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"So we just sit here quietly?" Jane asked with impatience, Sonia chuckled.
"No, we do not. You came to me because you found that you have some sort of problem, so when did this problem start?" Jane sat silently looking at the thin yet curved Latina woman, her chestnut brown hair falling in waves down her shoulders the only sign of a type of makeup on her was some eyeliner and lip gloss. She was a naturally beautiful woman, the black dress clung perfectly and the heels sculpted to her.
"I don't really know, my wife possibly ex-wife soon made mention that she has been thinking about a separation for a year now." Jane responded as she tried to fight back tears at the thought of a pending divorce.
"What happened about a year ago?" Sonia asked as she made a note in a small notepad next to her chair.
"My partner died."
"Partner?"
"Yes, I'm a detective my partner Frost he was also next to Maura my wife one of my best friends." Informed Jane, Sonia nodded and made another note.
"How did Frost die if you don't mind me asking?" Sonia leaned forward slightly showing she was willing to hear the information.
"We were picking up our suspect along with Korsak my former partner everything was going fine a routine pick up. The guy was unarmed; at least we thought he was next thing I knew there was gun fire then Frost yelling my name. There was blood everywhere."
"Jane, if you can't continue we can move on." Sonia spoke softly sensing Jane's pain and hesitation.
"No, it's fine he took a bullet for me. Korsak had the guy cuffed and in a squad car, I tried to stop the bleeding but it kept gushing out. All three of us knew that ambulance wouldn't make it, so I held his hand. You know what his last words to me?" Jane started to finish, Sonia shook her head. Chuckling Jane said Frost's last words. "I saved you."
Silence filled the office, Sonia took in Jane and knew that they were only hitting on a fraction of Jane's troubles making another note Sonia looked back at Jane. Scooting the wheeled chair closer to Jane she made sure they weren't to close but still close enough.
"Jane, after Frost died did you begin to do anything differently?"
"Maura and I used to go to the Dirty Robber, but when the kids were born stopped going as much only went on occasion to get food after work if we were extremely hungry or an occasional drink. I started going more frequently though, I told her I had paperwork or a meeting but I'd go to the Robber and drink nothing more than usual." Jane informed Sonia.
"When did it start becoming more than usual?"
"I…I don't remember." Nodding Sonia pushed her chair back slowly making a note in her notebook.
"Okay, Jane tell me about Maura you said she is your wife but you also mentioned possibly ex-wife soon?"
"Yeah, um almost two weeks ago she asked that we separate and I stuck my foot in my mouth and now I have divorce papers sitting on her biological mothers breakfast table where I am staying at the moment."
"Do you know why she asked to separate?"
"Yeah, the arguing and the drinking she doesn't want our kids around it. Which I understand I wouldn't either I just didn't realize…" Trailing off Jane looked over at the book shelf in the room, sensing that Jane was closing off Sonia made one last note then spoke.
"You have done very well today Jane, if you like we can do this same time and same day next week?"
"Yeah, that sounds good." The whisper and nodded response didn't go unnoticed.
"Good, now since you have admitted to drink and it causing some problems here are some pamphlets if you like I can give you more in depth reading material next time but on the back of this one here is an address to weekly AA meetings. There are meetings every other day three times a day, a morning, afternoon and night meeting I believe it would be in your best interest if you went at least once a week. If you don't feel too comfortable with it I head the meetings Wednesday and Friday night, I would really like to see you there. I'll tell my secretary to write you for every Tuesday at seven."
Wednesday came around quick, she was now at Maura's place which saddened Jane knowing it used to be theirs playing with the kids when she looked at her watch. Smiling at hers and Maura's mini-me's they called them she went into the kitchen and waited for Maura to notice her.
"Leaving already?" Maura's voice sounded angry but also sad.
"Yeah, I have a meeting."
"Oh." The anger came out more.
"An AA meeting." Jane whispered so the kids wouldn't hear.
"Oh, wow Jane you're really going?" A small smile crept onto Maura's face.
"Yeah, I also went yesterday to that referral every Tuesday at seven in the morning I am slotted to meet." Putting her hands in her pockets Jane nodded and shrugged.
"That is wonderful, Jane I am so proud of you." Maura gently touched Jane's arm, a small spark was felt by both of them they both knew it was still there but even if it was did that still mean they should stay together.
"I also read over the papers, they're not signed yet but I will bring them to you tomorrow at work." Jane informed Maura who took a step back.
"Oh, so you want to go through with it?" Maura's voice struggled to work.
"Yes and no, but since my talk I've done thinking and you're right the children shouldn't be exposed to that stuff. Granted they'll still see me and you and us together but it isn't right. I saw us together forever and maybe we will be but right now I'm not the Jane you met or married, I am not someone who deserves to be with you. I know that signing those papers it leaves a chance you can meet someone else and move on but I'd rather you did that than us be in limbo right now forever or for us to be together with the way I am now. I just want you and our kids happy. I have to go or I'm going to be late." Jane finished before kissing Maura on the cheek and then going and kissing and hugging the kids, Maura stood in shock for a while until little Sofia who was the spitting image of Jane walked up to her.
"Momma?" Sofia tugged on Maura's skirt causing Maura to break out of her trance and look and smile down at the little girl.
"Yes, baby girl?"
"Why did mommy go, she doesn't sleeps here anymore?" Sofia asked with her slurring together due to not having two front teeth, sighing Maura picked Sofia up and went and sat down and then place Loren on her lap as well.
"Your mommy and I love you both very much, and we love each other very much but sometimes mommies, or daddies, or a mommy and daddy can't stay together no matter how much they love each other." Maura replied as she fought back tears.
"Like Nonna and Nonno?" Sofia asked.
"Yes, like that."
"Nonno, still loves Nonna he tolds me once." Sofia smiled.
"Yes, he does but you see as you grow up we all make mistakes or do good and bad things and all of those things have repercussions."
"Pin cushins?" Loren the three year old who was just like Maura asked.
"No repercussions, like you know when you break something you are grounded?" The two little ones nodded. "Like that but when you are older your repercussions are bigger than a grounding."
"OH!" Two little voices answered like they understood everything in the world, smiling Maura kissed her children's heads.
"So, you and mommy are getting a davorce?" Sofia asked with a sad look.
"Divorce and yes it appears so, but I don't want you two to think this means your mommy and I love you two any less."
"But you still love mommy?" Sofia asked and Loren nodded.
"Lub!" Loren nodded even more strongly.
"Yes, I do babies and your mommy still loves me but sadly sometimes love is not enough." Maura muttered the last part as a tear finally broke free; Loren reached up and cleared the tear from Maura's face.
"Momma don't cry." Loren spoke with a small smile; chuckling Maura pulled the kids in closer and rested her head on top of their smaller ones. She was trying not to cry but the realization as to what was happening had finally completely hit her.
