I never knew

I never knew,

I never thought;

How much it hurt,

When my words ripped into you.

I might have suspected,

I should have guessed,

But I never knew,

I'm always that oblivious.

It hurts me now,

More than I can say,

To know that I've hurt you,

And somehow didn't drive you away.

To know that all this time,

As I did my best to drive you away,

You were waiting and wanting,

The same thing I was.

I cannot believe that you do not hate me,

But John, I am here,

Watching and waiting,

Hoping for the time that you will hold me.