Chapter two: Rumors

Chapter two: Rumors

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After School:

"I'm sorry about last night." I hugged Akira, "I really don't remember too much after that boy."

"I was really worried, Firiel, maybe you should take a day off tomorrow. Sleep in- you know what I mean."

Akira cared for me. Love…

Later I caught up with Christopher. He was playing D&D with Toby at our house.

"Hey, Sexehh! Have fun last night?" Toby joked, "Hot hot hot!"

"Toby, stop it!" Christopher laughed.

I walked half way up the stairs, I felt as if something was wrong- very wrong. But I just couldn't figure out what it was. I opened my bedroom door a note was taped to my bed post.

Firiel,

I apologize for messing you up. Please for give me for I have sinned.

Chris.

I laughed and crumpled the note up. What is it that he has to be OH SO sorry for. I lay down on my bed. I drifted off… into a deep sleep.

"It's a girl." The doctor handed me the small child, "Congratulations."

Tears of joy streamed down my face, "Aww so cute!"

"Who is the father?" I heard my mother's voice beside me.

I looked up at her. Christopher was standing next to her, smiling, evilly.

"You." I pointed at my twin.

"OH MY GOD!" I gasped, "Eww."

"What's wrong Firiel?" My mother was standing at the end of my bed, "Bad dream?"

I shook my head.

April 19th

Exactly four months since the incident at Francine's house.

I smiled and hugged my mother good morning.

Today was going to be a good day. A new term started at school and Akira and I were having a huge slumber party. I ran down the stairs for breakfast and kissed my brother good morning. Usually he stopped and stared at me for five minutes. This time, it was different he pecked my cheek and went along with my roll play.

"Have a good sleep?" Akira wrapped her arms around me, "Can't wait til' tonight! I am SO excited!"

"Me too!" I squeed, "Toby's staying the night too, I hope you don't mind."

"Nope, not at all."

That night Akira, Christopher, Toby and I sat around my dining around table playing, Astro Style. A girl's board game. The boys seemed to like it! Akira and I were winning at the time. The point of the game was to find out as much information, secrets or anything like that out of our opponents.

Toby picked up a card, "Firiel."

I flipped my hair back and sat up straight in my chair.

"Who would you rather do? Akira's dad or your brother?"

Akira began laughing, "My god, that's sort of extreme!"

"Christopher." I answered.

PHTHHTTT! Toby spat out his drink, "Wha?"

"I knew it." Christopher winked at me.

Akira and I looked at each other.

"I'm tired g'night you two!" I dropped my cards on the table.

Akira followed me up to my bedroom. I started making Akira's bed on the floor. My stomach began turning.

"Do you think I am fat?" I blurted out. Firiel… you're fifteen… duh… you have good genes!

"Firiel… you are so not fat." Akira examined her butt in the mirror, "to be honest, you've packed it on a little bit. But that could be bloating."

My face went beat red and my eyes began to water. I love Akira for being so honest. But… ouch!

"I think you're right." I started to take my shirt off, "I feel so… ugly though."

Akira turned around to get her pj's on, "I don't know."

That night, I stayed up holding my stomach, breathing in and out. Praying I wasn't going to puke, I turned my Ipod on and started a new game of Solitaire.

"Firiel, go to sleep, it is 5:30 am." Akira rubbed her eyes.

Before I could say anything else, I was in the bathroom, my mother standing behind me, rubbing my back, vomiting.

Akira would have been there. She hated the smell. I can't blame her.

Saturday Morning.

"Firiel? Are you okay?" Akira felt my forehead.

I looked into her eyes and tilted my head.

"You're mom went to work so you're going to come to my house to sleep okay?" Akira packed some of my clothing and helped me out of bed.

After my big mistake at Francine's house with that hot mystery boy I didn't drink anymore. May be not until I was about twenty. Hahaa

Akira left me alone in her bedroom. It was very bright. Pink and Green walls with a black border. I liked it. But not when I was on the verge to barf again. I sat up and looked around the room.

She moved the mirror. Damn you Akira! I walked up to the mirror. I was only wearing a white "t" shirt and my underwear.

I'm fat. The words ran in circles in my head.

"I'm fat."

"I am fat." I repeated.

I sat down on the floor and cried. I didn't know why. I'm so fat. I crawled up in a ball and held my stomach.

"Firiel where are you?"

I heard Akira's voice search for me.

"Are you okay?" Her hand touched my shoulder.

She's so cold.

"I'm fat." I said with a soggy smiled, "Akira, I'm fat."

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She slapped me. Harshly too. My cheek was red-hot!"

I looked in the mirror and cried some more.

"You are not fat. It's probably stress." Akira didn't disagree with me. She agreed with me.

I decided to stay at Akira's house for a few hours. It was all coming back. I hated to think like this though. That night that boy fed me tequila and what ever else. He… took advantage of me?

"I'll be right back!" I threw a sweater over my head and ran out the door.

"Where're you going, Firiel?" Akira threw her hands up in the air.

"Francine's!" I ran across the road.

I'm in my underwear… damn!

I stood in front of a pink bricked house. The place was huge. The fence around the front yard looked to be nine feet high.

How sad… I thought.

I knocked at the door. I heard heavy foot steps come down a hallway or maybe down a flight a stairs. The door opened.

"Hi." Francine stood at the door way.

"Surprised?" I smiled sarcastically, "There is something you're not telling me, Francine."

Francine stared at me and raised one eye-brow.

"Ohh Mr. Tequila!" She clapped her hands, "Yes, you looked like you had so much fun too!"

I grabbed the son-of-a-bitch's shirt and held her against the front door, "Who was he?"

"Charles," Francine gasped for air, "Please let me down! NOW!"

She dropped to her knees crying, "I'm so sorry, Firiel. I didn't think he'd do it."

Did she call me by my name? My god, she did!

"Okay. Fine. Bye then." I walked away from the ginger bread house and thought about that name.

Charles.

I was sitting on my porch at my house reading. The book was about a girl who got impregnated by her father. It was rather sad. The story made me cry every once in a while. Christopher would come out and laugh at me then hug me. He seemed to keep his distance from me… for some odd reason. When he hugged me… he always rubbed my back. It was very rare.

"Mom, do you ever think you're fat?" I asked, looking up from my book.

"I came out here to have a coffee," she sipped out of her coffee mug, "Honey, you're fifteen."

I couldn't believe I asked my own mother that. My best friends is one thing and Christopher is another.

"Well I've been skipping my P.E classes," I closed the book, "I seem to want to throw-up every time I jog."

My mother stood up and set her mug on a side table next to where she was sitting. She shook her head and sat down beside me.

"Firiel Princess, I you may be going to through some lack of attention. I'm sorry for not being here."

"I don't understand!" I hugged my mom, "I can hear my heart beat in my stomach."

The woman pulled away from my hug, "You need a night to yourself, Firiel. Go on the computer and waist some time."

For some reason I made myself sound like I was insane. How sad. She was right- it's just stress and bloating. I went inside the house and opened my laptop and signed on MSN.

I yawned and stretched in my chair.

Akira says: hey you!

Akira says: you there?

Akira have just sent a nudge!

I need a night with out socializing. CAN NOT RESIST!

Akira says: are you there??

Firiel (L) Tequila says: hi sorry 'bout that!

Akira says: haha nice name

Firiel (L) Tequila says: WTF

Firiel (L) Tequila says: BRB

Who changed my name?

Firiel says: back

Akira says: well then that was odd. What are you doing tonight?

Firiel says: nothing. Mom says I should have a night to myself.

Akira says: yes you should. So are you feeling okay now?

Akira says: the whole fat thing was scaring me.

Firiel says: I don't know. But I asked my mother if she thought I was fat. I ruined her coffee break.

Akira says: ouch why'd you do that?

Firiel says: I was curious to know what she'd say

Akira says: she's your mother… she'd totally lie to you

That is where I signed off MSN and cried. I fell asleep in the computer chair.

I seemed to be falling apart. I couldn't figure out what was wrong with me. I felt as if…

"Miss Princess!"

I hate that voice.

"What the fuck do you want?" I crossed my arms, "Go away."

"Sorry."

"Akira, is that you?" I yawned, "I'm sorry."

"Get up. We're going shopping!" Akira tugged on my arm.

This was exciting. Shopping… for a whole day!