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Do I ever cross your mind? Anytime?

Do you ever wake up reaching out for me?

Do I ever cross your mind? Anytime?

I miss you.- Brian McKnight

BPOV

We drove up to the house and I could see the bustle of the whole network of my dad's friends and half of the community awaiting our arrival. Nothing had changed. The Cullens' home was still a gorgeous white two-story with a plantation style front and a completely open glass back. My dad's house was still a tiny two-story also white. We put my stuff upstairs in my old room and then I went to the only bathroom in the hall above the stairs. I checked myself in the mirror and reapplied my lip gloss, the only make-up I even bothered to wear. I was so nervous, I thought I was going to die! Okay pull it together Bells! You can do this! Go down stairs and over to the Cullen house. March right up to the boy who broke his promise and demand an explanation! So I walked down the stairs and marched resolutely out the back door, and then I nearly had a stroke right there. HOLY FUCK! HE WAS NOT JUST INCREDIBLE, HE WAS A GOD! I saw him. It had to be him. He was quite possibly the most beautiful specimen of a male that I had ever seen! He was easily over six feet tall, athletically built and still had the same wild bronze hair, his boyish cuteness had given root to the most finely chiseled features, and of course who could ever forget those emerald green eyes- a girl could just lose herself in the gaze of those deep pools.. I had imagined him in my dreams, but this was beyond my girlish fantasies- Edward Cullen was hot! As our eyes met, I felt a tingle go down my spine and my breath caught in my throat. A lump formed in my throat and I fought back the tears, tears of joy mixed with panic, with every ounce of strength I had. He stopped dead in his tracks as he looked up and saw me, his eyes wide and gave me one of those same crooked smiles that I always dreamed about. He ran over to me. "Bella! Oh my God! You're really...I …wow!" So...he likes what he sees, huh?...but he never wrote me, so why should it matter? Snap out of it Swan, stick to the script! I replied trying to keep my voice form cracking, "Hello, Edward! It's been a while. I-" I couldn't help it. Something inside me burst and tears started pouring as I was racked with sobs. Anger and heartache welled up within me and I yelled at him, "Fuck! Edward, you never even bothered to write me! Why? How could you just forget about me? You promised!" I was so mixed up inside. Part of me wanted to fold inside his arms and have him ever let go. The other part wanted to hit him hard. And then an even deeper part wanted him to bend down and press those amazing lips to mine and- Shit! I had to pull myself together! He looked at me with those gorgeous emerald orbs, a look of concern and dare I say pain? DID HE STILL CARE? He's the one who abandoned me, not the other way round! He reached out and gently touched my shoulder, bringing his other hand up and wiping the tears away. He struggled as his own tears began to fall, "Don't cry, Bells! Please don't! Let me explain…I thought you didn't want to hear from me again!" I was stunned and I retorted with surprised shock, "Sure, Edward! What in the hell would have ever given you that impression? You were the only guy that I ever wanted- no make that- needed to hear from n this hell-hole of a town! Do you have any clue how many hours of therapy-" he covered my mouth with his hand. He cut me short, "Bella. I never stopped writing you. YOU returned MY letters- all 312 of them!" Again I was rendered speechless, my fragile brain unable o process the enormity of his revelation. I may not have seen him in seven long years, but Edward Cullen never could lie to me. I saw he sincerity in his eyes- God those beautiful intense eyes! I blushed furiously as my years of pent up anger and frustration began to melt away replaced by a new sensation- hope Edward. Still. Loved. Me. This epiphany took all of three hundredths of a second to process. I was panicking! What do I do, now? I had just blown up at and consequently made a complete fool of myself in front of the one boy who actually ever mattered to me! Ugh! I am such a fucking dumbass! I stopped breathing as a pain like no other I had ever encountered wracked my body. I was so embarrassed and guilty for ever having doubted my white knight! What the hell! I simply turned to flee, but he reached out and spun me to face him, the look on his face so intense with emotion he was actually shaking with a violent force. "Isabella Marie Swan. There has never been a girl like you. You were always my world! I don't care what anyone else thinks. You and I belong together and if I ever caused you an ounce of pain, I apologize from the very depths of my soul! I would sooner die than ever hurt you! How can I make you believe me? You are my heart and my reason for breathing! I have been in love with you forever! I never stopped loving you even when you tore my heart out by sending me the last letter saying to never contact you again!" And then he pressed his lips to mine, taking of them as a dying man's thirst in the midst of a desert. I responded back with all of the loneliness and heartache of my obviously completely misconstrued betrayal. My hands reached up and locked into his hair as I pulled him closer, tasting his sweet tongue as I desperately sought to devour him. His hands locked about my waste as he nearly crushed me in the ferocity of his embrace. I wanted to wear him like a new coat! My hands crept up into his hair pulling him to me with a force like gravity. Suddenly, a deep and intense moan escaped from my chest and passed into his mouth. His eyes went wide with what I took to be shock, and his breath caught in his throat, our tongues were struggling for dominance as a fire began to burn in my soul. WHERE DID THAT COME FROM? Calm down, Bella. Focus. Shit I didn't even care anymore, this homecoming was so much better than my dreams ever could imagine! Edward Cullen and I were together again, my very best friend, my childhood crush, my white knight! He slowed the kiss and allowed a few small pecks as he gazed into my eyes with a soft almost tender gleam. As we both came up for air. I felt his embrace- God those muscles and that rock hard body! A girl could get used to this! "Edward-er- I, well- That was incredible!" I was flushed a dark red. "Wait a minute!" I spoke as I continued to lock eyes with him, refusing to look away or break eye contact in fear that it was just some twisted dream, and if I did look away he would be gone and I would be alone. "You mean you actually waited for me?" He responded in attempt to change the subject, "Come on, Bella," he began to lead me to the party, "Em, Jasper and Rose have been dying to see you again, too. Oh and I have a sister, now. Mom and Dad adopted a girl named Alice Brandon, and she and Jasper are dating. Rose and Emmet are dating, too!" I was again shocked, "Seriously? Wow! I'd have never thought those two would have gotten together!" Wait! Did I just let him-Are we a couple? Say it Swan! "Are we going to be a couple, Edward, or do you make it a habit of greeting all of your best friends like this?" He answered, "Bella, I don't want you to feel pressured, and I am-" I cut him off quickly, "Edward Anthony Cullen, you stop right there! I have waited for this moment for seven years. I want to be with you, I want us to find out what it means to be a couple and take this to the next phase. I always hoped, but never expected you to feel the same way, especially since somehow I was convinced that maybe you wouldn't even remember me, much less...this!" Now that we had that settled, we broke our embrace, but he circled his arm about my waste with his right arm, while I laid my head on his shoulder. "So are we dating now, or what?" Edward beamed with enthusiasm as he responded, "Are you saying you want me to be my girlfriend? Well, let's go tell our friends the good news, and I'll introduce you to Alice. You'll love her, she's the greatest...next to you, of course!" He kissed me on the top of my head as we approached the party. Okay, Swan! Here we go...


EPOV

I watched as Charlie's cruiser pulled up into the drive. She's here! God I'm so fucking nervous! Fighting my nervous stomach, I watched as Charlie opened the door to the car- "EDDIE!" my eyes were ripped away as Emmet called out,"She's back! Whatcha gonna do?" I responded, irritated that as I looked back to the cruiser and that I had consequently missed her entrance. Fucking Emmet! He was actually bouncing up and down with a goofy excited grin on his face- it reminded me of a four year-old on Christmas morning. However, I still was a bit agitated that he had distracted me, so I snapped at him, "She probably won't even speak to me, since she made it perfectly clear that she did not want to remain friends in that last letter. You, Rose, Jasper and Alice should wait here, because I need to talk to her in private, first." Emmett was unphased by my ill-tempered response, and simply clasped me on the shoulder, his face serious with concern- he was like that sometimes, a sensitive deep thinker, but impulsive on the outside. "Look, bro. No worries. I still remember how she used to look at you. Just go over and tell her what you've told the rest of us. I'll run interference to keep the evil pixie off your back. Besides, you need someone who can crack this shell you've put between the rest of the world and yourself. I swear it's been like a part of your very soul has been missing since she left. Maybe you can find yourself again. Now go, before I decide to go over there and tell her myself!" So I glanced over at the backdoor to the Swan's house, and there on the porch was the most radiantly beautiful girl I had ever laid eyes upon! Her eyes were the same wide chocolate brown that had been haunting me for so long. SHE WAS FUCKING DROP-DEAD GORGEOUS! Her body was smoking and her hair was the same mahogany brown with auburn highlights. It looked as if her hair had straightened somewhat over the years,and it still had a silken luster, and the ends were were slightly wavy once it passed the shoulder. Her cheeks were blushing an almost tomato red color, as she noticed that I was looking at her too.

I couldn't help myself; my legs were moving of their own accord. "Bella! Oh my God! You're really...I …wow!" My heart was singing in a thousand tongues, I had dreamed of this day for so long! She was here! Okay, Focus Edward. Bella looked like she was calm and collected. She smiled a polite smile and began, "Hello, Edward! It's been a while. I-" and then she began to cry. Tears poured down her beautiful angelic face. No! Angels aren't supposed to cry! Fix this now! Before I could speak she continued, a look of anger and heartache on her face, "Fuck! Edward, you never even bothered to write me! Why? How could you just forget about me? You promised!" WHAT? I never bothered-you've got to be fucking kidding me? She's the one who-I reached out and gently touched her shoulder, bringing my other hand up and wiping the tears away. I struggled as my own tears began to fall, "Don't cry, Bells! Please don't! Let me explain…I thought you didn't want to hear from me again!"She interrupted my explanation by sarcastically returning, "Sure, Edward! What in the hell would have ever given you that impression? You were the only guy that I ever wanted- no make that- needed to hear from n this hell-hole of a town! Do you have any clue how many hours of therapy-" My entire body wanted to explode with the outrage and irony of the moment. Therapy? What the fuck! She had retuned all of my letters, and she wanted me to feel sorry for her? She was acting like – What if she never-No! They wouldn't have- I covered her mouth to finish her from completing what she had been about to say and responded incredulously, "Bella. I never stopped writing you. YOU returned MY letters- all 312 of them!" She looked completely shocked. Then a light went off in her eyes as the enormity of my last statement donned upon her. She looked like a panicked horse about to shy away and bolt, she turned to do just such, and I reached out and spun her back to face me, "Isabella Marie Swan. There has never been a girl like you. You were always my world! I don't care what anyone else thinks. You and I belong together and if I ever caused you an ounce of pain, I apologize from the very depths of my soul! I would sooner die than ever hurt you! How can I make you believe me? You are my heart and my reason for breathing! I have been in love with you forever! I never stopped loving you even when you tore my heart out by sending me the last letter saying to never contact you again!" I had never pleaded with so much passion in my entire life. I need her! I can't let her go! I just got her back- but why? She probably remembers me as a friend-I want much more than that! Dammit! She is and always has been the only one for me-FUCK! Just do it! And then I pressed my lips to hers, taking of them as a dying man's thirst in the midst of a desert. She responded back with a passion all of her own. . Her hands reached up and locked into my hair as she pulled me closer to her. I could feel the heat emanating from her body and her heartbeat soaring to new heights. My tongue licked her bottom lip, tasting its sweet honey and begging for entrance into her mouth. She opened and my tongue began exploring. It was fucking awesome! I was kissing Bella Swan! I had dreamed of this for so long! God! She was amazing! She moaned into my mouth, and my pants began to tighten. My eyes went wide and my breath caught in my throat, as our tongues were struggling for dominance, and a fire began to burn in my soul. I wanted more, but I slowed the kiss and gave her a few more pecks for good measure, before we both came up for air. "Edward-er- I, well- That was incredible!" Fuck yeah! I am the fucking king! First time and I already rocked her world! She was a deep crimson, which made her delicate features seem even more breath-taking. She looked like she was in a trance for a moment and then she looked startled. "Wait a minute! "You mean you actually waited for me?" She shouted. Oh fuck! What did I just do? Think! Maybe I'll- "Come on, Bella," he began to lead me to the party; "Em, Jasper and Rose have been dying to see you again, too. Oh and I have a sister, now. Mom and Dad adopted a girl named Alice Brandon, and she and Jasper are dating. Rose and Emmet are dating, too!" Smooth. Redirection. But she wasn't falling for it. "Are we going to be a couple, Edward, or do you make it a habit of greeting all of your best friends like this?" I answered, "Bella, I don't want you to feel pressured, and I am-" She cut me off quickly, "Edward Anthony Cullen, you stop right there! I have waited for this moment for seven years. I want to be with you, I want us to find out what it means to be a couple and take this to the next phase. I always hoped, but never expected you to feel the same way, especially since somehow I was convinced that maybe you wouldn't even remember me, much less...this!" She. Wants. To. Be. With. Me. Although we broke our embrace, I circled my arm about her waste with my right arm, while she laid her head on my shoulder. "So are we dating now, or what?" I beamed with enthusiasm as I responded, "Are you saying you want me to be my girlfriend? Well, let's go tell our friends the good news, and I'll introduce you to Alice. You'll love her, she's the greatest...next to you, of course!"