A Buffy the Vampire Slayer fan fiction (aka) I don't own, but like to play in the whedon-verse sandbox

Starring: Willow Rosenberg & Vampire Willow

Twin pricks invaded my sense of being and with it came the harsh reality of what I'd done. I had in a sense sold myself to the devil; never mind that this devil wore my face. Shock and awe broke through the revelation as the slight pain that came from the marks soothed and soon make me feel more alive in that moment than I ever had. The rush of my blood sounded in my ears as she took from my offered neck, I couldn't fight my fate at this point not that I felt a reason to. This fate, this destiny had been made clear to me the moment she took her first taste of what she might have tasted like in a previous life and like an addict we both felt the need flow between us. The indescribably ache of both pain and pleasure bringing two separate worlds colliding headfirst and molding into something so dangerous that it threatened to rip us apart.

I felt her, her pain, her loneliness, her need to break free of the woman who had turned her and broke her to be nothing more than the Masters left hand. In turn she felt my own pain, my misery of working so hard to never get anywhere, my humiliation at being nothing more than a walking encyclopedia to people that would never understand how I really felt. No one tried to figure either of us out. No one held out a hand to drag us back from the edge, no one stopped her from descending into a lackey and no one would stop either of us from ascending into the rulers of Sunnydale.

A sigh broke through my lips as she drew her fangs from my neck and replaced it with her heated tongue. Something to think about on a later date, but what held my attention was the fact I could still think quite clearly. She had taken what she had set out for and what I had offered, so why had she not gone through with the entirety of the change? My confusion soon led to a question that would never leave my lips as my mirror me answered without hesitation. "You've touched magicks… this is an intriguing turn of events." Her lips murmured over my neck even then as she seemed to be calculating a more interesting and amusing way this could play into both of our favor. "Had I known I was capable of such power as a human… oh no, this will be quite the tool we can use to bring this world to its knees." A chuckle of amusement left her throat as she shifted her hold to my hips and turned me to face her.

One thing I never thought about but came clearly to me was how I would look in my vampire state. The ridges over my brow, my pixie like features turning more angular, my plain features morphed to show the beast even now I held within. It was simply…"Beautiful." The word rolled off my tongue and caused my twin to curl her lips up into an amused smile that show cased her fangs. It was an odd moment where we both stood there seeming lost in our own thoughts. Mine stirring over how incredibly wild yet dangerously beautiful she looked while hers where no doubt playing out her future moves in her head. I was no fool, I saw the calculating gaze she held as she stared at me. Her eyes mirroring that of a lioness sizing up prey, but even as prey I held no fear that she would truly hurt me unless the situation called for it.

"Stop that." Her voice growled out, commanding my attention and silencing my inner thoughts. "We've time for thinking later." The amused smile came back when she no doubt noted the absence in fear in me. "Right now," She purred as she came in closer. "I need to give you a present." Curiosity burned in me as I tried to use my own head to wrap myself around what she meant before slowing when she cut her tongue on one of those razor sharp fangs. "I, what-" Catching me off guard she let her motives be known as she forcefully dominated my mouth in a searing kiss that expressed more to me than anything I had ever experienced before. A nip to my tongue was the first indicator that this kiss was more than a pure game of dominance; one I was losing badly to. The second was the taste of copper, like I had placed a penny on my tongue. Before the finally came in and I felt, saw, smelled and heard my world explode around me.

My sense began to grow and evolve to the point where the soft pitter-patter of my heart sounded like Xander when he has tapping his fingers bordly on the wooden lab tables in the science room. My nose burned with the scent of cheap cologne and must of books that swirled in the library. I felt the fabric of my sweater and without thinking I backed away from my vampire double and tore at my sweater just to escape from the itchy and suffocating material. It eased my skin but not before the very air in the room seemed to settle against my bared half-nakedness, breathing new life into it and I sore for a moment I could feel the heat in the very air. Then came my sight as it adjusted, the burning sensation I felt in my nose was nothing compared the searing pain that erupted behind my eyes as they took in the fluorescent light the front of the library was bathed in. It was beginning to be too much, my senses expanded around me making me extremely aware of anything within a six foot radius and bringing me to my knees. The pain was so intense the urge to scream couldn't even break through my throat as my lungs constricted and expanded.

Then I felt her, my double quietly moving to stand behind me and gently caressing my hair as if I were someone's favorite pet. The humiliation of being treated as such fought with the urge to just lean back and let her, to give in, to sleep and wake up in some state other than pain. As my body picked for me and my head began to sag forward, a cry finally left my lips as my vampiric twin tangled her fingers in my head and tugged viciously before a warning slammed into my highly sensitive ears. "Fight your weakness." She growled and I swear I could feel the air rippling at the very action and in my highly delirious state of mind, I could find no other option but to listen to her.

Seconds dragged into minutes and minutes crawled into hours before my senses reached their peak before I felt a reverberating pop in my body. With the feeling my world slowly swam back to nearly normal, my vision dancing slightly as I allowed my eyes to open. My head hurt with a throb that just wouldn't quit but over all I felt… almost normal. I say almost normal due to the interesting increase in my sense. They were nowhere near what I had experienced but something inside me told me that this was a step towards what I had felt earlier.

A gentle soothing motion to my hair brought me back to the problem I had at hand; I still wasn't a vampire. I could feel heat in my body, my blood pulsing and my heart lightly beating; but I could also feel a new length to my canines that hadn't been there before. Turning my head slightly to look up at my maker, I couldn't help the chuckle of laughter that spilled from my lips at her quizzical look. It was indeed a hilarious sight; it was almost as if she wasn't sure what happened. Blinking as the thought crossed my brain, I took a closer look before noting that I was right. The other me was watching me as if I was a particularly interesting experiment before a smug smile replaced her curious look and gave me the impression she had found what she had set out to do.

"I used me… err, you used me." Furrowing my brow at the weird situation, I was suddenly hit with a fury I'd never know before. I had, in a sense, used myself as an experiment, no doubt a successful one; but damn it all I had used myself! Fingers curled up into fists as the righteous anger burned and consumed me, who would have thought I couldn't even trust myself out of all people. A growl rose from the depths of my chest and expanded up to my throat where the sound started me out of my rage. It was inhuman, bestial and full of emotions I had dampened and filtered to make myself seem more wholesome. "You used me, so I see this as us being even." Vampires, they always looked so smug and amused it was annoying; even if she was right in some way.

The more I thought on it, the more I realized she was right in every way and by the gods it was annoying. Annoying… I gritted my teeth as I realized I had used that label on myself or even some part of myself. I felt a dark emotion spur up and demand I rectify this situation and as I moved to stand I felt a new strength and grace fill my body. This power not only touched my muscles or my bones, oh no I could feel it deep in my core. I felt something I had never dreamed I would; the pull and push of my magick as it fell down to the floor and pulled back strains of the Hellmouth under my feet. I felt it fed greedily off the static and residual magicks that had soaked into the very foundation of this school and the ground below it. It made me feel adrenalized, alive and what I imagined sex would feel like.

"You feel it?" A look to my twin was all she needed before she pushed on. "How does it feel?" She quirked her head to the side; seems even as a vampire I never completely lost some of my distinct gestures. "It feels…" Licking my lips as I tried to find a way that would completely describe this awakening addiction, I settled on something even she could understand. "Like having an ungodly amount of chocolate… that I can keep to myself." A quirky smile broke the intense atmosphere and stole a roar of laughter from my double. It was something only we could really understand and for that reason brought us that much closer together. "Good." She snickered and flashed an unvamped smile that mirrored my own. "Good."