Fix Me
A/N: Welcome to Chapter 2. So this chapter is going to be based on Lauren phoning Sadie and what will come of it. Hope you all enjoy. Will contain lemon fluff and drugs, explicit language ECT...
Chapter 2: I Need You
LPOV
"Lauren" She sounded shocked and fucked from how she answered the phone.
"I need to talk to you." I didn't know how she was going to react to that 6 worded sentence. I held my breath waiting for her to reply.
"What do you want Lauren? What more could you possibly want to say to me? I think the words 'leave me and my wife alone' was enough don't you?" I winced as soon as she repeated those words back to me. I regretted them as soon as I had said them myself.
"Please, Sadie. I'm sorry. Just please let me talk to you. I need to see you. Please" My heart was on the line here. No matter what was said, I need to talk to her. I need to see her. I need her. I need Sadie more than anything and she needs to know. I heard a woman's voice in the background. "Are you, um, are you with someone Sadie?"
"Yeah I am. I'm just in a taxi. Meet me at mine in 15 minutes." With that she hung the phone up on me. I was already sat on her door step. I daren't ring the bell and ask one of her flat mates to let me in. This woman had me in pieces and I've lost her. I need her back. I need her back in my life.
10 minutes had passed and I was still sat in the same position as before. I was so nervous, I didn't know what was going to happen, if anything was going to happen. My mind was a complete mess. The light behind the door reflected on the glass. Shit, someone was here. I stayed sat on the door step trying to be as quiet as possible. Then my phone started to ring. 'Sadie' showed up on my screen along with a picture of her that I had taken whilst she was sleeping one day in the hotel room. I swiped and answered.
"Hello"
"Are you there? Are you at the flat?" Her cold, harsh tone rang in my ear. I can't blame her for being this way with me.
"Yes, I'm sat outside on the doorstep. I've been here since I phoned you." My voice cracked at the end, I felt vulnerable.
"Well Tess is up and waiting for you to knock. I've just got something to do. I'll be 10 minutes." Again, she hung up the phone before I could even reply. I stood up, ready to swallow my pride and knock on the door. When I turned around, Tess was already stood there with the door wide open and an angry look on her face.
"Erm, hi. I'm Lauren"
"I know who you are. Do you realise what time it is?" I stood there bewildered. I hadn't asked her to come and let me in. "Sorry, I'm just really tired. Hard night at work and I feel like shit. You best come in."
I nodded at her and stepped into the flat.
"Would you like a drink?" Even though she was annoyed, Tess still had manners.
"Please. Tea, milk no sugar" Tess made small talk with me whilst Sadie was off doing whatever she was doing. I couldn't get the thought of the other woman in the background out of my mind. What if she was fucking her then coming to me? As I took a sip of my tea, I heard the door slam. Sadie came into the lounge room, staggering all over. Her pupils were like piss holes in the snow. She'd been sniffing. I'd never seen her this wasted before. She looked at Tess nodding her head towards the door.
"Well I'll leave you two to it. Nice to finally meet you Lauren. Night Sadie" and with that, there was only the two of us left in the room. I stood up and went to walk over to Sadie.
"Don't Lauren." I stopped dead in my tracks. "Just say what you've got to say then leave. You've just broke my heart all but a few fucking hours ago." My head hung in shame. I never meant to hurt her. I love her.
"Sadie, please. I'm so sorry. I didn't mean a single word of what was said."
"Yeah well it was pretty fucking convincing. Where's your beloved wife anyway? Shouldn't you be in bed with her at this time?"
"She's not my wife no more." There was a silence for what seemed a life time. I lifted my head up to look at Sadie. She seemed as though she was in shock.
"W..What do you mean, she's not your wife anymore?"
"I broke up with her. I ended it." Sadie went into the cupboard and got out a bottle of vodka. Unscrewing the cap and downing it as she walked over to the sofa.
"You... You finished it with Jo. Why?" Her voice was more sincere now. She seemed to be back to how she was with me. I tried my luck and walked over to the sofa and sat down beside her. Her head was down and she was staring at the floor, her hands fidgeting. I softly cupped her chin with my hand and lifted her head up so that I look deep into her amazing eyes.
"I finished with Jo because of you Sadie. I don't love Jo. Ever since I met you when you came into my office, you've been the sole thought in my mind. You've had an affect on me what I've never felt before. I feel myself when I'm with you. You make me feel happy and safe. I love you Sadie. I need you in my life. It's like I can't breathe without you. I know I fucked up. I fucked up big. I should have never had said them things to you tonight because I was just lying to myself and hurting you in the process. I love you so much. I'm so sorry."
My voice was breaking as tears were flowing freely, streaming down my face, as well as Sadie's. My head dropped down. This was the most vulnerable I've ever been in my entire life. I didn't know whether she would tell me to fuck off. I wouldn't blame her if she did. I just wish that she would do something soon. The fact that both of us are just sat here is killing me.
"Hey" Sadie whispered as her thumb wiped away some of the tears on my face. Her head edging closer to mine. She cupped my head up so that she could see my face. Both our eyes locked, staring at each other, both wanting to do the same thing. But this wasn't my call to make. If Sadie wanted me back, it was her decision to make. I watched as she ran her tongue over her lips. Every movement that she made, I was mesmerised by her. I shut my eyes, praying for the outcome that I wanted. Rerunning through my head all of the times that we had spent together. Every single moment, every touch, every smile, every kiss, every laugh. That's when it happened. That was the moment when I felt that familiar feeling that I'd been longing to feel all night. Her lips were on mine. She kissed me so softly. When she pulled away, I peeled my eyes open and looked at her. Both our hands still cupping each other's faces. Our eyes darting at each others, knowing exactly what was about to happen.
We crashed into each other with such need and urgency. Our mouths thrashing against one another. "I love you so much Sadie" I managed to get out whilst panting from the urgency.
Sadie looked straight into my eyes, no mask, just pure honesty and love.
"I love you too Lauren." We both had the biggest smile on our faces as we carried on kissing each other, so passionately and effortless. Sadie took my hand in hers and we made our way to her room.
I stepped in and noticed the lines of coke on a cover of a DVD case. She followed my eyes and noticed where I was looking.
"Oh, um, you want me to get rid of that?" She was acting like she was a teenager who had just been caught. I smiled at my beautiful woman.
"I'm sure we can make some use of it" With that, she crashed into me, pulling me on the bed. Tonight was the beginning of my new life. The beginning of my life with the woman who I love.
A/N: Thanks for reading =) Please leave reviews and such, much appreciated. There will be a few more chapters too... there's no such thing as a happy ending. Haha should be interesting
