boundaries', I'll let you do whatever you want with me."

I dragged the last bit out so that he knew I meant it. Once I had finished, his mouth turned into a big smile, though he didn't move his body.

"Whatever I want?" He whispered to the floor. His face still with its huge grin.

I leaned in closer so that my lips were barely touching his ear.

"Whatever you want." I whispered.

He lifted his head up and turned to me. His eyes sparkled with excitement, and his grin got bigger.

"Bella, I don't think you'll regret what I've got planned for you. I think you'll like it so much you'll be begging for more."

My mouth was now hanging open in surprise. Edward Cullen, the most gentlemanly vampire I have ever met, just said I would be 'begging for more'? What has this world come to?

"We'll see about that. Meanwhile, we need to go somewhere, before you decide to do something to me, while we're alone." I smiled slyly at him and walked to my wardrobe.

"Hmm, alone sounds like a great word, when you put me and you with it." I heard him stand up and walk towards me. He wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed my neck. "Though, I wouldn't care if we were alone or not if you smelled this good."

I turned my head to look at him and raised my eyebrows.

"You would take me in public?"Hmm, didn't sound like a bad idea. Wait, no! Not again. Must, not, be, sex, crazed.

"Yes. Then when we got in, then in the shower, then when we get into the bedroom, then before you fall asleep, and then in the morning and it would happen all over again." Wow, I thought I was sex crazed. Jeez he was thinking about doing it six times. In one day.



I smiled at him and he smiled back, a little embarrassed but proud of his statement.

"You really want this don't you?" He chuckled a little then whispered in my ear.

"More than I should." I couldn't help but giggle at his comment. Edward had never really been like this, but I definitely didn't want him to go back to normal. If you could call it normal.

I decided to change the subject, before things got out of hand again.

"What shall I wear?" I started searching through my wardrobe for something generally decent.

"Nothing." He mumbled into my neck. I rolled my eyes and turned in his arms.

"Edward, seriously. Just be sensible for a little while. You can wait for a little longer, I had to too you know." He sighed and unwrapped his arms from around me. He looked defeated, though he looked very adorable like that.

"Oh Edward." I threw myself at him and kissed him. He was caught slightly by surprise but welcomed the hug anyway. "You're so cute when you look defeated." I wrapped my legs around his waist and looked at him. He looked slightly bewildered at first then smiled.

"Does that mean I get a treat for looking so cute?" I couldn't help but giggle, again; he looked like a little boy who thought he was asking too much but asked anyway. I pondered in my head for a minute, wondering if I would be able to stop if I started. Ah what the heck.

"I think, maybe you should get a little treat." I smiled coyly at him, and then brought my lips to his. He welcomed them like my life depended on it. I ran my hand through his hair, while my other wrapped around his neck.

His hands, how ever, were on my back and once again, on my butt. A new routine was happening here, and I'm ashamed to say, I kind of liked it.

The contrast between my hot lips and his icy cold ones was amazing. It felt really good and I wanted more. A lot more but I had to remember, don't push it. I felt him lick my lip and I knew he was trying to push it. I smiled, whilst I was still kissing him, then gently bit down on his bottom lip and slowly pulled away.

"Did Edward like his little treat?" I couldn't keep a straight face, at all.

"Oh yes, Edward liked his treat a lot. But Edward does wonder what a big treat would be like, if this was only a little one." I laughed at him, one, for using third person, and two, because he looked so eager to find out.

"Well, Edward will have to find out later. Meanwhile, you got to help me choose what to wear, I'm clueless." I flicked through my various clothes then found a dark blue tank-top that would match with some jeans that I knew I had washed today.



"Actually don't worry. Found something! I'll go get changed in the bathroom, and no peeking Mr Cullen!" I had no idea why I said 'Mr Cullen' but it suited the sentence, if that makes sense.

"Okay, Bella, I may be bad, but I'm not perverted." He had his arms crossed in front of his chest and an eyebrow raised. I smiled innocently at him then went into the bathroom.

I changed quickly, not liking the time I was wasting without Edward. When I came out, Edward was sitting on my bed, reading Wuthering Height's intently. I tried to hold in a giggle but he noticed and looked up.

"What?" He seemed confused.

"I thought you said you didn't like that book." I went to stand in front of him, but immediately regretted it as he pulled me onto his lap. I wasn't really complaining, but if this was going to work out, he really needed to stop this.

"I don't. It's just I thought if I read it again, I might find something in it to make me like it the way you like it. But so far, it's still the same old Heathcliff and Cathy. Ugh." He chucked the book across the room. That was no way you treated one of my books.

"Hey! Go pick that up!" I pointed to the book whilst staring forcefully at him.

In the next second, he had the book in his hand and he was smiling stupidly at me. Stupid vampire speed. I got up off his lap and turned to face him, this time with a little distant.

"You know Edward; if you're like that you might not even get a big treat. Now come on otherwise Alice will never stop moaning at me."

As soon as I said the words 'not', and 'big treat' in the same sentence, he was standing up and at the door in a flash. I laughed at his enthusiasm, liking the way I was in control and made my way past him down the stairs.

"Are we taking my truck?" I asked, in case Edward decided he want to run.

"Bella, you've denied me enough already today and I've only seen you for about an hour. We're taking the Volvo, as it's parked round the corner." He flashed me his amazing crooked grin which made me melt, and I dreamily made my way towards his car.

Maybe I wasn't in control as much as I thought I was, maybe I was. But I knew one thing for sure, it was going to be great either way.

A/N: Sorry haven't said anything yet or... put a disclaimer. Ehe. Please R&R. Hope you liked it, and do you want a lemon?? :D