Chapter Two

Her Uncle didnt hide his anger as he spoke to her.."what the hell are you thinking Natalie"

"i was thinking it would be nice to get out there and come out from behind my desk, i can do this Uncle Bo" she nearly pleaded with him..

"Im the one who decides when your ready and this case, No, Absolutely Not" he was fuming cause not only had she put him in this horrible situation of being the bad guy but he knew that the FBI Agent would be on his ass now..

"I can do it, I can, I already did some research and i met with Brandon" she began as her Uncle shook his head in disbelief...

"do you know how incredibly dangerous and irresponsible it was for you to do that, everything goes through me first, EVERYTHING" he barked at her..

"i dont know why your so mad, i thought you would be happy that i took the innitative" she said honestly...

"I am Natalie, you dont even know how proud i am of you but this, this was not part of the deal" he lowered his voice as he looked at her..

"But im tired of sitting behind the desk and you heard him, he could use me" she began..

"exactlly, thats what the feds do they use people Natalie, dont you see that, this is way too dangerous for a rookie to do and for my neice no less, i will not have you subjected to what happens in that club" he said sternly..

Natalie hung her head.."why cant i just try and if it doesnt work out" she began to say..

He cut her off.."No, end of story"

"But" she said as she looked at him, she literally felt like he was shooting down her dreams..

"But nothing, you work on the cases i give you and nothing more understand" he stared right at her.."Maybe in a few weeks i will let you go on patrol with Brody" he said softer this time and she fought the urge to roll her eyes at him,she didnt want to go on no damn patrol with Brody she wanted to do this case.."Natalie one day you will understand" he began as she stood up..."there is plenty of other things you can do around here"

She couldnt say anything as she stood there, honestly she wanted to cry or atleast stomp her feet like a child that doesnt get her way..He walked up to her and hugged her but she just stood there..."i know your upset but its for the best ok" he said softly as he hugged her, she didnt answer..."But i do need his card" he said as he pulled back, she couldnt believe this, he looked at her hand that still held the card, she looked at it too, she huffed and handed it to him.."why dont you take the rest of the day off, its beautiful outside, go meet up with your friends" he began..

"fine" she said coldly, she didnt want to hang out with her friends, hell the only friend she did have was her brother Rex's girlfriend Gigi, right now she just wanted to be alone..

"I'll see you tomorrow, bright and early" Bo smiled at her and she turned from him and left, she was upset and defeated, she just wanted to go home and drink herself to sleep..

Natalie didnt find much peace when she got home, it was just a constant reminder of how she didnt have a life, she was 22 years old, hell most of the girls her age were living it up in college and having a good time, she could of taken that route but she thought against it, she had done enough partying in her teen years and so she did what she felt was the mature route and join the police force, she use to visit her uncle there as a child, she looked up to him, she wanted to be just like him and so she followed in his footsteps only to be told she had to do desk work, she hated it, she hated that no one took her seriously, she might as well be the crazy college student..

Her sister jessica was just that, the crazy college girl, she got in trouble left and right and had the Buchanan name in the papers so much that her father literally sent her to London, offering her a job at the families newspaper there, natalie gets offered nothing and has to work twice as hard, she huffed as she sat down on the couch..

It was times like these that having a guy around wouldnt of been a bad idea, he could of reassured her that everything would work out, then they could of ate take out, drank back a few beers and made love all night till nothing else mattered but with relationships came other issues, she had tried it a few times, all ended badly, guys her age wanted one thing and that was about it, so she steered clear of them..

But then there was Cris, Gigi had pushed her to hang out with him and she did have a good time,he was a sweet guy and mature but he was already trying to monopolize her time and she didnt like that, maybe she was just too damn picky..

She picked at the chinese food she bought, that and a beer to wash it down as she sat curled up on her couch watching old episodes of NCIS, wishing she could be like them but no, she was just stupid young niave Natalie she thought to herself as she got up to grab another beer..

Her phone began to ring as she neared the kitchen and she sighed as she walked over to it, if it was Cris calling again she was gonna scream, but the number read private, she sighed again and contemplated answering it, she assumed it was a telemarketer and she walked away as the ringing stopped...

With another beer in hand she headed back to the couch but before she sat her phone yet again rang, private number again this time she answered.

"hello" she said with a bit of annoyance, waiting to be bombarded with some kind of credit card offer..

"You are a hard person to get a hold of Natalie Buchanan" a male voice said on the other end of the line but she recognized that voice and her heart began to race, it was the FBI agent.."hello?" he spoke again..

"Hi im here" she said quickly

"well then i take it you know who this is" he began and she almost laughed, of course she did, he was the hottest FBI agent she had ever seen, he spoke before she could.."so what kind of agreement did you and your uncle come up with"

Natalie didnt answer for a second, she was embarassed.."Ummm yeah about that" she didnt want to tell him that her Uncle out right refused she have anything to do with it, god she felt like such a child..

"He said No" he cut her off...

"Yeah" she said low, she wanted to die..

"well thats too bad, i didnt want to have to go behind his back" he said and she perked up some, was this guy for real, he was still gonna ask for her help, she was beyond flattered..

"Huh" was all she could respond with, she definitely wasnt expecting him to say that..

"well i mean unless your having second thoughts about doing this" he began and she sat up more..

"No, im not" she said quickly, maybe too much enthusiasm behind it, she shook her head in embarassment...

"thats what i was hoping to hear, can you meet me in say 30 minutes or so" she thought she would die as she sat there, her heart was pounding heavily in her chest..

"sure" she squeaked out, this was the most excitement she had ever had and she was gonna be meeting up with a gorgeous agent, she thought she had died and gone to heaven...

"there's a little bar outside of Lanview, its called Shooters" he began as he gave her the address and she quickly jotted it down on a piece of paper..

"Ok i got it" she said as she swallowed the lump in her throat..

"good, see you in 30" he said as he hung up and she held the phone for another second before she began jumping around and dancing with excitement..

The excitement quickly wore off when she realized that she had no idea what to wear and she had to take a shower and get ready, as well as meet him in 30 minutes, she took of running for the bathroom, damn near tripping over herself..

She took the worlds fastest shower and then began tearing everything out of closet, she wasnt use to going out very often and her closet now held alot of business suits for work, not to mention your run of the mill jeans and tshirts,no she couldnt wear those, she had to impress him, she tossed things left and right until she came upon a denim skirt she hadnt worn in years, it was perfect just the right length and sexy as hell, she tossed around shirts and stopped at a low cut tunic top with a plunging neck line, black silk she smiled as she grabbed that and then rummaged through her collection of shoes, stopping as she pulled out her black leather calf high boots that screamed she could be reckless if she wanted to..

With a quick coat of makeup, her hair pulled back in a pony tail but a hint of a side bang she smiled at herself in the mirror, she looked hot! She glanced at the clock and she quickly took off running, she had less than 10 minutes to get to the bar..

John sat at the bar drinking back a beer, she was late and part of him was wondering if this was a good idea, she was a young kid practically and from what he saw of her file that he had sent to him via email, she had been quite the reckless teenager, honestly he had assumed if it wasnt for her Buchanan name and ties to the Commissioner she wouldnt of made it into the police department..

He had dealt with young officers before and frankly he had no patience with them, not that he was old himself, he was 35 but enough experience to make him feel that much older..He had gone right into the Marines after highschool, he spent four years in before he was contacted by the Special Ops and recruited, another four years there and then after a long stay in Afghanastan he was contacted personally by the Director of the FBI, nearly 10 years he had been with them, he was one of their top agents and well at the age of 35 he was quickly becoming burned out, he never married even though he had been engaged a long while back, that ended in disaster when he found his best friend at the time Connor in bed with his fiancee Caitlin, needless to say he buried himself in his work after that, making no time for relationships but sex was another matter, that he enjoyed to the fullest and it wasnt hard especially with the field he worked in but he never got attached, sex was sex and nothing more and it would say that way.

By his third beer he was fully frustrated and just about to leave when he heard the door to the bar open and he glanced in that direction, what he saw he wasnt expecting cause there she was, definitely not the same girl he had met earlier dressed completely professional, no this woman was the definition of sex appeal, for a second he literally thought his eyes were playing tricks on him as he watched her walk in, her eyes scanning the place until they landed on him...

Natalie was beyond nervous as she got to the bar and not to mention late, she honestly didnt know if he would be there or not but as she entered and looked around there he was, at the bar and his eyes were tearing into her, she felt flushed as she walked over to him, the way he looked at her, she was sure that in the dictionary under the definition bedroom eyes she could see his picture, she prayed she wouldnt trip and fall as she walked, trying to remain calm even though inside she was hyperventilating..

John stood as she neared, the very sight of her dressed like that made his manhood press and throb against his pants..

"Im sorry im late, traffic was a bitch" she said nervously as she got up to him..

He looked her up and down, grinning.."if this is what being late looks like then you should be late more often" she smiled nervously, she definitely wasnt use to someone being so openly flirtacious with her and especially someone in this mans league.."what do you want to drink?" he asked before she could respond to him..

"A beer would be good" she swallowed hard and he quickly ordered a pitcher of beer, apparently he didnt see this night ending any time soon, the excitement in her was bursting at the seems, she went to take a seat but he shook his head..

"lets take this somewhere more private so we can talk" he said as he grabbed the pitcher of beer, she grabbed the glasses and followed him as he walked, he found a table off to the side, secluded, she was shaking at this point as he waited for her to sit and then he sat across from her and began pouring them each a glass..His eyes kept darting to her ample cleavage, he literally thought he may burst through his pants, it had been quite some time since he saw a body like this on a woman her age..

Natalie nervously sipped her beer, she couldnt believe she was actually sitting here with this guy..

"so you said you went and visited Brandon, im sure that was quite the visit, is he still living in the woods" he said a bit sarcastically..

"It wasnt so bad, the inside of his house was really nice" she sipped her beer and he did a double take..

"he actually let you inside?" he began to say and then he smiled.." of course he would, look at you"

"he was actually really nice, i ...i felt bad for him" she began and John now rolled his eyes, he remembered Brandon and the guy was nothing but a dick to him..

"i dont think were talking about the same person then, he would barely let me near the house much less talk to me, actually i think we ended the conversation with him threatening to shoot me" John sipped his beer..

"oh" Natalie said quickly..."he was very nice to me"

"so tell me what exactlly do you know about this lifestyle?" he asked with a smile..

She fidgeted some in her seat.."Umm i know that your either Submissive or Dominant" she began and he shook his head no..

"let me stop you there, have you ever been to one of these clubs" he said quickly but he already knew the answer..

"Umm i have seen them online" she began nervously, suddenly she felt like she knew nothing about any of this, its hard to fake your way through something when you had no idea what your talking about..

"online?" he raised an eyebrow.."i want you to be honest, im not testing you"

Natalie took a hearty sip of her drink..." i havent been to anything like that" she said low, she felt embarassed and she cast her eyes down from him, he was gonna make her leave she just knew it..

"ok i can work with that, actually its even better cause you dont have any habits formed" he began and she looked up at him, kind of shocked by his words, he wasnt going to send her home.."are you comfortable with getting half naked, or naked and having half naked people around you?"

She felt like her eyes were going to pop out of her head.."huh?"

"Ok so we have a few things to work on" he was thinking aloud and she was suddenly feeling sick.."I say we get started as soon as possible" he finally smiled at her but she looked white as a ghost.."dont worry Natalie i will explain everything as we go along but were definitely gonna need some time, a few days atleast to work on some things before i can actually have you around my people" She was barely hearing him as he spoke all she kept thinking of was having to get naked in front of people.."do you have any vacation time at work?"

She snapped out of her thoughts and took another hearty sip.."vacation time, umm yeah, why?"she kept telling herself that she could do this, if she wanted to be a undercover cop then she would have to do this, she had to..

"i need you to take it, i dunno tell your uncle you need some 'you ' time or something, that way we wont have any distractions" he was so matter of factly she just nodded her head."do you feel overwhelmed?"

"nope" she could barely get the words out, he leaned over the table some..

"honesty, remember" he grinned at her..

"Ok a little" she squeaked out..

"thats better, remember im not the bad guy here, you need to trust me ok" he lightly touched her hand and she smiled nervously.."enough about that for right now, what do you say we play a game of pool"

She was glad to be off this subject for now and gratefully said "Yes..now that i can do"

He looked a bit surprised at her.."Oh really now your definitely gonna have to show me" he said as he finished off his beer and stood up, she quickly finished hers as she stood, he poured them each another glass.."Lets see what you got" he grinned as he began walking to the pool table, she took a deep breath and reassured herself again that she could do this, and then she followed him to the pool table..

John watched in amazement as she damn near cleared the table by herself, she was good, damn good and it was like she wasnt even trying.."you have quite the control with that stick, you've played before, im guessing tournaments" he raised an eyebrow and she smiled proudly, he was impressed with her, this was good..

"a few, possibly" she began to get a little flirty as the alcohol did its job..

She was definitely easing up towards him, he could see the alcohol was helping things along, he leaned over the table to make a shot.."its too bad though" he began to say as he lined up his shot and he glanced at her..."i would of loved to give you a pool lesson" he winked at her and she thought she would die, he made his shot and sunk the ball.."so you think your ready for another drink" he glanced at the empty pitcher..

"Sure, how about a vodka shot" she said and he nearly scratched as he looked up at her shocked..

""going heavy, i like it, why dont you make it two" he grinned and walked around the table, aiming his ball again..

"Ok" she said as she walked to the bar, she was smiling huge now, he was flirting wiht her, like really flirting..She quickly ordered a shot and drank it quick and then ordered two more and began walking back with them,he shook his head as he looked at her..

"you know i saw that" he grinned as he took the shot from her but he let his fingers graze hers for a second, and she swallowed hard.."Bottoms up" he said as he stared at her and they both took the shot..

Those shots led into another set, then another and before they knew it the table was full of shot glasses, needless to say both of them were quite drunk, they now moved over to a booth and he scooted in and when she went to sit she almost fell but he reached out and grabbed her arm, pulling her somewhat on his lap..

"i am so sorry" she laughed drunkingly...

"Oh im definitely not complaining" he grinned as he moved some of her hair aside from her neck, his other hand was lightly rubbing her thigh and then she felt it, his hot tongue grazed her neck and she couldnt help the slight moan that left her mouth..With a heavily raspy voice he whispered.."what do you say we get out of here" all she could do was nod yes and then they were heading outside, he held onto her arm so she wouldnt fall as she looked at her car..

"My car is over there" she began and he shook his head..

"uh uh, dont you know that drinking and driving is illegal" he grinned at her and she turned red, of course she did she was a cop, she felt embarassed.."good thing my place is just up the road, we can walk"

"Ok" she swallowed hard as he looked at her and then he was pushing her back against the bar as his mouth savagely attacked hers, she couldnt think much less breath, he kissed unlike any guy she had ever been with, to say she was turned on would of been an understatement..

John pulled back, panting slightly as he looked at her now swollen lips, she tasted just as good as he thought she would.."come on" he said as he quickly walked with her down the road, he wanted her something fierce, literally every step he took was making his manhood hurt, she kept smiling at him as they neared his house, it was just up the road, tonight he would do things to her that she only dreamed of..

Natalie felt butterflies fill her stomach, she was nervous as hell, he was oozing sex and the more she thought about it the more scared she was, see he didnt know but she was a virgin and the anxiety was getting to her, they approached a very nice two story house, it was dark so she couldnt fully see it plus the alcohol was racing through her system and well needless to say as soon as he opened the door he grabbed her and pinned her against the wall, his hands cupping her breasts and then moving up her skirt, so much was happening at once that she couldnt concentrate on one thing, all she kept thinking was it was finally going to happen and with him..

He pulled back from her mouth and licked his lips, then he was unbuttoning his silk shirt, then tossing it aside as she looked at him, he was beyond beautiful, he enjoyed the way she looked at him, he quickly reached for her shirt, pulling it quickly over her head as he took in the sight of her red silky bra, it barely contained her breasts, he growled as he pulled her waist against him and kissed her again..

He couldnt wait much longer, he was already leaking against his boxer briefs and his cock was painfully hard, he spun her around, pushing her flush against the wall as she gasped,her mind was spinning with fear and excitement, he yanked her skirt up and pulled her panties down and then she heard his zipper, suddenly she began to silently freak out, this was all happening too fast and then he yanked her hips back and she felt it, his penis, she couldnt see it but she could feel its thick and heavy presence rubbing against her ass, he had his mouth on the back of her neck, licking her, nipping at her and then in one piercing, nearly blinding experience she felt him thrust up into her and for a second she thought she would die, like literally die from the pain coursing in her body, she fell limp against the wall as he groaned out in sheer pleasure unaware of what just took place, and unaware of the tears now covering her cheeks, he thrust again, each time harder and harder, she felt fucking amazing and the sounds she made he mistaken for moans but they were cries of pain, he reached in front of her and grabbed her breasts and she literally thought she would pass out, her mind was swimming and the pain wasn't letting up..

"ah fuck you feel so fucking good, so fucking tight" he groaned as he fucked her hard and the pain was so unbearable that she couldnt even make a sound now as tears flooded her face.."god your so wet, im gonna fucking cum" he yelled out, almost in a primal kind of way and then he was pulling out of her body as he came on her ass, her legs barely held her up as she used her hands to sturdy herself, it was dark inside his house, just a lamp on at the far side of the room, she leaned her head against the wall, sobbing now as he leaned into her back, still unaware.."that was fucking amazing" he said honestly as he looked at her, her legs wobbily, he grinned proudly at a job well done, but then he heard something and it wasnt a sound he was use to, it sounded like she was crying, he moved his hand to her face and thats when he saw it, blood on his hands, in horror he looked down and saw blood covering his still pulsating manhood, he backed up from her in fear as reality quickly came crashing in.."Jesus Natalie, ah shit..." he said almost panicking as he stood there, she had blood trailing down her legs as she stood there, leaning on the wall, he didnt know what to do..

Natalie snapped back into reality, his hands were trailing up her skirt now and the images in her head of what this could end up like freaked her out, she pushed him back, breathing heavy as was he..

"im sorry,...I cant" she said a bit breathless and he saw something cross her face, it was fear and he backed up some..Natalie was embarassed, here she was with this drop dead gorgeous man and she was pushing him off of her..

John didnt really know what to think, he never had anyone make him stop before, the situation began to sober both of them as they stood there uncomfortably..

"can i get a drink of water or something" she said with embarassment, she hated that she couldnt go through with this and he looked uncomfortable standing there..

"yeah, sure...water" he said as he walked past her and into the kitchen, he couldnt understand what the hell had happened..He felt awkward as hell as he stood in the kitchen, why would she look so scared, he couldnt under stand and then something went off in his head, he had seen that look one other time, it was when he was 16 years old, him and his girlfriend at the time had decided to have sex and she had been a virgin, she had that same scared look on her face, suddenly his legs felt very heavy as he stood there, was she a virgin..

Natalie was sitting on the couch now, her hands in her lap, she was trying to come up with excuses as she sat there, she didnt want him to think she was just some kid, god how she hated that she didnt lose her virginity yet, he came walking back into the livingroom, cup of water in hand as he handed it to her and she took a sip, he studied her more..

"are you a virgin?" he asked bluntly and she looked at him shocked, how did he know, she began to panic.

"No... of course not" she said but apparently he could see through her lies as he took a seat across from her and ran his hand through his hair..

"Jesus Natalie i could of hurt you" he said as the realization of what he could of done to her hit him, cause he wouldnt of been gentle with her..

"this is so embarassing" she covered her face, she literally wanted to cry.."im sorry"

"dont apologize to me, thank god you stopped me, i mean i would of" the idea literally made his stomach turn, he had almost savagely taken her virginity without knowing it, he felt like a piece of shit for even trying, she wasnt like the other woman he had fucked in the past, she was 22 years old and here he was like the perverted old man, John felt his stomach jump again and this time he stood up, he was really gonna throw up, natalie looked up at him, he looked pale and then he took off running, holding his mouth as she heard him lose the contents of his stomach in the toilet..

John couldnt believe that he was literally leaning over his toilet throwing up, he hadnt dont that in years and he was fairly certain it didnt have to do with the alcohol in his system, he had fucked up this time, like truly fucked up and with a Buchanan no less, a sound at the door made him look over and he quickly flushed the toilet as Natalie stood there looking at him..

"are you ok" she asked, she was worried he was gonna puke himself to death in there, he stood up quick and ran his hand over his face..

"Im fine" he said with embarassment, he couldnt even remember the last time he had puked, he flushed the toilet.."i think i should bring you home" He said as he walked past her, he couldnt even look her in the eye, that made her feel like more shit cause honestly she thought that she disgusted him so much he threw up..

"Your mad arent you" she asked as she neared him and he looked at her with wide eyes..

"Mad? No...not mad but right now, i think it would be best if i bring you home" he began to say and she didnt want to leave, she wanted to stay, she wanted to prove to him that she wasnt some freak of nature cause thats certainly how she felt..

"we can try again" she said as he looked at her shocked.

"no...no we cant" he said seriously..

"you think im disgusting, this is just great" she said as tears threatened to pierce her eyes, he gulped when he saw her eyes fill up..

"i dont think your digusting, far from it but Natalie.. i am not that guy, believe me when i tell you this" he said honestly..

"But i really wanted to, with you" she said honestly and he shook his head no..

"Im an asshole ok,...you deserve your first time to be with someone you care about, someone who cares about you, not like this and definitely not with me" he said as he ran a hand through his hair..

"Oh" was all she could say as she stood there, she wanted to run away right now..

"your a good girl Natalie, you need a good guy" he began to pace...

"and your not a good guy, right" she said quickly and he looked at her..

"this should of never happened ok, i should of never asked you to go to the bar, i should of never tried to take advantage" he said honestly..."I need to take you home... now" he grabbed his car keys and she stood there feeling like a complete asshole and then she left with him..