Hey

so i feel really bad about making you guys wait so long for this chapter, especially as it


JPOV

It was breaking my heart having to watch Leah go through this. She didn't deserve the cards that she's been dealt. And the worst part is that I can relate to what she's feeling. I had my heart broken as well, but I still can't figure out what's worse, loving someone fully and them leaving or never having the chance to love someone fully and still having them leave. I suppose both.

My first love was Bella Swan. She was everything I guess I wanted, but know I'm not so sure. Maybe after all it wasn't meant to happen between the two of us. She chose Edward Cullen, a bloodsucker over me. And she didn't waste her time to become one either, she got Edward to change her, but unlike Leah I don't have to see them all the time, they moved away after the transformation and hopefully I never have to see them again.

I kept my eyes on Leah all through the wedding knowing it would help her a little bit and keep her from ripping apart Sam or Emily; then again I would've cheered her on if she had. I thought that Leah was going to make it through the whole wedding without breaking down but as they began the vows and the I do's I could see that Leah was losing the fight within herself and I knew she would run before the 'I now pronounce you husband wife' part.

I didn't even have to think about whether I should stay or go after Leah, I thought of her as my best friend and would look after her no matter what. So I ran out the door after her, phasing and following her scent. Straight away I could hear her inner monologue, it wasn't pretty, and I could hear her imagining all the ways in which she could make Emily and Sam suffer like she has.

I didn't try and talk to her while I was following her, I knew she just needed to let out what she was feeling now and let her figure out what she was going to do. From what I could gather she was hurting and I knew that it was a good idea that I had followed her, I didn't thin she would ever hurt herself on purpose but every now and again her thoughts would have me contradicting myself.

We'd both run past the border of La Push when I realized Leah was heading north, how far she was going to go I wasn't sure, but I decided I'd let her run for a few miles or until I knew she'd relaxed somewhat and then I'd try and talk to her. But for now I'd just let her have what peace and quite she could find.


so next chapter will be in Leah's POV. i was going to have hers in this chapter but i actually don't know when it will be done so i decided to just post jacob's as it was done.

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