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Chris looks down at his hands; clean and tampered he closes his eyes. His nightmares have become a lot more vivid over the last few weeks. Burying his face in his hands, he tries to calm his racing heart. Losing everyone he has ever cared about is slowly causing him to lose the sanity he has left. He shouldn't be here, he should be there helping them.

Four hours later,

Chris is located in the attic in the manor skimming though the book. Hoping to find something to ease his mind and pass time. Memories of his sister, Bianca, Ren and Mi cloud his mind. Slamming the book shut he shoves it away. His heart hammers against his chest as the image of Ren's determined face appears. She's lost to them because of him. She ran towards the demons so he could bury Melinda with his mother.

He lost a friend just so he could grief even more… He was a surly bastard that didn't even let her do that for her own twin. Jumping up to his feet, he beings to pace the floor remembering the cries that escaped Ren's lips as she begged him to take her sister's body. Punching for his actions, he wanted to save his family. It didn't matter who died to save them, all he wanted to do was take his younger siblings out of the raided house.

Piper, Phoebe and Paige walk up to the attic to see their whitelighter punching the wall with tears in his eyes. Never have they seen him express another other emotion but annoyance. The sisters look at one another trying to see who would go up to the young man. They watch as he falls to the ground with a thump, his sobs softly fill the silent room.

'Poor baby, what happened to him?' Phoebe reflects to herself.

Once Piper registers the scene she starts toward him. Her chocolate brown eyes shine with sorrow as she hears his rants.

"Linny, I'm so sorry. I promise that if I meet up with Ren, I'll make things right. Please make the memories the pain away." Chris calls out to his sister as if she were with him. "I failed you as big brother; I failed Ren as a friend… I don't deserve to live."

The sisters stare in shock as his self loathing. He is truly broken far beyond what he led them to believe. His knuckles raw and bloody lay limp on his thighs as he stares off. Piper kneels beside Chris, laying a hand on his shoulder. He lets out a gasp of terror, yet when he looks at her his inner tumor oil ebbs away.

"What's wrong?" Piper softly speaks to him.

Closing his eyes, Chris reminisces on the times when his mom would speak to him with love and concern laced in her voice. Even if she stands before him, this isn't the mom he grew up with, his mom didn't bash him when she could or damn him when she was mad. Shaking his head Chris avoids his aunts and mother.

Chris is about to answer when the room's lighting changes and the tension grows. A figure appears, wind shrieks and the lights blind the four. A thump arouses their interest; the figure lays limp on the ground. Blood spills about the wooden floors slowly making its way toward Chris. Soft murmurs fill the room filling Chris' ears. Crawling to the figure, he moves over him/her gasping at who's slowly dying he pulls away.

Piper freezes the room and walks toward the young figure that has caused their Whitelighter to pass out. She slowly she eyes the young woman before her. Raven hair is mussed, tingled and filled with hay, blue eyes shine with no emotion. Ruby lips, slightly parted and ghostly white skin that is covered in bruises and dry blood.

"Leo!" Piper screams for her ex-husband.

In seconds, showering blue and white orbs flash, materials as her ex. His concerned eyes land on her than the figure of the young woman. Rushing over to heal her, Chris launches toward her as if trying to protect her. His green eyes shine with despair as he shakes the girl until he gets her attention. Her lips try to form words but fails. Her eyes roll back and she gasps…

Phoebe and Paige watch in astonishment as the man before them tries to protect someone other than Wyatt. Paige slowly ambles toward him and the young girl; placing a hand on him she tries to pry him way. Chris' eyes blaze with rage and grief a he looks up at her; then turns his attention to the girl in his arms and tries to hold back sobs.

"Wake up, Ren!" He screams as he continues to shake the fallen girl. "Ren," He whispers before darkness takes over.


What will happen to Ren and to Chris?