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Nagato Yuki

Before North High, I hadn't been alone. There were many more dolls, Kimidori, Ryoko, Kuyou...We had once all been together, before being scattered across the world, all within Haruhi's grasp. The Data Overmind believed itself to be instructing us, but I knew that it was all because of Suzumiya. Even the omniscient being was simply her plaything, just like us, to create aliens and send them to her.

In that small clubroom, I saw many things, for all I could do was to 'see', I couldn't move or speak. I was there to simply watch. I observed from that room, all while 'she' grew more and more frustrated with the world, trying (and unknowingly succeeding) in changing the universe to suit her needs.

I watched for three years, nobody ever leaving or entering this room, which had become my Data jurisdiction. It, like I, had become frozen in time, this was my world, my universe, where I belonged.

Until that time, I had no meaning. I was watching without comprehension, I was there to observe, understanding was not something I was able to do.

Eventually, I did find it, meaning, proof of being. Proof of my being.

She came, shattering my jurisdiction like glass, pulling that boy by his tie and spinning on her toes. "This is going to be our new club room!" She declared, arms raised high.

Before long, there were more. More things in that once empty room, more people in my once empty life. People were pulled together by Suzumiya into this 'club' of her creation.

I saw darkness, sense and inconsistency, and I became light.

Koizumi Itsuki, he was darkness, always hiding behind some shadow, pulling strings to keep Haruhi forever entertained.

Mikuru Asahina, she was inconsistency, always going back on what she said, her tales of the future and her exploits into the past, seemingly senseless but never truly being so.

Kyon, he was sense, he the very logic, holding back Haruhi from being destructive to her full potential.

And me...I was light, I felt...light. Emotions ran through me, for once in my short life, I felt dizzy and...happy.

I met them all, I befriended them all...I didn't have what they had, I didn't smile, I didn't sigh, I didn't cry.

I couldn't...but I would've...I would've liked to have had those capabilities.

If I could, I would have them.

I waited for weeks longer, and finally, to my elation, I had them. I smiled, I sighed...I even cried. But...as if like...like snow, they'd begun to disappear. As if Spring had come and melted everything away. Those emotions, they fell unto me from the sky, disappearing as they touched the earth.

The small surges that rode through me, the snow that I shared a name with, both were so small, would they disappear?

Those tiny wonders.