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Chapter 2- I really am screwed now!!
Distant and Forgotten Memory no.1:
The fifth-graders in their soccer uniforms ran around on the soccer field, bursting with boundless enthusiasm and energy.
One boy in particular, with outrageously poofy brown hair, laughed loudly and turned around to shout out to the rest of his team. He was obviously the captain of the soccer team and a happy-go-lucky kid too. Smiling, running around, and calling out to his teammates without a care in the world.
A girl was standing at the side of the field watching the boy. She had shining red eyes as she watched her friend. She held tightly to the package in her hands and silently gathered up her courage as he looked towards her and noticed her there.
She tried to be brave as she rehearsed the words in her mind. He was easygoing, grinning at her as he ran over.
"Hi, whassup?"
"T-Tai!" she cried out, forcing herself to stare into his friendly brown eyes.
"Yeah?" he asked patiently.
"Uhh …" she held out the package stiffly to him. "In Home Economics, I made heaps of cookies and I… I was thinking of giving them to you b-because y'know, well… you might be hungry, and I know you like cookies and all that and-" she was so annoyed at herself for blabbing on and on like this.
But… her heart relaxed as she saw his honest smile.
"Thanks so much, Sora!!" He said happily as he took the package into his hands. "I'll be sure to share them with the team!!"
She watched him wave to her and then run off. And she sighed a long sigh of disappointment. He… he was so ignorant… He didn't really see her. He didn't really understand. Not at all.
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Tai was a pretty much normal teenage boy. He went to school, learnt nothing, hung out with his mates and was obsessed with soccer. However, although it was relatively normal for a boy his age to develop a crush on a girl, he didn't count on falling in so deep. Maybe it was because of how slow this certain development had come for him, but he'd already sped right past the 'crushing' and 'liking' stage to crash head-first into love.
And his head hurt.
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Tai made his way through the school, outside towards the benches and various spots where the students had their lunches.
He was slightly self-concious about the purple bruise evident on his forehead, from the head-first crashing yesterday. He recognized his group of friends seated a few metres away from him, gathered under a tree, two seated on a wooden bench.
He grinned goofily at them as he neared, per usual. But as he sat down on the grass, his mind was troubled.
Well… I'm in a load of crap. He thought bitterly. He snuck a glance at the girl sitting on the bench. It practically made him angry! Just the thought of it!!
To think, that after this long, I've found myself in love with someone for the first time!! And not only have I no idea what to do, I can't do anything about it!!
Tai played his facade well. And nobody noticed the way he was gazing more intently than ever on a certain someone.
He sighed inwardly. Just my luck.
The girl that was so stunningly beautiful she made his heart beat out of his chest just with a smile. She had sincere red eyes and red hair that only just touched her shoulders. And Tai didn't need to even consider her character, her personality. He knew her, and although she had an occasional independent, feisty edge; she was kind and caring and determined. After all, he'd known her for many years. And it was only yesterday he fell for her! Literally!
But…
Sora smiled her bright, stunning smile. But it wasn't for Tai. It was for Matt.
They were the ones sitting together on the bench. Matt was also smiling, and the corners of his normally cool blue eyes crinkled.
Tai knew his best friend well. Matt smiled for his ladies with a charming, confident smile. But… as he searched his friend desperately, he noted the way his smiled a little differently. And he was unable to put a finger on what exactly was different about it, but it gave him a bad feeling. A really… really… bad, twisting, stabbing pain deep in the pit of his stomach.
Just my luck. For the only girl I have ever liked to be the girl my best friend is dating.
Tai ate his lunch. The food was bland and dull in his mouth, he couldn't taste anything.
Months ago, if this were to happen, surely it'd be okay. If Tai ever fell for a girl Matt was going out with, it would've been okay because he knew that Matt's relationship would not last long.
But he couldn't apply that solution now. After all, it had always been Tai bugging Matt to learn some integrity and work out what commitment was. And only recently, he had been hopeful for his popular best friend because it had seemed like the message was getting through- Matt had been going out with the same person for exactly two weeks and didn't seem to be considering otherwise! In fact, it was only yesterday morning, he was rejoicing about this!!
But, dammit, how had it changed so much suddenly? How could over a few hours, what Tai wanted change this much??
He should've been happy! He was meant to be happy!! He was meant to be so glad for his best friend, that he was showing progress and all that.
And also, if his best friend were able to find someone just for him- someone that suited him perfectly, someone that he could really and truly love, then that would be great!! Tai had always thought that, and he'd always hoped for Matt's sake.
If someone… as unsteady and casual as Matt… were to be in love with someone, then… that would be good. That would be good for him, and good for me, 'cause then I wouldn't have to worry over him anymore. But…
Tai didn't realize he was squeezing his sandwich so hard in his hand that he was leaving fingermarks on it.
That deep, uncomfortable, almost-guilty feeling in his stomach jerked. His eyes were pained and he stared at the ground so nobody would see.
Tai remembered the way Matt had smiled at Sora before. It was an unfamiliar scene to him, but even though he was dense and unknowledgeable of all things to do with the 'L' word; it wasn't that hard to work it out.
Matt… the way you smiled at Sora just then… Tai was troubled as the ill feeling in his stomach turned somersaults. Even though it was only for a few seconds… I think…
Maybe… you might…
Matt didn't know. Matt didn't know about this. No-one did.
Nobody out there knew what had happened to Tai just yesterday afternoon. And Tai had to face this himself, this first love of his, because nobody else could know.
And Matt was his best friend, his closest friend, the person who knew him best, the person Tai never kept anything from. The two of them… were meant to share everything, know everything about each other. Because… they were best friends, right?
But he couldn't do it now. Tai couldn't tell him. Tai couldn't let him know.
Tai couldn't tell him how much he loved Sora.
Matt's smile back then, in response to Sora's blindingly bright smile… It didn't have the confidence it normally had. Instead, it was almost shy, although the two were going out. For some reason, it was almost tentative, not charming and confident as usual. Almost as though it was afraid, venturing out for the first time, revealing itself, risking itself for what might be hurt later on.
And that smile… Tai saw it and he realized what could be happening.
Matt was as unsure and unknowledgeable about what love as Tai was. Matt knew everything there was to know about dating and flirting and impressing girls and charming them, but he was new to this actual "love".
Tai thought he'd have been happy for Matt on this day. But he'd thought wrong.
Hey… Matt?
I know I'm the most clueless one of all about this, but… I think… you're liking Sora a lot more than you ever intended to.
So I… I know I can't ask…
And maybe I won't be able to talk to you honestly again… but…
What will happen if… maybe just perhaps… you begin to kinda… fall in love with Sora?
Oh. OHHH…. You're probably all thinking right now. In all my taioras, I've never gone this deep. In other words, it means I'm digging myself a real hole. What happens if they both really, truly love her? Not that Matt's giving us any clues right now. But I've got plenty of ideas for later on, so stay with me, k? Thanks for reading!! Please review!! ^_^
