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2. Decisions she did and didn't make
Cameron packed the gift and wondered what Chase wanted to talk about.
Would he ask her once again to be with him? Would he just say goodbye? Would he want to stay friends?
She was growing more and more anxious. She hadn't been able to decide what her feelings for him meant. Or rather, she just couldn't understand them.
Whenever she thought about him she felt as if something was fighting inside of her.
As if she was trying to keep a door shut while trying to open it, to set free…what?
She was afraid, but Cameron knew that in order to make a decision she had to conquer that fear.
After all, even if they stayed just friends, he was worth the effort.
Whenever she was in his presence she felt secure and often happy. He gave her the confidence to do things she used to be too afraid to do. His touch made her feel good, and not only because of the memories of him touching her…elsewhere, but because of the connection they seemed to share.
So when she thought that this could be the last time she ever saw him, she panicked; whatever he was to her she didn't want to lose him.
Calming down, she looked into the mirror. Cameron knew Chase liked it when she wore her hair open. And he had once told her he found her cute when she wore pink lipstick. She didn't wear it for work because she thought it wasn't professional. On the other side, being caught making out in a closet by your boss, was, well, unprofessional enough not to be worrying about lipstick.
So, she took her bag and put on her shoes, and walked to the door where she put out the light. Opening her door, she wondered what this day would yet become: the day she found true love, the day she was paralyzed by fear, the day she found her best friend, the day she lost a beloved, in whatever sense, person?
Closing the door, she set out to find it out…or run away?
A/N: I'm sorry this is developing at such a slow pace, but please review and tell me what you think!
