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Raenef: "Yup, that looks about right."

Eclipse: "I suppose this means this means she doesn't own us."

Raenef: "I think so."

Eclipse: "Excuse me a moment."

Sounds of champagne popping open. Confetti floats through the door.

Cookies: /Sniff/ "I find that completely uncalled for."

Warning: Yeah, this is shonen-ai, and that does entail certain things that the bible says are wrong, but I'm guessing that if you've gotten this far you don't have a problem with it. If you do have a problem a) why in the world would you be continuing to read? b) if you flame me for it, you have issues and really need to see somebody, and c) I'm not entirely sure why you're reading a Demon Diary fic.

A/N: Yes, umm, I think I will ramble for awhile. This is the second half of this fic, and just to warn you it may make absolutely no sense, but that's ok (at least by me). It's in Raenef's POV, and meant to complement Eclipse's earlier ramblings. Oh, he may be a little OOC, but I think that's the point I was trying to make when I wrote this. To be perfectly honest though I can't quite remember since this was written late at night and I had had a lot of coffee which makes me go slightly loopy. Also, I didn't spend as much time on Raenef as I did Eclipse because I love him infinitely more.

Raenef: /Makes huge watery eyes/

"You don't love me anymore?"

Cookies: "Aww, sweetie, I do love you but...well, Eclipse is just...Eclipse.

Raenef: "Oh, yeah. I kinda get what you mean." /Becomes lost in his own thoughts (and smirking)/

Cookies: "Hentai!"

Anywho, if you're still tuned in I give you points and I'll just say one more thing before you get on with the fic. This is dedicated to Gaimana, cuz they gave me the good review I was hoping for (yes I know I'm pathetically easy to please), and are therefore the reason that this is posted. So enjoy ... hopefully.

Pathetic/Ironic

Part 2: Raenef

I love you.

Pathetic, ne?

I suppose Ironic would also work in this context.

I love you Eclipse ...

And you can barely stand the sight of me.

I try. I try so hard to be what it is you want:

Evil.

Hard.

Cruel.

Heartless.

Ruthless.

Cold.

But wouldn't that make it hard for me to continue to feel this way?

And the one thing that makes me try so hard to please you ...

Is the one thing that causes you such displeasure.

My warmth.

But I am only warm because ...

I love you.

Yes. Ironic is definitely the word for this.

I don't think there were any stages for me.

I knew right away ...

How I felt.

But it made me miserable, almost resentful of you.

Almost.

Progress, ne?

I suppose you would be proud.

I want to say it.

I don't think that I've ever wanted something so badly.

Every time I see you, I have to prevent myself from blurting it out;

Prevent myself from ruining everything.

Because you don't feel the same.

I'm starting to wonder if you even feel period.

Maybe I should try harder at being cold.

Maybe even pretending could be good enough.

You're cold so ...

Maybe you wouldn't mind me then.

Or maybe ...

Maybe I'm just fooling myself.

False hope.

False love.

"I hate you!"

No. I don't

"Aishiteru."

Damn it.

Damn you.

Did I really just think that?

Yes. I did.

And I think ...

I meant it

Do you see what you've done to me?

I'm angry.

I don't hate you.

I could never hate you.

But ...

Up until recently anger wasn't even a part of my vocabulary.

Neither was hate –

Or damn, for that matter.

Ironic.

I think I've found the perfect word.

Fin.

A/N: Yoopeeeeee!!!!!!!!! I'm finished my first ever fanfic. And it only took me two days.

/Everyone cheers, but for other reasons/

Cookies: /Pouts/ "I went to all this trouble and you cheer cuz there's no more horrible chapters!?

Meanies!!!"

Raenef: "Don't worry about it. I liked your fic."

Cookies: /Makes wide, hopeful eyes/ "Really?"

Raenef: "Well, umm ... I'm supposed to be the nice one, see ... and ..."

Cookies: /Humphs/ "Forget it. I suppose though, that genius is always underappreciated."

Raenef: "... Of course." /Mutters/ "You and Chris should start a club or something."

Cookies: "What was that now?!"

Raenef: "Er, nothing"

Cookies: /Smiles evilly/ "Good. Because, you do know that as the author, I do have control over

all. Mwahahahaha!"

Raenef: /Gulps/ "Oh, dear lord. The entire demon world is quaking with fear."

Oh, by the by, aishiteru means I love you and Gomen ne means sorry. And I do know this is a Korean manga, but I like Japanese. Plus I don't know any Korean. Anywho, I'd forgotten about that when I wrote it, and couldn't bring myself to change it (I like them there) so please just humor me. Oh and I think I mentioned last chapter about my horrible disease, who's only cure is reviews. So yes, if I didn't, here's me saying it again.