A/n: SO sorry about the late update! I have had no motivation to write this and then I had to go to the hospital for a couple days and I finally decided to work on this! Hope you guys like it(:
Disclaimer: I don't own Teen Titans! :(
Dear Wally,
How have you been? Me? I've been absolutely terrible. My luck is down the drain. Then again, I've always been bad luck. Despite whether I want to admit it or not you were my lucky charm. Anything good that has happened to me in life was all because of you.
You made me happy. So happy that it horrified me. I'm afraid of being happy. Now you know my secret. Being happy makes me go crazy. You saw what it made me do. I lost my mind. I couldn't think straight. I was being nice to others. That's not me! Being happy isn't me. I don't like how crazy I got. My mind just seemed to stop working correctly. I was happy with you. Really, I was. But in that happiness something dark and scary took over me. I'm not exactly sure what it was or what it wanted from me. I'm pretty sure it wanted you. In the worst way possible.
Maybe I'm just not meant to be happy. You tried to help me. I know you did. I tried helping myself, too. Nothing seemed to work until I broke things off. I'm back to normal now and I feel bad that I don't have you anymore. I feel so lonely. This might have something to do with who I am and who I was born from. Yes, my parents could be the reason for my strange inner demon. It's the only explanation I have.
As you already know the last time I saw my parents was when I was an infant. They raised me together until I was about five. I was on my own after that. Sometimes I try to remember what my mother was like. Was she nice? Was she pretty? I don't know. My memory of my parents is so fuzzy, it's almost a complete blackout. You could say they're terrible for abandoning me. Maybe they are. How should I know? I grew up all alone. I'm always alone. Even with the Hive Five I was alone. That is until you came along.
You mean absolutely everything to me. When I broke it off with you, I thought it was best for the both of us. What I didn't seem to realize was that it wasn't good for either of us. I love you. I love you. I love you and I love you. Why is that so hard for me to admit this out loud? Love sucks and my heart is broken. I miss you.
-Jinx
Dear Jinx,
Life is getting so hard without you. I don't like living by myself. I stay up every single night thinking of you. I hate being without you. You're killing me, Jinx! The day you left me I told you that I was in love with you. All you did was run away. I don't blame you for leaving me. I just thought and hopes that you loved me, too. When you were with me everything was absolutely perfect. I never saw you happy before. In the short time that I did, you acted out in a very strange way. You didn't think clearly. You scared me. Something inside you turned dark.
I don't like to think about how crazy you got. If I think about it, I worry. If I worry, I miss you even more. My heart aches. It's like there's a hollow spot where it should be. Where you should be. I feel nothing but pain and sadness without you. No matter what I do, I can't seem to forget you. I hope you'll give me another chance someday. If not then I guess I'll just move on. Eventually.
And if in time, I can't. Which I know I won't be able too. . . hopefully you'll take me back. At some point you just have to! Without you my life is a nightmare. It may be bad for you if we're together but for me life is a nightmare without you! You have to take my feelings into consideration before you make rash decisions like this, Jinx. I need you. I need you. I need you. I feel like I'm suffocating in your absence. I've been awake for days. Knowing that if I sleep, I'll dream of you. That will only make matters worse. Do you realize how I even feel? I feel miserable. I won't fully describe to you the pain you're putting me through because I don't wish for you to know.
Can you promise me something? If so, please promise me that if you don't find anyone else that you'll come back to me. I don't know how much longer I can go on without you. All I know is that you are the only reason I have for waking up in the morning. You are all I want, all that I need, and you are all that I'll ever need for the rest of my life. I'm in love with you, Jinx. I always have been and I always will be. Whenever you need me, I'll be here for you.
-Wally
