I stood staring out at sea, it had been exactly 2 years since mum died, Dad still couldn't believe it, or maybe he just didn't want to believe it. I hear him some nights shouting at her for leaving him, for leaving me, we're not as close as we we're before, Gibbs thinks I remind dad of her too much, I smile slightly as I think of Gibbs, he's like a father to me now, he took on the role as dad when father became more distant. "ye alright lad?" I felt a hand on my shoulder, I didn't have to turn around to know who was speaking "aye Gibbs" I turned to face him and smiled reassuring him I was fine, he nodded removing his hand "William" I heard my father call me in his gruff tone, I looked up to see him, standing at the helm as usual "Aye da'?" I replied "my cabin now" I nodded and walked around Gibbs to my fathers cabin.
"William, I've noticed me and you aren't as close as we once were, am I mistaken?" I shook my head slowly, looking at the floor "thought not" I tensed up as he placed his hand on my shoulder, moving it to my cheek he moved my head so I was facing him, he slowly rubbed my cheek with his thumb like he did when I was younger "I'm sorry William" I looked into his eyes "what for Da'? you didn't kill 'er" he shook his head "no I didn't but I allowed ye to stand there and watch it 'appen" I shrugged not really knowing what to answer "You've matured so much William, y'know that?" I smiled and nodded, it was true I was 8-years-old and I acted around 14 "feel like taking me back as ye father?" he asked me I looked up at him and nodded eagerly, he laughed at my eagerness and hugged me, I hugged him back, I sighed, this was the safest I've felt in 2 years and I never wanted it to end.
"cap'n" Dad looked up over my shoulder "Aye?" he asked to the person standing on the other side of the door. He released me as the door opened and Gibbs entered the room looking worried "ship spotted" I watched dad go over to his desk and sit in his chair "Colours?" he asked "she aint flying any Cap'n" I took a step closer to my dad "are we going to attack?" I asked excitement building up inside of me, Dad looked at me with his famous smile "Aye William" he looked at Gibbs "get ready to attack" Gibbs nodded leaving the cabin, I could hear him barking out orders to the crew, I looked at Dad "William, I want you to stay here" I shook my head "no Da, I want to help" I pleaded, he knelt down to my level and looked at me in the eyes "no William, I've already lost ye Ma, don't let me loose ye too" I looked at him and noticed the tears in his eyes as he remembered mum, closing my eyes I nodded and listened to Dad leave the cabin.
Obeying my Dad was the hardest thing to do, I hated listening to the gunfire and the screams and the distant calls of my dad giving orders to the crew, I stood eagerly at the door of my cabin, waiting for either my dad or Gibbs to walk through it and tell me its over "for the love of Davey Jones locker" I heard my dad call, that was all I needed to hear, I opened the door and ran out, I saw my dad turn around to look at me "no! William, get inside ye cabin…that's an order" he shouted at me over the gunfire, I slowly walked forward towards my dad, well more precisely towards the person standing in front of my dad "no, your dead" I mumbled under my breath, but unfortunately my dad was able to hear me "William, don't speak to her like that, now go back into your cabin" I looked at my dad "do you really expect me to, after I've seen her…ALIVE!" I shouted "William, do not raise your voice" I turned to the person I hadn't seen in 2 years and collapsed.
