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Chapter Two: The Audition
"Alex? … Alex?"
"Huh?" I felt Carlos' strong hands on my shoulders. He was shaking me lightly. He tore me out of a perfect reverie that I wished was reality.
"You spaced out," he sounded worried.
"Oh, I'm sorry. I'm fine now," I paused, "What were you saying before?"
"That I spoke to Paige," he repeated, "and she told me to stop waiting."
I just raised my eyebrows curiously. "She told me to stop waiting to say 'I like you Alex'."
"Don't say it just because Paige told you to," I looked away. The song then changed. "I better go find Paige," I smiled at him and walked away.
"What happened?" Paige almost ran straight into me.
"Why did you tell him to say he likes me?" I asked angrily.
"Because he does!" Paige said it in a 'duh' tone.
"If he does then he'll say it. I should have never put on this stupid dress. This dress is the only reason why he danced with me tonight. If I came with my usual big T-shirt and ripped jeans he wouldn't have noticed me. I would just be Alex Diamond to him. When people hear 'Alex is James' twin they already think I'm a boy," I paused, "That's why he started calling me Lexie.."
"Who?" Paige was confused.
"Carlos," I turned around. Maybe I should have let him finish talking. He was now dancing with Maya. They both had huge grins on their faces. I wish my day dream had come true. Seeing him with Maya made the green monster of jealousy take over me. I couldn't stand to see him with her. I couldn't stand seeing him with anyone. All the girlfriends he had in his past were nice but I secretly hated them. "I'm leaving."
I turned to the door and walked out. I heard Paige calling out to me, but I didn't want to watch Carlos with Maya anymore. As I walked down the street I wiped the make-up off my face. Why was I dressing up as a Barbie? For his attention? He only noticed me because of the dress and this stupid make-up. Why couldn't he accept me for me? If he wants a Barbie girl he can have Maya.
Suddenly my body was jerked to the side. A tall older guy with a few scars on his face had a tight grip on my wrist. He smelled of liquor and cigarettes. He had stains on his shirt and he had a bottle inside a paper bag in his other hand.
"Let me go you old pervert!" I yelled while punching him with my free hand, "Only pedophiles stay near schools during a dance!" It's true. Weird creeps always stay outside my school but they never bothered me or Paige since we always walked home with the boys.
He then slapped me hard. "Shut up girl!"
"Asshole!" I screamed back.
He began to drag me down the street. I continued to try to fight him. The man turned around and shook me by my shoulders. "I said shut up!" he then touched the strap of my dress, sliding it off my shoulder.
This was my chance. I aimed a kick between his legs. The man groaned in pain and I turned and ran back towards the school. It would be safer there. I'm not going to be like those stupid girls in movies who run home which is farther away.
"Alex?" I saw my cousin Victor as ran I into the school.
"Whoa, what's going on?" he asked.
"A freaking pedophile is chasing me!" I yelled.
Soon Carlos was next to Victor. Had I yelled that loud? His face was serious, no longer with his usual goofy grin.
He and Victor both walked out with me close by. "That's him!" I pointed at the ugly man as he walked back and forth and then stopped to sip his drink. He stopped and started yelling "Where's my girl?" I assumed Carlos and Victor would call the cops but instead they both walked up to the guy.
"Where's my girl?" the drunk yelled. He saw me and grabbed my wrist again and started pulling me again.
Victor attempted to punch the man but Carlos got to him first. He punched him hard on his jaw. The guy fell back and Carlos continued to punch him.
"Wrong! She's my girl! Hands off my girl!" Carlos said between punches. Blood was running out of the man's nose but Carlos didn't care. Either someone called the cops or they were on patrol because now they were here. They were grabbing Carlos who now started to kick the man as he groaned in pain.
"Don't you ever touch her again!" Carlos yelled as he took his final kick. They had forgotten about Victor who now jumped on the man and attacked him.
Another cop grabbed Victor and pulled him away. "I'm going to kill that sick bastard for touching my cousin!" Victor growled. My brother had just walked outside with Paige to hear Victor's outburst. Now he was attacking the man. Wasn't this perfect? Almost everyone I knew was appearing to attack this man. After more cops pulled my brother away he turned to me.
"Did he rape you?" he asked.
I shook my head. "He tried to.." I said quietly. I seem tough to everyone but I do get scared. I just did what my father had told me to do in a situation like that. I hit him where it hurts.
James ran at the man again but the cops stopped him. A cop walked up to me.
"Alex," I recognized the cop as Carlos' father, Officer Garcia. "Can you tell me what happened tonight?" I told Officer Garcia exactly what happened. That I had left the dance and the man had grabbed me and tried to take off my dress so I kicked his family jewels and ran.
Carlos walked over to me and hugged me tightly. "Are you okay?" he asked.
I nodded and smiled. "Thanks."
"Anytime," he smiled back.
"Oh just kiss her already!" I heard Paige yell. I blushed and looked away. Carlos took a step closer to me.
"Carlos," I heard Officer Garcia's voice, "What happened when Alex got here?" Carlos jumped back.
"She told Victor that some guy was chasing her and I overheard so we walked outside. He grabbed Alex so I punched him." he said it slowly and angrily. His father nodded and walked away. The man was being put into the backseat of the cop's car.
Everyone then went inside as if the cops had never shown up. It was just Carlos and I.
"Alex," his hand was getting closer to my cheek. I unconsciously leaned into his touch as I looked down.
"I really do like you, I didn't need Paige to tell me so I could realize it," he paused, "You're brother might kill me for saying this but, I was going to tell you how I feel but Logan, Kendall, James and myself have an audition in a few days. If we get picked we'll go to L.A and start recording an album."
I looked up at him sadly. "Carlos I-"
He cut me off, "Some things are better left unsaid. If we get picked to go to L.A I don't want us to deal with being separated." He kissed my cheek, "I'm sorry."
I was depressed these past few days. Carlos and I were now distant. I had told Paige about the audition he told me about and she kept saying she felt sorry for me. I hate when people feel sorry for me. James told my parents, who were excited for him.
I got up and showered and left without even eating breakfast. Paige waited for me at the corner. When we got to school I took off my coat and placed it inside my locker. Paige was disappointed in my outfit. I was wearing a T-shirt and my ripped jeans. She only liked that my hair was loose instead of in it's usual pony tail.
Today was the day of their audition. It was all I could think about. I zoned out in Mr. Smith's class again which earned me another detention. After last period I walked into detention and found Carlos sitting in the back. I sat in the back corner, away from him. He got up and sat next to me.
"Who'd you punch this time?" he asked.
"I didn't punch anyone," I looked out the window.
"Mr. Smith?"
"Yup."
"Day dreaming again?"
"Yup."
"The audition's today," he said it softly.
"I know." I didn't want to remember but he just brought it up again.
We stood quiet after this. I want him and my friends to be successful but I don't want Carlos to leave. Why didn't I listen to Paige? If I had told him how I felt from the beginning we would be together right now. If we were together now we would be dealing with the pain of possibly being separated. Carlos didn't want us to have this pain but deep inside we still had that pain. If we were together the pain would just be worse.
The bell rang and I stood up.
"Good luck," I walked out leaving him there in his seat.
Paige and I walked home together. She kept telling me how her life would be over without James. She also said they had their first kiss at Homecoming.
"Did Carlos kiss you?" she asked when we walked into my room.
"Yeah on my cheek," I tapped the cheek he had kissed with my index finger.
To change the subject, Paige offered to flat iron my hair. I didn't care any more so I let her. Just when she finished we heard footsteps running up the stairs.
"We got picked!" James grabbed Paige and spun her around then kissed her softly.
"We're going to L.A!" Logan said with excitement.
"I'm happy for you guys," I said while looking out the window.
"Who's that?" Kendall asked Paige.
"That's Alex!" Paige whispered to him.
"When did her hair get straight?" Logan asked.
"I just straighten it," Paige said happily.
"Stop talking like I'm not here!" I shook my head and turned around. "Congratulations," I hugged each of them, then I hugged Carlos.
"Thanks," he said.
They had all left to pack their things to leave tomorrow morning. Paige had left to spend the day with James. I was alone with my thoughts. I layed on my bed and covered my eyes with my hands. I was happy for them but I didn't want them to leave. I know that being separated from my twin brother will be tough. Also, being separated from Carlos will be tough too. I felt my phone vibrate on the bed and I reached for it without opening my eyes. I opened the phone and finally opened my eyes to read a text from Paige.
"Carlos is talking to Maya Kendall's house. We're all here and she just showed up. U gonna come thru?"
I re-read the text. Maya is a nice person but she spent more time with Carlos than I did and I envied her for it.
"No, I'm going to sleep. I'll see you all tomorrow."
I put my phone on the table after turning it off and then drifted into sleep on my bed.
I woke up the next morning and took a shower and then got dressed. I ignored eating breakfast again. Soon James woke up and we picked up Paige at her house, picked up Victor at his house, and then left to Kendall's. Kendall's mom and his little sister Katie were going to L.A with them. I hugged Logan, Kendall and James. I tried not to cry as I hugged my twin. He kissed my cheek and I kissed his.
"I'll miss you," I told him.
"I'll miss you too little sis," he laughed.
"You're only older by three minutes!" I shoved him gently. "Here." I handed him a present. It was in blue paper and a yellow bow.
"What's this?"
"Open it and see!"
He ripped open the paper and found a picture frame and inside was the picture my mom had taken of us before we left to Homecoming.
"Remember me!" I smiled as he looked at it.
"Thanks," James hugged me one last time. He then walked to Paige so they could say their goodbyes.
"Where's Carlos?" I looked around.
"Right here," Carlos walked down the street towards me with a smile. He was wearing his black helmet.
I gave him a hug. "Good luck in L.A. I'll miss you," I said softly.
"I'll miss you more," he took his helmet off his head. "Take this."
"Huh? Carlos I cant. You love your helmet."
"To remember me by, I have more helmets."
"This is your favorite one though."
"Now it's yours," he shoved it into my hands.
"Fine."
"Just kiss her!" Paige yelled.
I looked at Carlos who was blushing. I felt my face heat up, I was blushing too.
"Ok, time to go! Everyone in the car!" Ms. Knight said.
"See you soon?" I asked. I felt stupid asking. I knew it would be close impossible to see him soon.
"Yeah," he leaned in and kissed my cheek. 'Stop kissing my cheek!' I thought. I took a few steps away from the car and stood beside Paige and Victor. Ms. Knight started the car and they drove away.
"C'mon Alex, let's go," Victor said. I know he didn't want me to deal with this heartbreak. Victor and Paige knew I liked Carlos for a long time. Paige had always tried to get me to make the first move, Victor had always tried to protect me. He knew that Carlos wanted to be a singer and would eventually leave so he tried to get me interested in other guys. It never worked, I only have eyes for Carlos. I still do now, even as I watched the car drive him away from me.
I think I could have done better with this chapter. Well here it is anyway! I know it's short and I'm sorry for that. So what do you people want to see happen in Chapter three?
