A/N: Ano, I got a lot of feedback on my first chapter (much more than I ever have gotten on my 'Alone' chapters…which is really depressing…) so I went along and hurried to finish the next chapter. I kind of like writing AU stories, since im really bad at writing fight scenes and with no ninja, no fights (physical at least) Wooo!!! Yes anyways, I really like this story and I hope that others enjoy it too. I think we will have two chapters left one with more plot and the last with just a bunch of lemon goodness…hehe…

Sasuke again is probably OOC, please just get over it.

Standard Disclaimer applies.


Maybe I was a fool for ever considering giving my heart to Sasuke. I know I should have realized a long time ago that I was never going to be worth more in his life then his Best Friend's little sister.

But despite how much I repeat to myself again and again those same words, some part of me deep down still holds that hope that maybe just maybe, one day he will feel the same way about me. That he will grow to adore me just like I adore him. That he will love me with all his heart.

No matter how much I try to tell myself differently that voice in my head won't shut the hell up. No, it never does. I hear it in the depth of my dreams, when my mind wanders during the day, or when I'm just doing nothing at home. It repeats the same words over and over, and I know that maybe it will never shut up.

And I do believe that I hope it never does.

"You and Sasuke were meant to be."


I was so nervous.

I knew everybody would look at me strangely for coming to the high school when I was obviously just in middle school. My school uniform defiantly pointed that out. Part of me was slightly dreading the words that were soon going to be coming out of my mouth, but my excitement overruled all other emotions.

I did notice some of the looks that were passed my direction from the older crowd and it made me shift on my heel side to side, while I clutched my hands to my chest, hoping that Sasuke-kun would hurry up and get to the front gates of the school.

I could have made the biggest confession of my entire life at my house, since Sasuke-kun was there almost every day, but that meant my Nii-san would undoubtedly be there as well and I was not at the point where I could openly confess to the boy I loved in front of my big brother.

I was almost a hundred percent sure that Nii-san knew of my feelings for his best friend, but he never questioned me about it. He just sent me some of his all too famous grins in my direction whenever I was caught gazing at Sasuke. I think secretly he likes the idea of his sister and friend getting together. The two people he cares most about in the world becoming a couple probably suited his ideal.

I blushed at the thought of me and Sasuke becoming a couple.

Sure I was three years younger than him, but I hoped that did nothing to stop us from getting together. My mind started to wander again, and pictures of Sasuke and me holding hands while walking down town filled my mind. Different scenes of he and I as a couple continued to flash by and I could feel my blush continue to grow a darker shade of red as the scene continued.

I could almost see me and him at the beach, sitting next to each other as we watched the sun set over the crashing shore. The light caused a pink-like glow to illuminate the sky and it reminded me of my hair just a tiny bit. I giggled while he leaned in towards me, brushed my bubble gum pink hair out of my face and whispered the three words that I would surely die if I heard them.

'I love you.'

Then our lips came together in the sweetest of kisses that conveyed all the emotions we felt for each other. Love. Adoration. Happiness. Glee.

"Sakura what are you doing here?"

My fantasy was interrupted by a voice and I felt my blush increase tenfold. I must have looked like a tomato by now.

I turned my head to face the person who had spoken to me and felt a rush of disappointment when I came face to face with a different one of my brother's friends. I knew when I heard the voice it wasn't Sasuke-kun, but I guess my nervousness was getting the better of me.

What was his name again?

Ah…..yeah! Kiba that was his name! Nii-san always talked about the guy having some kind of obsession with his dog. They were rarely separated from each other. And now that I looked I could see that there was a small dog sticking his head out of Kiba's book bag.

"Ano, hi Kiba!" I noticed that there were a few girls standing next to him. One had her blonde hair up in four ponytails and although it seemed a strange choice for me, it looked cute on her. Another one was a brunette with her hair in two twin buns at the top of her head that made her look like that one mouse cartoon character. She smiled at me. The third was the only one that I recognized and knew her to be Hyuga Hinata, a girl that was cousins with another one of my brother's friends, Neji-san. I always liked Hinata and I could tell from the first day that I met her she had a giant crush on my brother.

"Whose this little thing Kiba?" The girl with the blonde hair asked. For emphasis she pointed her finger at me, although it seemed pointless to me considering the fact I was the only one there that she probably didn't know.

"Oh, uh Temari this is Naruto's little sister, Sakura." Kiba replied back to the girl that I now knew the name to be Temari. I noted the name suited her and her attitude that I already knew was feisty.

"The runts'? Hm, well good cause for a second I thought that you had taken a likening to middle school kids. That would make you truly creepy then or maybe creepier is the better choice." She smiled as she started walking off leaving Kiba, Hinata, and the other I girl I didn't know behind.

"Hey! I don't take interest in little kids! I don't run that way Temari!" Kiba shouted after her, but she merely raised her hand as a signal that she had heard him speaking.

I felt my heart quicken up at what she was saying.

'Did that mean it was wrong for a high scholar to like someone my age? Did that mean that Sasuke-kun will feel the same way?

'No stop it. Come on, Sasuke-kun won't let that get in the way of our feelings. Don't let it bother you.'

"What does Shikamaru see in that wildcat anyway? Way to out of control for me." Ah, Shikamaru's girlfriend. Well at least now I could tell my best friend Ino that this was the girl that interrupted her brief crush on the boy. At least it hadn't taken her that long to recover, she moved on to my Nii-san's weird friend, Sai, pretty fast.

"Well you're waiting for Naruto right? He should be out in a few more minutes." I saw that Kiba was talking to me again. I decided it would be better to agree with what he was saying then correct him and tell him the real reason I was waiting here. So, I nodded my head.

"Alright, come on Hinata, TenTen, let's get to my house to work on that stupid English project." The brunette followed him right away, but Hinata lingered by me for a short amount of time. She gave me a very polite smile before she followed the other two.

I had a feeling that Hinata knew the real reason I was here.


I let out a long, exaggerated sigh.

My ceiling fan repeatedly spun around in its circular motion. I lay in my bed watching it's never ending motion as it blew the cool breeze through my room. I felt that this was my ever day life style. Watching my ceiling fan move.

Wow, it was real exciting.

I growled out in frustration before I turned back over in my bed, burying my head in my pillow.

This was pure torture! I couldn't do anything at all! It was like a never ending bore feast!!! Nothing to do at all! I was just forced to watch the stupid fan rotate above me, hoping that maybe Kami will pity me enough to drop it on top of my head.

That would surely be a lot funnier than having to sit here watching crack! Sure I should be used to it now, considering I was on my fifth month of punishment. But no! I was still the same, dead drop bored I was when this torture began. Totally unfair!

The only good thing about the five boring months that passed by at the slowest rate that has ever existed is the fact that Sasuke went back to college the week that this crap started. So I didn't have to deal with the sudden overpowering urge every time I saw him to throw him a good one right into his pretty face.

Oh, how I wished I still could give him one…

I was eighteen years old since two months ago and I was unable to do any of the things that normal kids could. In fact I was treated like a five year old. I couldn't drive except to and from school and if I wasn't at home I needed to make sure that my parents were well informed. Not to mention the fact I could stay out till six and then I had to be in my room by ten o'clock. I received an extra thirty minutes for 'good behavior.'

Yah! Oh, how nice and thoughtful!

Nobody was allowed over at the house except for Ino, since she and I have been friends since preschool. Anyone else is a no go. Not that there is anyone else. Being in locked down prevents you from developing any relationships. Two guys asked me out at school during this time and I had to turn them both down since it would be next to impossible to have a dating relationship with anyone while I was being watched like a hound.

Damn Sasuke!!

He ruined my entire senior life!!! I really wished he was nearby so that I could gut him like an animal. Really, I really would.

I very sinister smile formed on my lips at the thought that I wouldn't have to wait much longer, considering the fact he and Naruto were returning from college for spring break tomorrow.

I blamed the smile from the insanity that I developed while I was locked up in my house.

Not that I actually wished he would return. I wanted him never to come back from college. Every time I saw him it made me think of how he looked at him like I was a slut and that didn't bring on the best of memories. I really just wanted him to never come back so that I would never have to face him again.

That would be best for me.

Whenever I was near him I was reminded again and again of all the reasons why I was not able to move on past my feelings for him. And just when I finally decided to, what else is to happen but him to ruin all my chances to get past him, by telling my parents and making me be on lock down for half of senior year. Just like him, the bastard.

I rolled over on the bed again and decided that I should move my thoughts from a different topic. Preferably one that didn't make my heart ache.

I moved off the bed and walked over to my open closet. I had been cleaning it out for the last few days and it was now in total disarray. A let out a long sigh, before I started grabbing random things and placing them in piles on the floor. I started to feel bored so I turned on the stereo, turning the music up high since my parents weren't home yet (one of the rare times one of them wasn't around me), and continued to clean out the closet.

Everything went at a slow pace, but I was content with my work until a song that went on the radio made me flinch. When the lyrics started playing I narrowed my eyes at the thing that was obviously trying to piss me off.

After all that we've been through
Forever in my heart
Now I'm through
And truth is like November
Still can't believe it's true
Too long we've been apart

"Ignore it. Just ignore it," I mumbled out as I tried to tune out the lyrics to One More Night by CASCADA.

One more night
I wanna to be with you
Where I wanna to hold you tight
It feels so right, tonight
So leave it up to you
And I think the time is right to stop the fight

One more night
I wanna to be with you
Where I wanna to hold you tight
It feels so right, tonight
So leave it up to you
And I think the time is right to stop the fight

"Fuck," I cursed out as a made a mad dash for the speakers. I leaped across the bed landing delicately on the other side. I wasn't fast enough.

Why can't true love be forever?
Why did my dream explode?
The day you went away

The music abruptly ended when I nearly broke the off button from the stereo as I hit it with a lot of force from my forefinger. I stood there panting slightly from the sere amount of effort I had made to get the music to stop. I could feel my eyes watering ever so slightly, and I rubbed my eyes with the back of my hand, uttering out every single curse I could think off.

I forced the tears that threatened to fall back into me and moved back to my closet, trying to distract myself with something else. I reached deep into the back of one of my selves and stood there gaping like I had seen something terrifying. Which in a sense I had.

The stupid little red notebook that I held in my hand was one of the most terrifying things I had ever seen in my entire life. My diary from when I was younger.

The same diary that I had when I was convinced I would get my happily ever after with Sasuke. When I was sure he would one day love me.

Oh did Kami hate me.

Written right on the cover of the small red diary, all around the entire cover were the repeated words, 'Uchiha Sakura.' All of different sizes and colors those two words were repeated again and again. I let out a deep choking sound from the back of my throat. The tears that I had somehow managed to hold back before came crashing down on me.

For the first time since my brother held me in his arms five months ago, I broke down in tears. I let out the most gut-wrenching sobs I have had in a long time. Worse than when I was with Naruto. Only this time as I broke down in hysterics there was no one present to comfort me.


When I saw him walking toward me I felt my heart beat take off in that fast beating way that all in itself left my out of breath. My stomach did that little butterfly feeling, which left you giddy with life. I stood up straighter and puffed out my flat chest, which I was slightly embarrassed about considering all the other females in this school had full grown chests. I started to feel anxious, but that toned down once I saw that he was alone and walking toward me.

I let out a smile as I stood by the gates.

He walked up to me, his hands in his pockets while he wore a bored expression on his face.

He stopped in front of me and I again felt that slight self-conscious thoughts take over again once I saw the height difference between us. I barley reached his shoulders. I brushed it away and looked up to see his face. His drop dead gorgeous face.

"What are you doing here Sakura?" I hadn't realized I had been gaping at him, so when he spoke I snapped my jaw closed. I felt the slight pink color taint my cheeks and I tried to avoid his direct eye contact.

I didn't answer fast enough for him, so he asked me another question.

"Are you waiting for Naruto? If you are he won't be down with his detention for another half-hour."

I wasn't surprised at the news that my brother had gotten himself into detention. It seemed a common requiring thing in my book.

I opened my mouth to speak, but it was dry and I found myself at loss for words so instead as I rewet my lips with my tongue, I shook my head to say that I wasn't here for my brother. Sasuke waited for me to answer.

"I-I came to see you Sasuke-kun." I smiled as I spoke the words and my heart took off so fast I thought I might faint from the sere force it was creating. My palms became sweaty and I found the nervousness return in a much stronger force.

Sasuke-kun nodded for me to continue.

"Ano, Sasuke-kun I-I…" I broke off while I brought forth the courage to say the next words.

"I-I really like you and I—"

"SASUKE-KUN!!!"

When I was about a second away from confessing my love to him, a girl I had never seen before came out of nowhere and grabbed on to Sasuke's arm. Sasuke looked down at her, while I felt myself gain a slight blush at the fact we were now not alone.

The girl was wearing her uniform in a sluttish way the top buttons opened and showing off a lot more cleavage then needed to be seen. Her skirt was so short it was barley a sliver of fabric left seen from underneath her shirt. She glared at me from Sasuke's side and pushed her boobs into his arm.

"Sasuke-kun is this another one of those bothersome middle school girls that is confessing their love for you?" The red-headed girl glowered at me as she pressed herself even closer to Sasuke's side. I felt the blush come to me, despite trying to hide it.

Sasuke was about to say something when the girl interrupted him.

"Sasuke-kun's mine! I'm his girlfriend Karin, so don't go and put him in an uncomfortable position. K?"

I felt the shock overwhelm me. I had no idea that Sasuke had a girlfriend and for a moment I thought maybe she was lying and was another one of those obsessive girls that was always bothering him. I looked at Sasuke waiting for him to deny it, but he was looking at my with slight pity in his onyx eyes.

I took a step back.

"I'm sorry Sakura, I don't feel that way about you." Karin made a snorting sound and I felt my heart break in two. I couldn't even blush anymore and instead I felt sick. I thought I might get sick right there, but I forced myself to speak.

"Oh, uh yeah s-sorry." I stuttered out right before I turned around and ran away from the scene.

I tried my best to keep from crying, but they came out anyway as I ran toward home, clutching where my heart lay. I could almost feel it breaking inside me.


After a good half hour of never ending sobs, I forced myself to stand. The stupid diary, which I had clutched to my chest while I cried my eyes out, was still in the same place. I stumbled over to my desk. My head a little bit dizzy due to the amounts of tears that I had poured out.

When I reached my desk, I plopped down in the chair and reached to where I keep my markers. I grabbed a black sharpie and uncapped it quickly.

I rapidly started to color over the words that had brought me to these tears in jet black streaks. I started at the bottom and worked my way to the top as I tried my hardest to get rid of those two words that I was sure would haunt me for the rest of my life.

I worked fast and my marks came out uneven and messy, but they covered up the words.

I tried my hardest not to burst into tears again as I finished with the front and flipped the notebook onto the back. I gasped aloud.

The entire back cover was taken by the words 'Uchiha Sakura' written in a bright pink that stood out on the crimson red of the notebook. There was no way in hell I could cover the entire thing up with my sharpie. So instead I just stared at the words. I felt that heartbreak feeling take over me again and I brought my arms to wrap around my chest trying to keep myself from having a breakdown.

'WHY?! Why did I love him this much!'

Because you do…because you and Sasuke were meant to be together..that's why..

I shook my head side to side trying to deny my own thoughts.

'Stop it! We aren't! We never were! It was just my stupid fantasy!'

Maybe, but you still love him and I don't think you ever will stop.

"NO! I will!" I shouted the words out loud as I grabbed the sharpie and wrote down one word in a small amount of free space at the bottom of my old diary.

I looked at the Back cover again and I felt some kind of pride come over me. I would get over Sasuke Uchiha. I had to at least try.

'Uchiha Sakura, NEVER.'

I threw the notebook onto my desk and went back to my bed, content on watching the ceiling fan rotate until I feel asleep.

That's when I remembered that Sasuke would be spending the next week at my house starting tomorrow.

Oh fuck, Kami really hated her.


A/N: Ah, okay next chapter will be a secret reveler! We will finaly find out the whole deal with the half naked guy and Sakura! Yah!!

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