A/N: As I said in the first chapter these first 10 chapters of Dimensional Shuffle are all based off this challenge that I attempted and really failed at:
1) Choose a character, fandom, pairing, friendship, what have you
2) Put on your music program on shuffle/random and start playing songs
3) For each song, write something inspired by the song related to the theme you chose earlier. You only have the song length. No pre-planning and no writing after the song is over. No skipping songs either.
4) Do 10 songs and post. Make sure to include the song name/artist.
So for this one we have my favorite song by Five Finger Death Punch but when it really came down to it, I wasn't sure for who it to be about. Then I decided on Meredith. Although she herself doesn't commit suicide she is surrounded by a whole lot of death, her father's unfortunate death in a car accident and her older sister's Sirriah's suicide. And she's trying to keep from falling into depression but its hard trying to take care of herself and her little sister. Unfortunately this is one of the more shorter ones (when I was still trying to get it done within the first play of the song XP) so its not the best.
Coming Down – Five Finger Death Punch
Featuring: Meredith Raynet from Bakugan: Dual Dimensions
Was there ever any question
Of how much I could take
Meredith coughed as she leaned down into the sink washing out her mouth. She lifted her head to look at her reflection in the mirror. Her face was haggard, black hair going in every which direction, her eyes red rimmed from all her crying.
She reached down and scooped up some water and splashed it on her face. She had to get it together. She still had Jess, or Jet. Life wasn't over, just because Sirriah and Dad's were. Meredith felt her heart seize at the thought and a sob escaped her.
Why did her father have to die? Why had Sirriah chosen to die?! Why had they left her here all alone, with her sister! Meredith drew back until her back hit the wall behind her. Then she slid down it and wrapped her arms around herself trying to muffle her cries.
She didn't want Jessica to know she was suffering, not only would it make Jessica worry and start needling her to find out what was wrong, Jessica couldn't ever find out why she was upset.
She remembered the Doctor's words when she and her Uncle Rob had gone to collect Jessica from her latest appointment: 'I apologize Mister Raynet and Miss Meredith, but it would seem that Jessica, in an effort to protect her mental state has… forgotten your older sister Sirriah.'
Meredith's heart had broken right then and there. She was told that in order to prevent Jessica from having another episode, she had to hide away Sirriah's existence.
It was the only way to keep Jessica, for if Jessica remembered the horror she'd found when she followed Sirriah that night-
A wave of sickness and nausea passed through Meredith and she fought to keep herself from crawling over to the toilet and dumping whatever remained in her stomach. How could their big sister have left them and not tried to reach out to them.
'Or did she and me and Jess just didn't see it?' Meredith sniffled and wiped at her eyes. She was such a wreck, she almost felt… homesick in a sense.
For this large empty house that had once contained her loving parents, her stylish fashionista of a big sister, made Meredith feel so hollow with them gone, and with Jessica subdued after the recent events, and Uncle Rob staying with them as they all tried to work everything out, it was just one big nightmare.
One never ending nightmare, that Meredith had to wake to every single day. Suddenly a horrible thought filled Meredith's mind.
'Why not just escape?' A thought drifted by and Meredith froze up. 'Sirriah couldn't handle it and she got out, why not join her, no more suffering, no more pain, you can be with her and Mother and Father.'
Meredith swallowed and shook her head. "No, no no! I can't think like that! I have to be strong!" She said clenching her fists digging her nails into the palms of her hands. "Jessica is here!"
'Jessica isn't here anymore, she's Jet. And what's keeping her from forgetting everyone else if she forgot Sirriah? If you died she'd probably forget you too and then she'd be fine, living happily with Uncle Rob, or one of her numerous happy little friends in school.'
"I DON'T WANT TO DIE!" Meredith spat back at the voice shutting her eyes tight and clenching her teeth as tears streamed down her face. "I-I don't care, I don't want to die, I'm scared…"
'Pathetic wimp…'
The terrible dark thoughts continued to bombard the little 14 year old girl who curled more and more into herself as she sat on the bathroom floor.
"Meredith?" Jet's small voice came from behind the bathroom door followed by a few soft knocks. "Sissy? Are you okay?" There was a note of worry in her voice.
Meredith hastily wiped her face and grabbed a towel. "Er, be out in a minute!" Meredith said as she tried to scrub away the tear tracks and alleviate some of the puffiness in her face.
"Okay, but I just wanted to tell you, since ya know you've been having nightmares lately… I'm guessing since its almost well Daddy's birthday… I left Star on your bed, you could cuddle with her if it'll make you feel better." Jet said in a quiet voice.
Meredith almost started crying all over again. Sniffling tears pricking her eyes she opened the door and threw her arms around Jet and pulled the startled twelve year old into a tight embrace.
"Jess." She mumbled holding her little sister close tears starting to run down her face.
Jet blinked but then she hugged Meredith back, "It's okay Merry," She told her older sister calmly, "I'm here for you."
Meredith almost wanted to laugh, her little sister was supporting her with the loss of the older sister Jessica had now forgotten, and she didn't even realize it! How could she even think about leaving her sweet little sister behind? She loved Jess dearly 'and even if it means I can't see Mom, Dad and Siri for a while, I'm staying.' She told herself firmly. ' Because here there is something more precious, more fragile than anything beyond can offer. Life, is hard and filled with loss and gain, but I will not leave Jess to face it alone. I am her big sister, and its up to me to be there for her too.'
A/N: Oh man did I extend this one, I went in and edited it quite a bit so yeah its not quite the same as it originally was :( but I thought this read a little better. So forgive me I have failed the challenge once again XP
Anyways I initially just had Meredith breaking down at the end but then I thought of how the music video of 'Coming Down' ended with someone coming in to support the one who was suicidal. I felt like we see Meredith always coming to Jessica's aide, so I figured it was time for Jessica to try to aid her sister. Thus we have Jessica coming in and breaking Mere free of her depression for the moment.
Much like the first drabble featuring Superior, this story takes 2 years before Dual Dimensions thus Meredith is 14 and Jessica/Jet is 12.
I hope you enjoyed this little drabble :D
