Bella
Marriage. Marriage!
No! This can't be happening. I'm not ready for this. This isn't right, I'm supposed to be in love and content .
The smile long gone from my face. The tea was fixed and already served. Charlie and Renee were discussing the date of the wedding.
I blanched and ran to my room. I started to pace back and forth, biting my nails nervously.
Wait, who am I getting married to? I remembered the Blacks in the living room. Jacob? The boy I haven't seen in forever.
No, this cannot be happening, I'm dreaming. I laughed unheartedly. Yes, I'm sure this is a dream. Now, I'll just wake up screaming any moment now …. Any moment now.
Fuck! I ran a hand through my hair and furiously ripped my hair from the ponytail. Pain shocked my scalp, but I ignored it. I fell crying.
Would my parents really do this to me? Do they hate me that much? I'm only seventeen. I have a whole life ahead of me. Why are they tying me down now? I felt powerless and tired.
I faintly heard the door open and a frantic voice yelling, "Bella! Bella! Wake up!" before I slipped into darkness.
[ ROD ]
I opened my eyes to feel a soft texture around me. I looked around to see myself on my bed. Someone must've carried me here. I shot up and rubbed my eyes. My head pained a bit. What's going on?
"Oh, you're finally awake! Do you realized how long you've been asleep?," The familiar voice said. It was a man. And he was big, his arms and legs were bulged which frightened me a little. Though his deep brown eyes and dimpled smile relaxed me.
He is awfully familiar. Where have I seen him before?
"Bella? Hellooo?" He said curiously. I blushed realizing I must've been looking at him weirdly.
"Uhmm, you are…?," I croaked out, my voice still deep from the nap.
"Jacob! Remember me? We used to make mud pies when we were five," He answered.
Jacob! I jumped out of my bed and hugged him.
"Oh Jake! I missed you so much," I said affectionately, embracing his warmth. "God, you've changed so much,"
"Well, did you expect me to still be in my 11 year old body?," He joked.
"I take it back. You haven't changed at all," I replied, as he laughed.
He sat down on the bed calmly. There was a small silence between us.
"I guess you heard, huh?" Jacob asked. I nodded my head.
"Yeah." There was nothing I could say. It was dealt with and over.
"Do you want to?," I questioned nervously. Did he like me?
"Honestly, no." I couldn't help it, my heart dropped to my stomach. Was I too ugly? Was I too fat? Charlie said I looked decent, never beautiful or pretty … just decent.
He saw my expression, and immediately said, " I mean, I like you but as a sister. You've grown up into a beautiful women and I don't want to marry my best friend."
I understood, what he said. I kind of felt relieved mainly because he didn't have those feelings for me.
"What about you?" He asked.
"Me? Oh, of course not. I want to be in love when I get married. I want to wait until I finish my education before I plan for marriage. I just want to be happy, y'know?," I looked at Jacob, he was staring at me, listening to what I had to say. It felt good, knowing that at least one person appreciates my thoughts.
"Bella, uhm..there's something I need to tell you..," Jacob scratched the back of his head.
Suddenly the door snapped open, my mother entered with a bored expression.
"Jacob," She drawled," Your parents are leaving, and Bella come down to escort the guests out,"
I nodded and made my way down. I heard Jacob's heavy footsteps behind me.
What was Jake going to tell me? Is something wrong with him? Does he want to marry me after all?
I nearly tripped down the stairs, stuck in my train of thoughts.
As Jacob left, he gave me a nervous glance, silently begging.
I frowned, was it that important?
"Bella, come downstairs please," Charlie called out after the Blacks left.
I complied and stood before him. Soft violin music was playing in the background. Charlie was fond of violin music. When I was 10, he signed me up for classes. But I did horribly, even the music teacher said so. Charlie was so disappointed that I didn't even try to play and yelled at me for hours. But he didn't know that I stayed past my bed time trying to get all the notes right.
Charlie met my eyes, I hope he saw the plea and sadness in them.
"I know, I haven't mention about this wedding to you, it was unexpected." Charlie turned his head away and began. I suspected he ignored my emotions. " The Blacks are interested in joining our families together. You should be grateful, that they picked you. That fine man could've had any women, but he settled on you. Billy mentioned due to some conflicts, They want the wedding to be done soon. So, We've decided it to take place on July 7th."
July 7th.
Three weeks. Its seems like a long time, but I knew it would pass by like a flash. I simply nodded my head, and fiddled with my blouse. Tears pricked my eyes, so I kept my head to keep Charlie from seeing the waterworks.
"Tomorrow, you will decide on the invitations with your mother and Mrs. Black," Charlie grimly explained. "Then you will make dinner, The Blacks are coming again. Your mother might not be able to help you, because she is busy at that time. And do not cook anything with peas, Billy is allergic to them,"
I nodded again, like he expected me to. He quickly dismissed me, and I turned around with tears in my eyes and ran to my room.
[ ROD ]
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