THE LOVE I HAD SEQUEL.

CHAPTER 2

This isn't what he hopes


The dark haired man walked quickly into his office without so much glancing or glaring to his right and left, trying to avoid the gaping face of his fellows. The noises in the office suddenly turned deadly silent as he walked in. And it suddenly turned awkward for him. But, if he were to say he hated every single herbivore in this office, he was actually despising them more for making him the center of their gossips and discussion. He hated that every herbivore giving him such 'are you alright looks', 'he is crazy looks' on their strained face.

The news that he had divorced Natsumi Sawada dispersed through the months he had been absent too much faster than he expected even though he kept it hidden.

There were also rumors that Natsumi Sawada was dead. Only that, it was the truth.

They kept whispering a lot whenever they seen him in the department, hallways or sidewalk which annoys him a lot- to the point of hitting them.

The rumors that he gets divorced because of some other women really makes him boiled. She is not some other women you damn herbivores. What the hell was wrong with all of their tiny brain? How can they say that he choose the wrong person, wrong path, wrong decision? Do they think rumors couldn't get into his head because he was such a smug bastard who can ignore every single rumor?

Nope. That was so wrong of them.

He suddenly launches a fist on top of the head of one of his male subordinate causing that male herbivore to jump in shock as he felt a gushed of the wind near his head and heard a crack after the fist land to the wall. He swears he saw the murderous look in Kyouya's steel blue eyes. There was a promising death waiting for him if he said wrong words or make a reckless move. 'Crack' was heard before he even defend himself. Kyouya's movement was just too fast to catch.

He gulped. "I'm sorry, boss."

"Really… you herbivores should treasure your life more. I hope this is the last time, Sakuya." His voice was shaking with hidden anger, and the poor herbivore was lucky to be at his mercy. Kyouya pulled out his fist from the cracking wall and dismissed, and Sakuya laid down to the cold floor as his knees give off.

Kyouya walked down the stairs in aloof to the basement where he parked his Benz. He goes in, leaning his back trying to seek comfort from his warm seat and release his tiredness, hand playing rhythm on his handle. Without starting the engine, he dozed off with his other hand went to the bridge of his nose, trying to think. Thinking hard on how he should make his lover known to the outside so that they won't make a shit of her anymore.

He suddenly remembers their conversation few days ago when Tsunayoshi suddenly asked the prime question, "Am I affecting you, Kyouya-san?" with that sad look on her strained face.

"Why didn't you want to make it clear to all that we're married?"

The question left him clueless. How should he answer that kind of question? In what way? Isn't the fact they were married is enough? Why is she being so demanding lately? That day, he ignored her and immediately ushered her to the table for dinner with a usual 'hn'. Their dinner went on with deafening silent, but Kyouya Hibari was fine with it since he loves silent, but he doesn't know well about the herbivore.

"What's with that gloomy question?" he answered with a question instead but later, he kept grunting in his head for the stupid words he says. He should have known the results of his chosen words.

"So- it's not important to you...but it does for me...I want people to know that I am married to you..." she said almost whispering, with her head face down to her untouched dinner, but his sharp hearing captured those phrase.

She looked so in pain and desperate.

Whenever he saw that face she was making, he felt sudden annoyance building up somewhere in his heart. Every time he faced with the herbivore at home, he will experience new feelings and he hated it. The aloof Kyouya Hibari he was before is starting to lose his identity.

"Kyouya-san, are you regretting your choice?" she asked again.

"I'm not, herbivore. I had told you that before."

"You haven't. That's why I asked." Tsuna replied dead-pant.

"You just didn't remember what I said," Kyouya said as he munch the chicken in his mouth sourly. This conversation is making his appetite less and lesser.

"Is it because I am far from perfection," she paused. " - because I am blind isn't it? -" she swallowed her own words, "Is that-is that why you don't want the wedding reception?"

"What are you talking about, Tsunayoshi?" he paused, the silent was frightful for Tsuna and she looked down. She doesn't like where their conversation is going.

"You know I hated crowd so much." He snapped, putting the spoon and fork aside with a slam. "Why does it matter so much to you when I'm not?" His voice starting to engulfed with anger. He was sick having to answer such defiant question which he hates so much. "Isn't enough that we're legally husband and wife?" His words stung, but Tsuna laid low.

She startle at the sounds of the slammed table and nodded guiltily, her eyes saddened and clouded by her long bangs. "But, I do…Kyouya-san.I do." The pain smiling face she gave him right then is one of the things he hates to see the most. She seemed like she will burst into tears in any time.

"I want people to know what we are. We're husband and wife. But in their view, I'm just a pest in front you." Tsuna's voice was vibrating. "I am just your mistress! I'm not deaf, and I'm not strong to think like you, I feel like I'm not worth for you. They were talking behind you...they were talking bad about us..." Tsuna wanted to stop, but everything is pouring out, and she was trying hard not to cry in front of him.

"I want them to know that I love only you. And to know that I'm not Natsu. And to show them, we're not what they were saying. Is it so wrong to be wanting all of that?" the tears she was trying to keep from falling, was too much now, that it slide down her cheek as she closed her eyes and she didn't bother to wipe it off like she was begging him to do it for her.

He doesn't even want to look at her crying face but stared at her blankly, he felt something gripping his heart but his pride was much more precious to him and he stayed cold.

"- and I love only you too. Wasn't that enough? And we do not need a wedding reception. You just stay here by my side is enough for me." he said sharply as he took a glass of water.

His wife suddenly chuckles with the tears that glistening on her face. "I get it Kyouya-san, I get the message. No need to be so harsh with me. I won't pressure you anymore."

Now he was wondering what makes his wife chuckle like that and what he hear after that makes him regret what he had said.

"You are going to hide me in this mansion forever, Kyouya-san?"

His hand forming a fist. She was testing his patience.

"Tsunayoshi. I didn't mean like that."

"I'm neither deaf nor can I pretend not to hear it," she paused to breathe in slightly, "They said you're wasted on me. " She continued to speak with a fake smile, "you're handsome and deserves more they said. That I am not suited for you. I am just a useless person who can't do anything by herself. I am- a burden..." her well up tears, trickling down her cheek even more.

"They said, I am using you when you used to live freely when you're not with me. You're the lot more suited for Natsu. And you are not you."

"Tsunayoshi, I-"

"That's only a small fragment - there was more -"

"Enough…herbivore…" he said in his low voice and losing his appetite. "I'm sick of you - whining like this." He said in a low grunt, "- and it's just a marriage reception. It doesn't mean anything." He got up from his seat, showing his back to the stunned brunette. He couldn't watch her crooked crying face anymore.

"Is this how you wants us to be, Kyouya-san?" She asked again solemnly, in a calming soft voice that he loves so much. "You're running away."

"You're thinking too much. Get rest as well." And he went to his room, shutting the light.

Tsuna still seated silently on her chair with tears trickling down her cheek. You're so cold Kyouya-san... And it's not just a marriage reception...

"You don't know everything in the world, Kyouya-san..."

Kyouya heard that last words and chose to ignore it. "Go to your own room if you want to sulk."

That was the end of their cold conversation. When he think about it, was he being too harsh to the herbivore? But- seriously, she was being too demanding, and sometimes, it made him crazy just thinking about it.

Kyouya Hibari felt guilty for saying those unmeant words to his herbivore. And believe it or not, they have not been talking to each other about a week now. It's not that he doesn't want to talk to her, but, his works is piling in his office since he was absent for few months and he can't find the right time to spend with her at home.

'Can't you believe in me more, Tsunayoshi?' his heart whispers. He hunched his shoulders and shivered as the coldness of dropping water running down the back of his vest as he ran out from his car. The idiot must be curling up on the couch or in her room because of the cold weather or so that was what he thought. He was afraid if he ever met with her solemn face again today. How is he going to cheer her up today? What could it be for his herbivore to cheer up again? He doesn't really know the way...

Truth to be told, his heart quench for her love. He really missed her smile. He missed her voice. He missed seeing her gentle brown eyes. But he was more petrified if he were to see such heartrending and distant face of her…

"Tsunayoshi..I'm home." He was not so surprised when there was no answer. No - actually he anticipated this. Tsunayoshi could be moping in her bedroom after their stupid argument.

He opened the door which was unlocked and it took all his'dignity' to stop himself from screaming 'SHIT!' when he saw some of her bags were gone.

She was nowhere to be found.

"This isn't what I want...Tsunayoshi." His voice vibrating with worry. 'This is not what I wished! Why couldn't you understand?' He asked the shadow of Tsuna exasperatingly.

And he realized now, how his heart was clenching tightly in the rib cage as she left him that day.

The argument has gone so out of control when it's just about a wedding ceremony.


TBC

A/N: correct me in a kind way if I am wrong, neh..